how does it feel to be on a list with a bunch of kpoppies XD okay that was a bad start but it's because idk why i get nervous when it comes to expressing feelings to someone i am insanely close to. it may be that i fear i can't ever express it as deep at it is in my heart so my brain'd rather try to at all and it nope's out of it. either way, i'm gonna try my best!! i- i am so thankful that we have the same humor and thought pattern (i may not be number 1 rank but hear me out we think alike) bc we are at the cheesy best friend point where you say something before i can and istg :T i know that you have a hard time believing friends confession of love or gratitude but you are amazing, truly. you are not appreciated enough, your teachers damn well fall over telling you how it is with how smart and special you are but THAT DOESNT EVEN BEGIN TO CONVEY HOW AMAZING MF. we met sean together and one day we can see marina, probably won't get another snazzy reciept autograph but you will see your baby. as someone who gets drained from every social situation no matter the love, it's calming to have someone to just be with and i wish that we could have sleepover more often but it ok, the gym and wendy's will have to do it for now. thank you for being someone that i could spend endless time with but won't end in me wanting to slither away into a grenouille-esque cave (that was a disgusting sentence but im gonna make you read it) ksalfdj youre so fking funny im laughing just writing this bc im so makdsfaskd i'm not perfect at all but i really do mean everything i say and i wanna thank you that you were still friends with me when i was a cowardly cunt bc everyday i think about how honored i am. please know how much i mean everything isay and know that i mean it deep in my heart that i love you and admire you and im crying but i want the best for you which is being STOPPED by your father smh but in a year you will be in san fran just a half hour ? from me and we can catch up and talk about how you're beating everyone's ass academically. can't promise myself that trying to express how genuine i am will work in the slightest to get through to you when i do say these words but know that i'm one of many voices that give do love you. i saved this letter for last because i knew i would be so kfajsdkjf emo and teary trying to express this bc i never let it out fully with you but aaaah. i've been messy and out of it for awhile but i hear everything you say and it's all important b. leia and marina and sean and bo and mao and stalin and katya and i love you very very much. not to be gay but i believe in you.