I'm not even sure it's wise to set goals for the coming year because I don't know what will be possible. However, in this spirit I will phrase my first intention:
- Find a new goal. A new direction. I feel awfully stuck and stagnant at the moment and while sitting with this feeling surely is a lesson I have to learn I am longing for movement and progress. What do I really want in life?
- I'm going to try a habit forming technique. I chose three areas I want to improve and I'm going to dedicate 5 minutes to each of them every day. Meditation (mind), strength training (body) and drawing (creativity). Don't break the chain!
- Find people I vibe with. I've been so disappointed by many of my friends. By their limited world-view, by their lack of drive, openness, understanding, sense of adventure. I really need a new tribe.
- Manifest my dream lover. A hairy man. Bearded, long hair, gorgeous hairy forearms. Tall, light-coloured eyes. Bi-curious. Whip-smart and hilarious. A lover of language. Good with words. Passionate about something. With an artistic streak. And many stable character traits to balance my fickle nature and insecurities. Someone a little challenging to force me out of my comfort zone so we can grow together. Someone I can look up to and learn from. Full of a plethora of small and big goals and ideas. Kind to animals. Preferrably a cat person.
- I want to live in an old house at the edge of the forest. With a big garden and a few old trees. I want to plant flowers and vegetables, have huge rasperry hedges and a few animals running around. Cats, of course, but perhaps a few chicken, too? I want a workshop, an atelier. Work on the house, build my own furniture and make art. The house doesn't have to be big but it needs to have a very spacious kitchen and lots of windows. High ceilings, wood beams and possibly a fireplace. However, this place can't be too far away from the city. As always, I'm not happy either way - I need both. I want it all.
- Movement and flexibility - for both my body and my thoughts. I can't wait to go swimming again and get a new bike. Learn something new. Get stronger. I'm psyched.
- Looking at my health I want to get even better at self-compassion. I want to say: I should do interval fasting, meditate regularly and eat only vegan food. But I've learned that flexible rules work much better for me so I'll just do my best.