this is a list of lists, yes.

• a list of events, perceptions, thoughts, observations during my most significant panic attack of sorts
• asexuality: asexual "orgasms"
• asexuality: characteristics of myself based on this, apparently
• asexuality: things that are completely frustrating to us folk
• best places to hide things
• birpraggies and each of their identifiable traits
• board games I want
• Christmas gift ideas 2010
• Christmas songs I could tolerate and even sometimes play aloud
• common physical/verbal notions that Loren and I tend to share (as we apparently meld into a pseudo-singular being)
• creature-esque characteristics of Dana Cohen
• critical analysis: things I enjoyed that are now destroyed
• critical analysis: things that still get me when I "see through" everything
• Dana's physical failures during time periods of fretting
• Dunkin' Donuts: sly ways in which they have me hooked (ie. food photography, appearance giving off the impression that they're cheaper than "fancier" looking coffee venues, etc.)
• excuses I've formulated throughout the ages
• five senses
• frequently traversed loci of ya bitch
• if I knew I was going to die soon
• iPhone 4 users I know
• items that seem "asexual" in nature
• lessons unintentionally gleaned from my college experience
• list of firsts
• mantras of sorts
• musical apathy: songs that I could still desperately attempt to wring slight pleasure out of
• musical apathy: trends, thoughts, and ideas in relation to this
• my apparently innate "all or nothing" mentality with everything: blatant examples in my life
• names I've been referenced by
• no longer random passerby
• odd, severely specific stereotypes I frequently encounter
• people I'm convinced do not actually exist
• physical indicators of fat and skinny days
• pictures to put in the empty frame in my bedroom
• places to go on my Apocalyptic Vacation World Tour
  • there could always be more elaboration
• "processing time" (numb, hollow activities I find myself doing in detrimental amounts to simply take longer in whatever my actual task is; I'm convinced it may be some biological/psychological subconscious attempt at achieving mental equilibrium - by idling my body for long, unacknowledged periods of time in numb actions to naturally distract me from death. if I was fully aware of everything all of the time my thoughts may eat myself alive and that would not be a good thing.)
• product phases I've experienced at Dunkin Donuts throughout the years
• prospective names for children of the future
• qualities of parents
• qualities of parents that I see in myself
• reliable/cheap lunches to have during school
• restaurants I make strong efforts to avoid due to name (ie. "Bistro", "Fusion", "Modern _ Cuisine", etc.)
• routine precautions to actively apply to my life at specific times
• seasonal wardrobes
• snowboarding equipment (and what I need to restore)
• songs sung by the Cunts of the Castle (whom are appropriately all understanding/supportive of the concept of "musical apathy")
• StumbleUpon: the best of the best I've encountered
• symbols/basic images I enjoy
• tattoo images I would consider but not really at all in reality
• terrible past life events that have been triggered by the internet
• terrifyingly similar qualities of high-intensity bipolar individuals I have encountered within my lifetime
• the best of 2010
• the purge of illicit things
• the worst of 2010
• things I love about Coral Tower and living here sophomore year
• things I loved about Rubin Hall and living there freshman year
• things I love about living/occupying space in my house on Long Island
• things that are "___-esque in form" (I need to catch on and record every time I find myself using this phrase, because for however oddly specific of a descriptor it is, I tend to use it in concerning amounts)
• things that make me apparently "specific"
• things that make me boy-ish
• things that people may misinterpret as Loren and I being lesbians
• things to look forward to in 2011
• things: a manifesto of the Cunt Castle [what's inside of the Cunt Castle] (I tried to create a manifesto for the Lady Enclave of 1001 at the end of last year, but it ultimately failed as there was too much to capture in such a short period of time - if I do this gradually as it develops, it may actually become a successful Cunt Castle Manifesto!
• "uniforms" throughout the years
• what I've learned about my infinite existence in and as everything
• what I've learned from my experiences with intoxicants
• words I will always spell wrong
• ya bitch in the next decade
• 
  deep-rooted, long-term weights of guilt
• 
  circumstantially what's eating me alive towards the end of Fall semester '10
• 
  what's been repeatedly concluded and learned due to circumstances and my mental state (end of November - December 2010)
• 
  amusing poop-related experiences in the ladies' room
• things to keep me occupied over winter break [2010 - 2011]
• ways in which I've pointlessly harassed E.Dombz over the years, and her minor retributions in return
• things I've realized Kyle was actually right about back in the day...
• NYU study lounges I've occupied space and time within
• to import/export from the Cunt Castle (winter break)
• halal carts I've eaten at and reviews of them
• days I haven't "gettuced" [2011]
• fast food eaten, and what [2011]
• days I've cried and why [2011]
• days I've casually vomited and where [2011]
• egg sandwiches consumed this year and my reviews of them
• MUJI items owned