writing down some stuff relevant to my ever uncertain feelings regarding whether or not i was sexually abused

- repeated touching of ass even after explicit demands to stop; i.e. repeated touches that were, to the victim, a sexual violation and a loss of bodily autonomy/disregard for boundaries regarding what is done to their body. the message made clear that they are only allowed to feel a way or decide things about their body if a parent has approved such)

- covert incest in form of being subject to father joking about being incestuous towards them. father repeatedly through childhood and adulthood (still ongoing) making comments on their sexual vulnerability to cis men (i.e. victim blaming for any potential r*pe that might occur/"you shouldn't do X or else a man will be tempted to r*pe you")

- covert incest, repeatedly throughout life commented on butt and how other men were looking or would look.

- covert incest in an isolated incident of showing adult child a sexual/disturbing scene in a show.

- not necessarily sexual abuse but definitely bad parenting, repeatedly exposing children to disturbing media including disturbing sexual content. it falls into an area of maturity like a child showing another child something or a teen just being ignorant of what their sibling is watching/not caring, but it affects the child all the same.