- maybe i should consider alejanbro my first heartbreak but i really don't.
- he was just this d00d that did me dirty for a while and that i eventually wanted to punch in the balls. not really the biggest of deals, i'd have to say. the funny thing is that not too long after shit went south with alejandro, i left panda express for my new job at the bank. i was so happy to get away from him and the stressful environment at work. i was just so ready.
- i'm leaving my banking centre now. things have gone sour.
- it's whatever. there was so much i wanted to write and so much i wanted to get down for me to look back on but i can't remember what it was exactly. i'm just so hurt. and like i told my mom and alejandro, the thing that hurt the most is not that he cared so little about how much he hurt me, but that he wasn't the person i thought him to be. that broke my heart. that honestly broke me.
- he said "i don't know why we're even talking about this anymore. i don't feel bad about what happened."
- there were so many signs that he didn't like me. that's what pains me when i let myself think about it. it was so fucking obvious. it's pathetic. he ignored me when i was a guest in his fucking home, jesus christ. he gave me an extensive tour of his home, took my comments to heart, but after he took a hit of his blunt, it was like i wasn't there. he tried to get close to me when we were sleeping, but when i cuddled up to him, he wasn't the most willing?? like... jesus. how embarrassing. how fucking embarrassing. i liked him so much. i did so much to show him that. and what did he do for me? he stood me up. and then said he didn't feel bad about what happened. he really wanted to go because he knew i wanted to go, but he had other priorities and other things to do. god, just let me bury myself six feet under.
- he said "i promise i'll keep in touch with you. i don't trust you'll keep in touch with me, but i'll keep in touch with you. you won't get rid of me that easily."
- "i like your shoes. they're dope. i'd date those shoes if i could."
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