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I'm not even sure it's wise to set goals for the coming year because I don't know what will be possible. However, in this spirit I will phrase my first intention:

  • Find a new goal. A new direction. I feel awfully stuck and stagnant at the moment and while sitting with this feeling surely is a lesson I have to learn I am longing for movement and progress. What do I really want in life?
  • I'm going to try a habit forming technique. I chose three areas I want to improve and I'm going to dedicate 5 minutes to each of them every day. Meditation (mind), strength training (body) and drawing (creativity). Don't break the chain!
  • Find people I vibe with. I've been so disappointed by many of my friends. By their limited world-view, by their lack of drive, openness, understanding, sense of adventure. I really need a new tribe.
  • Manifest my dream lover. A hairy man. Bearded, long hair, gorgeous hairy forearms. Tall, light-coloured eyes. Bi-curious. Whip-smart and hilarious. A lover of language. Good with words. Passionate about something. With an artistic streak. And many stable character traits to balance my fickle nature and insecurities. Someone a little challenging to force me out of my comfort zone so we can grow together. Someone I can look up to and learn from. Full of a plethora of small and big goals and ideas. Kind to animals. Preferrably a cat person.
  • I want to live in an old house at the edge of the forest. With a big garden and a few old trees. I want to plant flowers and vegetables, have huge rasperry hedges and a few animals running around. Cats, of course, but perhaps a few chicken, too? I want a workshop, an atelier. Work on the house, build my own furniture and make art. The house doesn't have to be big but it needs to have a very spacious kitchen and lots of windows. High ceilings, wood beams and possibly a fireplace. However, this place can't be too far away from the city. As always, I'm not happy either way - I need both. I want it all.
  • Movement and flexibility - for both my body and my thoughts. I can't wait to go swimming again and get a new bike. Learn something new. Get stronger. I'm psyched.
  • Looking at my health I want to get even better at self-compassion. I want to say: I should do interval fasting, meditate regularly and eat only vegan food. But I've learned that flexible rules work much better for me so I'll just do my best.
dec 28 2020 ∞
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