Thursday April 20th

• had my last exam, relig 274, went well bc it was pre-prepared essays but there were 6 of them and it took me 2 hrs nd 45 mins out of 3 hrs rip my brain. HURT
• i went and talked to my lovely prof glen after, my eye was leaking the entire time and i was like "btw i wasnt crying my eyes just leaking" and he was like damn ok thats good i was worried i wondered if i shld check on u or not fjdjdkdk then i told him id give him a 5 on rate my prof if he knew what my tattoo meant and he DIDNT but then i told him and he was trying to be like: noooo thats black speech of mordor fjdjdk "can you tell im really trying to get that 5/5" and so i told him id give him a 4.9 lol and then he told me it was rlly cool my hort :)
• i got a salty cream milk cap bubble tea frm teapsy :)
• went home and talked to mom and kaylen, got ready, then aran picked me up and chloe and ora too and took us to ben's last showcase thing at macewan
• talked abt how im a lowkey furry in the car but JST BC I LIKE HYBRIDS it was funny
• bens showcase was so good, there were abt 20 students and elaine was 1 of 2 accompanists, every student did a musical theatre solo and they did some cast songs, they did this sweeny todd one it was SO GOOD AND INTENSE LIKE DAMN???? ben's solo was so angsty and good what a nice voice. also i fell in love w this boy named cam bc he was hella cute and this girl i cant remember her name but i think shes an angel she had the nicest smile and the sweetest voice GODDBDJDJD jameela was also there and she sang it takes two frm itw w another guy and it was so good but i didnt get to say hi to her :( but anyways everyone was crying at the end and i almost cried :( and ben and elaine were kind of crying RIP MY HEART
• aran drove me home after and we had a nice heart to heart chat and we were trying to find that haunted hospital but we decided we'd go on an adventure another day b4 i leave :')
• i was in a good mood all day and i felt. so nice

Friday April 21

• i was planning on meeting chloe at cc to get food before going to see aran in his scholarship class @ alberta college, but ben said he was free earlier than he expected so after a rlly long complicated process of trying to figure out where to meet and shit ben picked us up and drove us to double greeting wonton house which was a rlly decrepit looking place but it was so lovely!!!!! i got curry chicken and green onion cakes
• we met ora ate in the caf at alberta college and ate our food it was pretty good the curry rice was the best tho damn and aran came and sat w us
• there were like 11 performers and they all sang 3 musical theatre songs each and so it was a LONG show but it was amazing!!!! bc everyone was so talented and there were going to be 3 scholarships awarded
• aran went somewhere in the middle and before him i was like damn there is some. fuckin talent right there, the first girl was incredible like her voice and her acting and presence fjddk and the next girl sang a song called changing my major and it changed my life anyways i was jst being blown away maybe i have low standards for musical theatre bc im not in that world. at all lol but ANYWAYS. so aran was nervous so damn nervous fjdjdjd and it was honestly the most nervous IVE been in a while too godjdjddjd can my anxious ass live
• so aran goes on and like ????? THERES SUDDENLY NO COMPETITION ??????? aran's voice is so fucking superb like hes so strong and unfaltering he has so much control and has such a lovely voice and good vibrato and he sang somethings coming which made me bust some nuts, then joanna and i heard him sing that before but it was still beautiful and then he sang one i dndt know but he was so animated i lost it i didnt know he had it in him fjdkdjdjd!!!!! but yea he did so well like defs the best voice out of everyone in my onion
• HE WON 2Nd!!!!!!!!! he was defs in the top 5 best people and i shldve had more faith in him but i was WORRIED OK but yea i was soooo happy for him like proud af mom??? my heart grew 20 times in that moment like the grinch
• on the way home, aran told me about why he was so nervous, and i admired how well he could put his anxiety into words. he said he needed the reassurance of winning, and that all his work wasnt going to waste. he's going to theatre school next year so i understand that. he also said that he felt he needed to do well because we were there watching him. im really glad we could all be there to support him. my s o n
• i was in such a good mood again, i have so much love for my friends

Saturday April 22

• woke up early to go see raina and arans duet.. it wasnt hard at all to wake up bc i was in a good mood again :) my dad drove me and hannah there and we met up w chloe and clayton too
• aran also had another musical theatre performance which was excellent of course
• their duet was very very cute and they did so well and rainas highlight was poppin as hell!!!!
• i kept sending ugly ass memes to the choir group chat and aran turned to me and said: why are you the way you are and i said: love me or leave me baby, and he said: oh ill definitely leave firghiohoso drag m,e
• aran won 1st in his category and they won 1st for their duet too :))))
• han and i took the bus home together and i lazed around so much but like i didnt have to feel guilty abt it bc its SUMMER BABY, also got ready and like damn im the most beautiful woman in canada
• went to the church around 6:45 to practice w the sextet for our gig that night, I WAS SO HYPE WTF, practiced our setlist and movement and stuff, elaine wrote little things for us to say between songs :-)
• we all drove together to the gig in millwoods, we were rlly hyped it was great, ended up being at a church called CORPSE OF CHRIST (jk but) it was for a catholic woman's dinner? there were soo many old women there fjif and we performed in the corner on the ground w a lame keyboard and a mic but it went SO WELL!! all the ladies loved us so much ffj they kept smiling @ us and were so responsive, we even got to do stuck on you w jst the 6 of us and it was actually so lit!!!!! and they gave us a standing ov at the end :') we got paid 250$ and we each got $20 :0
• we had to drop maclean off at home so he cld go to a family party tho :/ fakeass
• the rest of us went to bp in century park :-) and it was SO FUKCIN FUN elaine paid for pizza w the money we got and we all got alcohol and idk it was jst so great to talk to everyone and laugh and have fun and elaine is so great and funny and easy to talk to
• except at one point everyone was talking about ghosts and i started dissociating so hard?? what the heckeronie that sucked hahahahahahhahha but anyways we ended up staying so damn long like the performance was frm 8:30-9:15 and we stayed at bp till like midnight?? damn
• i was also slightly tipsy wow i only had 2 cocktails NOTE TO SELF THE RASpberrY MARGARITA YTASTES LIKE COTTON CANDY so ye i paid for my drinks w the 20$ we earned lmao
• we drove home and it was so lit elaine told this story about simon's dad trying to give his clothes to rory and elaine was. D YING LAUGHING LIENEDfiodhsoehgsh it ws so funny
• she complained abt millenials but its ok its elaine
• i slept as soon as i got home w my makeup on whoops :/ also i felt super fucking emo for some reason honestly i think it was bc i was gonna miss my choir friends BC WE WLD BE APART FOR TWO DAYS THE HORROR but yea i rlly wanted to die lol rip

Sunday April 24

• i had a restless but good sleep? like i kept waking up but i felt good when i woke up???
• got ready for work and bussed there, was ready for an easy day of work but!!!!!!!! kill me
• IT WAS SO BUSY AND DUMB like it went by fast but ada and me worked togther and it was still so busy :/ and it ended up taking me like an hour to close but dad picked me up so nice
• we talked abt time travel on the way home nice
• i also didnt eat all day??? wtf until like 7 when i got home
• dad made me leftovers so nice
• told mom abt the performance the day before :)
• had a shower and mum and dad watched edge of tomorrow

i did my laundry WOW AMAzINg

• finally!11 rabbited/skyped w oli and tiff again and played a game called Dramatical Murder.... wow amazing it was kinda boring but it was fun to talk to tiff and oli again and koujaku is hot

Monday April 24

• its rainas 20th bday so i posted some ugly pics of us on twitter nice but she complained so i posted nicer ones and she was like "why are u posting the ugliest pics of me" and han said "try and look less ugly when u get pics taken? Not my fault" ajskndkjs
• i tried to do "natural" makeup bc i wanna try lookin fresh?? but 2 no avail and it took like half an hour extra Kill Me? ic ant survive w/o caking my face tf out w powder
• it was raining and i had some deep thoughts which i shared on peach about worms creeping me out because they look like corpses struggling and writhing on the ground
• on the bus ride to work chloe and i had a v intense text convo abt how we were gna go see aran on wed and the fact that THIS GIRL HE MET ON TINDER WAS GNA BE IN THE SAME CLASS AS HIM
• "tinder tales... like dragon tales but sadder"-chloe
• i went to work and it was busy bc we had an $800 gift order omfg but it ended up being ok bc we had Susan and we closed together in 10 mins :)
• dad drove me home and he told me all abt the edge of tomorrow stuff he'd researched lol it was lowkey mansplaing tho
• i got home and ate some fruit cocktail cake mom made
• kaylen and i attempted writing but we were so fckin hyper and she started making farting noises and we were. fucking dying laughing and i recorded it and sent it to a bunch of ppl GOD CAN I LIVE ?????

Tuesday April 26

• had to get up rlly early bc i worked at 10:30 kill me
• i managed to jst listen to music on the bus and not use my phone hmmmmm i was rlly sleepy
• work was slow as hell tbh
• i was messaging aran and i asked him if i shld bring some cookies to choir and he said PLEASE I WOULD NUT IN MY JORTS so im proud of him
• i feel like im talking abt aran a lot but i jst have a tiny crush on my son like a Proud mom(?)
• i had an 8 hour fucking shift and my feet hurt after TWO HOURS KILL ME
• we got busy bc we got like 9 gifts for order and i was jst w kayla and samantha but i made ALL THE GIFTS AND FOLDED THE BOXES AND EVERYTHING I FELT SO DAMN EXPERIENCED AND PRODUCTIVE and it made it go by faster
• raina was at school so i ate w her while i was on my break i had. Edo and it was funny we jst sat there on our phones tbh and dragged eachother while hannah watched on in the group chat
• when i got back frm my break kayla unloaded some SHIT so like i was under the impression that she got fired bc she called her friend stupid or w/e but she told me the friend was actually her best friend from forever and kayla was jst super tired and maybe said smthn kinda mean to her friend but her friend she tattled on her and then everyone started ganging up on her even bo which i felt bad for her for like thats snake af and the only thing that annoyed me was that she kept saying how mature she is but like shes NOT GOFFDS shes so immature im laugh but anyways she said she quit so whatever and then she told me the REAL Shit so basically bo hired her at hub to spy on us?? like thats legit what he to do CHRIST so that he wld know how our work ethic is and stuff and lik e its kinda fucked luckily she SAID she didnt shit talk any of us but kayla actually disagreed w bo on that one but i mean like heck she was getting paid! but yea ofc made me think differently abt bo like?? ive always thought he was fake bc he seems so kind and gental af but he doesnt seem like a real human?? he seems so business and like everything he says is planned its unsettling but now i know the FACTS he is a true snake
• ANYWAYS.... SO i met raina and we bussed to choir together and she unloaded SO MUCH SHIT like we had a DEEP TALK abt clayton and if i liked him or not bc chloe ora and elaine hate him and they all told me they did too bc he was the bf of one of elaines students and he treated her SO badly once they broke up and so it made me hate him + i honestly dnt even know him well so like?? but anyways raina tells me that happened 5 years ago!!! so like!! woah i cant rlly judge him for smthn he did 5 yrs ago?? im tired as fuck hopefully ill remmever this later i wanna contue later
• THINGS ABT CLAYTON AND HANNAH IM SO LAZY I WROTE ABT IT AND THEN IT GOT DELETED SO BASICALLY RAINA AND I HAD DEEP TALKS IN THE CHURCH BASEMENT BATHROOM
• choir was good cant complain love my friends
• got home and kk and i had deep talks in her room abt friends/sleepovers
• i just. have so much overwhelming love for my choir friends like ever since last thursday on ive jst??? my fucking heart once again i wish i cld talk abt this more but im too lazy rip these are my actual feelings
• i was so scared about catching feels for a guy before going to korea because it would make leaving edmonton/being there painful. and it did happen... but it happened... with my friends

Wednesday April 26

• met maclean and chloe at starbucks before going to see aran at his last festival performance.. got a green tea latte. its fun hanging out w them and they dnt make me feel uncomfortable which i rlly. LOVE AND APPRECIATE! i told them abt this post abt making out w ur friends instead of fist bumping it and maclean was like: more like stick your fist up my ass.... iconic
• aran did well as usual he sang a german song in the lower range ad i came... he didnt win tho but w/e hes a champ
• he was supposed to go on a date aftr but it got cancelled poor guy:/ so i got him to drive me home im so insensitive LMAO
• i got home and watched like 5 episodes of steins;gate in the hottub room and i was home alone so it was rlly peaceful and comfy anyways HOLY FUCK EP 12 GETS REAL AS. H E L L I WAS SHOOK TO THE CORE
• i started ass class and parasyte and ass class was uncomfy as hell but ill probably still watch it, parasyte was more interesting to me and shinichi is like??? THE CUTEST ANIME BOY IVE EVER SEEN GOD
• i watched anime for like 5 hours so i felt like i was in a coma after or like i took a 7 hour nap im so weak
• i made a swedish chocolate cake and damn... im amazing
• kaylen and i hung out in the basement watching random markiplier videos and bad american idol episodes till like 4:30 am GODNFBOJ KILL ME

Thursday April 27