• jenessa

(the first person I called right after my first suicide attempt. she saved my life. she's also like an older sister to me.)

• Brooke

(my ex best friend, but the first person I did everything to help. I may of saved her life but I lost so much. she is my trauma. but I love her.)

• josh

(my homie slice since day one. we've been best friends for forever and he has always been my biggest supporter. he speaks on my behalf, hears what I need to stay, he offers to walk me home and help me study and just overall care ant me. he honestly was the only person who gripped my hand when I was at my lowest.)

• Kaitlyn

(ive known her for LIFEEEEE. even though we never hang or anything, she's my sister. She's gone through so much crap yet she still envelopes me in hugs and writes me things and always tells me she loves me. she always is so open and warm to me. shed give me the world if she could.)

• jaydan

(oh my sweet baby jay. I still wish we were as close as we were. she's told me I am the first person who let her realize her worth- and she taught me to love myself. She opened up every part of me that I couldn't and she loved me anyways. she gave me a place. a purpose. a home. im sorry jay. im so sorry. I still wish we loved each other like we used to)

• lindie

(pretty sure she's my soul mate or something, or were twin flames, but lindie has always been someone so special to me. Despite the fact she still made me feel even worse when I was super suicidal, (body shaming, discriminating, making fun of my mental illness, teasing me, etc) she's taught me how to work through things and forgive. we do just abt everything together and I know I can go to her for anything. she's always been one of the first people that recognizes when im upset, or something just happened. she's written me letters and sung me songs and given advice and tells me the things I need to hear. I love her.

• hadlee

my best friend!!! love this girl more then i love summer sunrises and starry nights. anyways, shes the first person who actually ever stuck around and stayed, work theough the nitty gritty and told be things how they were. set examples for me. i learned so much abt myself, respect, boundries- she stayed and it means everything to me. Without her id probably be dead rn, and probably one hell of a mess. she taught me to listen, and to learn.

• mone

I hate her so much. she's so stupid but she's my little sister who I would die for and I mean that. she deserved nothing. I wish I could give her the world. she's always always there for me.

• lissa

basically my mom. Lissa has taught mt discipline, the first person who has never complained abt sitting with me and talking for hrs in my driveway. she loves me so much and she's so strong. I wish she would let herself be loved.

• noelia

FOR SOME REASON SHE IS ALWAYS RIGHT THERE AT THE MOST DEVASATING MOMENTS OF MY LIFE???? when my dad found out I was gay, the morning after an attempt, when I thought I lost my best friend- she's so loving.

• Jen

first therapist. she brought me peaches and her dog and helped me understand alot.

• mr wood

the father I wish I had. I tell him just abt everything. he gives amazing advice, lets me know im loved, checks up on me. just a great man.

• mabel

I love this girl. she is so small and fragile and I guess I learned what it was like to come to love someone again and firdcely and not be ashamed. I love her.

• lexie

She hurt my little sister. I dont think I can ever forgive her. but I see so much of myself in her and the wounded child that she is. I dont know how to love her, but I guess thats because I dont think anyone really loved me. but im trying, I want to be the person for her I never had.

• royce

he is the best uncle. he would pick me up for rides and buy my breakbeats, and just talk to me. he showed me love and support and gave me a place to stay when I hated my home.

• Sabrina

my big sister sab <3 she doesnt know much abt the shit that goes on in my life, but shes always there for me. she confronted me with just abt the most embarrassing moment of my life, and i cried and freaked out and held me and told me that i wasnt some weirdo and that id be okay. She would drive me around all the time and just let me listen to the songs i like, she reminded me of my worth and held me so tightly that i felt my own heartbeat.

• Emma

stfu i miss u so much emmalemma omfg— ik, you were my dirty little secret that wasnt so dirty. but by god you really are and were my best friend. with everyone else in the world, i would pick you. i miss you. You are just abt everything i loved. Anyways, you would stay up and wait for me, call me all the time, dm me every hr of the night. You made me feel loved, made me lists of how much u loved me. my stupid roleplay buddy, my furry sister, you sent me memes and made me laugh. I miss you.

• alee

you are also such a special person to me. i also miss you, more then anything, you were also there for me, we would ft all the time and you would make me straight up piss myself. you made me feel like the baddest bitch alive, and always hyped me up. you were so cute, so soft, so sweet. i will never forget you and the wonderful person u are.

• 8+ 14 year old boys

god im crying right now. i am never going to be like the girls who were gang raped, or hidden in a corner and hurt. i will never know. and i guess i ended up on the lighter spectrum of SA. but i hope you all know that you hurt me. to this day i have nightmares, though i was never “penetrated” i was violated. i was 13. you hands in my pants, youre grip on my bare breasts- so many, everywhere, my thighs were torn apart, i had bodies on top of me and i made the scaredest look id ever made as i looked into lindies eyes. it was pe, sure, just kids messing around for a ball. but im hurt. and im still scared. i cant talk about it. you have damaged me, the way i interact with men, the way i am myself in this world. the worst part is that i dont really know who it was and who it wasnt.

daibyn - god well, im only guessing it was you. but you were the one behind me in class. and i stood there, hopleless and i took it. god. why didnt you stop? i was so rigid- i could look back at you- i was so terrified. Do you have no morals? was it the other boy next to you? I DIDNT LIKE IT. I WAS SCARED. i still feel so gross and so uncomfortable. i hope you rot.

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