January

• my sister is in the hospital and had to go through major surgery three times, losing lots of blood, a cyst had to be cut out and her appendix was removed
• loneliness
• boredom
• isolation
• getting aware of that I will never be able to lead a "normal" life"
• icy streets that lead to me landing on my ass
• the radiators in our flat were dead for 24 hours, I was freezing like hell *brrr*

February

• more fucking snow!!
• last meeting with my therapist

March

• no psych contact, no money, blah

April

• Still no psych contact
• GAD-anxiety with physical symptoms

May

• got to know that I'm not on any waitinglist for therapy
• My parents decide to get a divorce
• My cousin's suicide attempt
• The death of my boyfriend's father

June

• not going out much, despite the lovely weather
• Per's seizures, fainting, I thought he was going to die, total freak-out!
• My fear of meds leads to that I don't take the meds I probably need
• Getting to hear that my new psych-doctor is going to quit in September

July

• worst month of this year so far anxiety-wise, I'm on the edge of going crazy
• trying to quit taking Propavan, gave up and am back on the old dosage
• no psych-contact during the whole month

August

• damn withdrawal-symptoms from the Seroquel -> never been so restless and have muscle spasms all the time. GAH!
• isolation

September

• too much studies *ugh*
• zero motivation
• lost half of my hair due to over-bleaching it
• fucking restless legs

October

• got to know that I have hypothyroidism
• total social isolation
• fucking restless legs

November

• car trouble
• restless legs from hell and spasms
• sleep deprivation/insomnia
• anxiety, anxiety, anxiety

December

• restless legs from hell and spasms
• suicide attempt -> one week at the hospital
• lots of problems with people in my life
• falling behind with my studies