- walking several blocks with Max to get Vietnamese food, him buying me a beer, being too much of a lightweight and getting drunk halfway through it, walking back to campus giggling
- spending 2+ days doing math + programming
- staying up until midnight (I actually expected so much later) finishing my first programming assignment, then staying up until 2am for celebratory drinks with Max
- approaching N in the hallway with Max, him asking us how we're doing, both responding "Good, how are you?" then jealously scolding Max, "He was talking to me, not you!", watching N turn around to let me know he was cracking up
- engineering expo, walking around with a box of nachos, opening and closing the box to feed people, making monster noises as it opened because sleep deprivation is so very real and makes us all strange
- very lightly poking N in the back, shooting a flirtatious smile over my shoulder as he turned to look and smile when he saw it was me, feeling like this tension will never, ever, ever go away
- saving the pizza party in 1 hour with 7 minutes to spare, running into data structures late, N hesitating at the sight of me and stopping class to greet me with an overly warm "Hey! Have some cookies!" and everyone in the class saying hi to me, feeling weirdly accepted
- talking with N while we held open the doors for the electric car, "I'm so scared I'm going to end up too focused on my other classes and then I'm going to fail your class." "I don't think you have to worry about that."
- going to last club meeting of the quarter, talking to N about summer plans
- "I won't see you again for a while. Let's walk.", crying, holding on tight
- Skyping with Will, omg he's adorable
- watching Monster Factory together over Skype and laughing until we were crying, nearly screaming laughing into our pillows
- dancing around the apartment singing The Bird & The Bee's "Doctor"
- "remember when you stayed up all night with me while i did all of the homework for my history of modern architecture class in one sitting"
- "i adore you and i'd pretty much move tectonic plates if i could to see you"
- getting an A on precalc final!
- seeing my parents for the first time since last August omg!!!
- finding an extremely cyberpunk funnel neck coat for $13 (nice)
- Will sending me a pic of him in his suit, me getting flustered and super clumsy after this, dumping too much salt in the pasta water and dropping things, sitting laughing on the kitchen floor, telling him about it - "sorry mom my future boyf just sent me a fire selfie"
- Skype with Will again, "goodbye" "goodbye" ".......fine, I'll hang up first"
- going to Cape Disappointment with my parents for Father's Day after my father has wanted to go there for years
- climbing giant rocks at Waikiki Beach and watching the water and sitting, feeling infinitely peaceful, wanting Will nearby
- driving to Seattle with my parents
- staying up late every night talking to Will
- telling my sister about Will, her immediate response being "WTF ARE YOU DOING, MARRY HIM NOW. PACK YOUR SHIT AND GO"
- "fucking elope with me already"
- "you deserve the fucking world and I plan on giving it to you"
- "you're all mine and i'm never letting you go now"
- riding back to Portland with my parents, listening to The Beach Boys on my headphones & grinning uncontrollably, feeling the happiest I've ever felt
- dropping my parents at the airport, watching both of them start to tear up
- listening to the second playlist Will has made me this month, getting chills
- Skyping with Will for 4.5 hours oops
- standing up, his startled reaction of "oh -- th-that's a dress"
- "I hope I dream of you."
- "it's just you and me now."
- deciding on a whim that I have to get out of this town, buying plane tickets for a flight in 2 days
- "tfw your visit gets multiplied and also moved up by two weeks"
jun 3 2016 ∞
jul 1 2016 +