huaishi. shades of green. questioning everything. mood swings. pride. anger. leaves. black sand. finding out. moths. photography. loyalty. animations. jean paul gaultier. long hair. huge eyes. silver. syrian bread. the white in waves. (then tidal waves. sneaky waves. waves.) tenderness. obsessions. gardening. perception. creatures that fit the palm of my hand. keeping all masks off . grumpy cats. fiona. singing for my loved ones. lost causes. eroticism. changing. rosemary and thyme. 90's music. revenge. neosoul. ladybugs. volcanoes. and poetry!

[the silence of plants]

a one-sided relationship is developing quite well between you and me. i know what a leaf, petal, kernel, cone, and stem are, and i know what happens to you in april and december.

though my curiosity is unrequited, i gladly stoop for some of you, and for others I crane my neck.

i have names for you: maple, burdock, liverwort, eather, juniper, mistletoe, and forget-me-not; but you have none for me.

after all, we share a common journey. when traveling together, it's normal to talk, exchanging remarks, say, about the weather, or about the stations flashing past.

we wouldn't run out of topics for so much connects us. the same star keeps us in reach. we cast shadows according to the same laws. both of us at least try to know something, each in our own way, and even ...

terror te amar num sítio tão frágil como o mundo. mal de te amar neste lugar de imperfeição. onde tudo nos quebra e emudece. onde tudo nos mente e nos separa. [s.m.b.a]  ❃ ⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂

— favourite writers:

• milan kundera ;
• wislawa szymborska ;
• sylvia plath ;
• elvira vigna ;
• sophia de mello breyner andresen ;
• caio fernando abreu ;
• clarice lispector ;
• catherynne m. valente ;
• fernando pessoa ;
• adília lopes ;
• fyodor dostoevsky.

— getting acquainted to:

• leo tolstoy ;
• virginia woolf ;

i am not a woman, but the light that falls on this gate, on this ground. i am the seasons, I think sometimes, january, may, november; the mud, the mist, the dawn. i cannot be tossed about, or float gently, or mix with other people.

‍ ‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍‍ ‍ ‍ — virginia woolf.

• a: amor ⋅ ascension ⋅ anemone ⋅ absence ⋅ 'أبدي' (abdi) ⋅ afloat
• b: bubbles ⋅ beast ⋅ blossom ⋅ bem-te-vi
• c: cariño ⋅ citrus ⋅ cojones
• d: deathless ⋅ dusk ⋅ disfruto ⋅ destino ⋅ depth
• e: edge ⋅ endure ⋅ everlasting
• f: filth ⋅ forgiveness ⋅ 'فَجر' (fajr) ⋅ flourishing
• g: 'غفران' (ghafrān) ⋅ girassol ⋅ gentle
• h: habibi ⋅ hazelnut ⋅ huaishi ⋅ hunger
• i: iris ⋅ isolation
• j: jade ⋅ jabitacá
• k: kamikaze
• l: leisure ⋅ luna
• m: mãe ⋅ malato ⋅ miseducation ⋅ moth ⋅ measure
• n: noz ⋅ nostalgia ⋅ nightingales

the name's guo. guo niyi . catastrophically aware. a papercut bliss.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𔒝

• on X
• turning 30 on july 3rd, 2033
• a cancer (sun), aquarius (rising), pisces (moon)
• big mouthed, easily bored

stop looking for reasons to hate people. stop focusing on others and fix your own character. i know it makes you proud to have some honor, but you are only mud and water.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𔒝 imam ali.

small ooc note. espaço de preenchimento afetivo. memórias, gostos e jeitos da nini, que tá aqui mas não tanto. :)

❃ jean paul gaultier! (#1 always) ;

❃ 'paêbirú' the album ;

❃ neo soul & alternative rnb ;

❃ interview with the vampire (honestly it's all about lestat).

i shoveled snow onto a strawberry bed; then a dove cooed — on a day when i did nothing but search myself and steep in each minute of the deepening indigo sky, i suddenly had somewhere everywhere to be.

ᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟᅟ — arthur sze.

• flowers: pansy ⋅ anemone ⋅ verbena ⋅ orchid ⋅ dahlia ⋅ peony
• colours: green (olive, jade) ⋅ purple (mauve, lilac) ⋅ black
• names : celine ⋅ maria ⋅ alma ⋅ 梦瑶 (mèng yáo) ⋅ amani
• weather : sunny mornings ⋅ windy and cool at the beach
• feelings : anger ⋅ relief ⋅ happiness
• sounds : wind whistles ⋅ waves crashing ⋅ typing noises ⋅ freshly-lit matches
• places : harbin ⋅ nyc ⋅ amalfi ⋅ taipei ⋅ seoul ⋅ reykjavik
• words : true ⋅ venom ⋅ saudade ⋅ habibi ⋅ tender ⋅ luna
• desserts : baobao ⋅ coconut icecream ⋅ milky chocolate
• drinks : italian soda ⋅ cuba libre ⋅ sparkly water
• hobbies : reading ⋅ moodboards ⋅ singing ⋅ doing nothing

• an animal : ray
• an aroma/smell : hazelnut, shea butter, bulgarian rose
• a god or goddess : the ego
• a day of the week : sunday
• an element : water
• a holiday : new years eve
• a film : suzhou river *
• a taste : of pineapple and coconut
• a musical instrument : piano
• a book : the bible
• a place : the beach
• a month : december
• a number : seven (7)
• a character : yasu takagi
• a planet : venus
• a quote : "stood and puffed your chest out like you never lost a war" *
• a feeling : stubbornness, anger
• a verb : to endure
• a band : café tacvba, sonder
• a color : moss green

[quatro da madrugada]

hora entre a noite e o dia.

hora de um lado para o outro.

hora para os trintões.

hora arrumada para o galo cantar.

hora em que a terra nos repudia.

hora em que o vento de estrelas extintas assobia.

hora do será-que-de-nós-nada-vai-restar.

hora vazia.

surda, vã.

o fundo de todas as outras horas.

ninguém se sente bem às quatro da madrugada.

se as formigas se sentem bem às quatro da madrugada

— felicitemos as formigas. e que soem às cinco

se é para continuar vivendo.

wislawa.