week 053

• "I feel like moving up north could be a fun adventure."
• visiting Jen and Lee, learning to play poker and drinking, sleeping next to Tyler in a single-person-sized guest bed
• spending hours with Tyler, ending up in some overwhelming emotional state of joy, shivering, thinking that things are not so bad after all
• watching Octonauts with my nephew
• chugging coffee, spending the evening with Tyler, writing 1200 words
• waking up early, working a satisfying day, even getting the opportunity to write a bit
• painting in my room to The Editors, watching the way white swirls with cobalt and golden yellow
• writing an email to James, reminiscing and hoping him joy
• taking care of myself, working out consistently
• crying so hard that I could not sleep, so hard that my entire core ached, and not understanding why - feeling humbled and helpless
• introducing Tyler to Matt, playing SSB Brawl and laughing, talking about New York
• speaking in depth to Manda, helping her make Chandler's cake
• hanging out with Brad, playing SSBB
• going to a giant bounce house, rolling around, going down slides at ridiculously high speeds, throwing myself down headfirst on my back, laughing all the while
• liquor store trip with Tyler, a relaxing night spent talking