- talking about myself/icebreakers
- eating food in front of other people
- meeting new people for the first time
- saying nice things to people's faces
- coming home
- when time moves too quickly/the feeling of wasting time
- am i living enough? have i carpe diem'd the shit out of today?
- food wrappers
- blenders/vacuums/yelling
- angry yelling specifically
- babies crying, children having tantrums
- falling in love
- opening up to people
- talking in front of more than 3 people
- people buying things for me
- people messaging me first
- left on delivered by your own closest friend
- another birthday alone
- never going to experience this day again
- lack of knowledge w my own culture
- never feeling accepted
- being forgotten
- never being loved again
- putting my all into something again
- failing school
- not getting into college/uni
- crying in front of classmates
- never meeting the people i look up to
- never telling the ones i love that i do adore them
- never publishing my poetry
- never writing again
- living somewhere that isn't near the sea
- being trapped again
- falling back into old habits
- seeing her again
- losing all my interests again
- going numb again
- drinking everything away again
- becoming an emotional wreck again
- feeling unworthy of respect again
- selling myself out again
- watching everyone i know become successful and leave me behind
- lose the last few things i really have
- becoming heartless
- not enjoying music anymore
- not writing anymore
- abandoning my animal crossing island
- losing them again
- losing them again
may 15 2021 ∞
sep 5 2022 +