BOOKS

• Dark Academia (more!)
• Naomi Alderman - The Lessons
• new novels: Sally Ronney, Jennifer Egan, Naomi Novik
• re-read: A. Morgenstern
• library
• James Clear, Peter Crone

TV

• re-watch: SatC, HP, Fleabag
• continue: The Handmaid's Tale, Fargo, What We Do in the Shadows
• watch: The Girl on the Train, The Crown #5, Locke&Key #2, The Great British Bake-Off #12

FASHION

• headscarves (with headband for more structure)
• channelling artist / art heiress / Peggy ...

• write it off
• vagus nerve stimulation
• nasal douching with salt water
• manifestation, creation meditation
• cold showers
• (self-)massage
• nasal breathing, resonance frequency breathing
• self-compassion / a positive judgment of self-worth; not dependent on success or failure; accepts imperfection / self-compassion kicks in when self-esteem leaves us; it means accepting own imperfect nature / compassion is the desire to alleviate suffering.
• delayed gratification: I can have it - in 10 minutes
• start where you are because that is where you need to be
• habit stacking (attach it to an anchor - an already established habit) / habit bun...

“Every recipe, whether we cook it or not, offers a vision of the good life, and a way of tasting food in your brain. It doesn't need to actually have been eaten in its time to feel real to us now." - Bee Wilson

Favourites:

• Tandoori seitan skewers
• Instant pot chana masala
• Sweet and sour sticky tofu
• Non-basic salad recipes
• Roasted fennel and cauliflower with chic...
• Eggplant and sweet potato with harissa, ...
• Bhindi Masala - vegan okra curry
• Potato broccoli curry
• Lentil soup
• Coconut Soup
• Chocolate cookies with buckwheat
• Sourdough bread / The Perfect Loaf
• Vegan Apple Cake
• Kaspressknödel
• Pumpkin spinach lasagna

• Yellow turmeric stains. On kitchenware, the countertop, my skin. Everywhere. Nasty.
• People. People are SO annoying. On public transport: talking loudly. Touching me. Talking on the phone! Talking to me. Someone with restless legs syndrome in my field of vision.
• Flashlight-style phone alarms. Phone alarms/sounds in general. Just put it on silent for God's sake. I really don't need to hear you playing Candy Crush.
• Not cleaning after your dog. Or actually doing it but throwing the poo bag on the ground instead of the garbage can. WHY?
• Littering in general.
• People not wearing their face masks (properly).
• Loud breathers.
• The smell of clementine peel.
• Not being able to pluck an eyebrow hair b...

• My new Shiatsu massage belt. It's relly good; I don't know why I waited so long to get it.
• Discussing book ideas with Anika.
• Mushrooms. Always.
• Meeting a new therapist who instantly gave me two very interesting theories for diagnoses.
• Pizza and vegan pho with Lena one Sunday evening - the day before my surgery.
• Well, obviously a stay at the hospital isn't really nice. But there were a few bright spots: I got to know my 83-year-old neighbour who's in a civil union with a friend because they bought an apartment together and it just made everything so much easier (and makes her a lesbian on paper but she's totally cool about it) / I started to get into elderly care and helped her whenever I could - it felt really good to discover my social streak and be hel..._proper_ food again after a week of baby food, so...

• January: Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #1 (2018)
• Your Name. (2016)
• Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #2 (2019)
• Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #3 (2020)
• Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #4 (2020)
• Emily in Paris #1 (2020)
• Die kleine Hexe (2018)
• Amadeus (1984)
• February: The Minimalists: Less Is Now (2021)
• Locke&Key #1 (2020)
• My Octopus Teacher (2020)
• Bridget Jones's Baby (2016)
• The Devil Wears Prada (2006)
• I May Destroy You #1 (2020)
• Wild (2014)
• I Am Not Okay With This #1 (2020)
• Salt, Fat, Acid, Heat (2018)
• Chef's Table #1 (2015)
• Street Food #2: Latin America (2020)
• To All The Boys: Always And Forever (2021...

I'm not even sure it's wise to set goals for the coming year because I don't know what will be possible. However, in this spirit I will phrase my first intention:

• Find a new goal. A new direction. I feel awfully stuck and stagnant at the moment and while sitting with this feeling surely is a lesson I have to learn I am longing for movement and progress. What do I really want in life?
• I'm going to try a habit forming technique. I chose three areas I want to improve and I'm going to dedicate 5 minutes to each of them every day. Meditation (mind), strength training (body) and drawing (creativity). Don't break the chain!
• Find people I vibe with. I've been so disappointed by many of my friends. By their limited world-view, by their lack of drive, openness, understanding, sense of adventure. I really need a new tribe.

• Hays Code
• Hilma af Klimt
• Leonora Carrington
• symbolism and surrealism
• Magic realism
• Ashtanga and Kundalini yoga
• Reiki
• Psychosomatic medicine
• cancel culture
• Michael Armitage
• pencil bouquet (You've Got Mail)
• Slawomir Elsner
• Maurice Ravel - L'Enfant et les Sortilèges
• Naomi Klein "Take back power" (New Statesman)
• lunar astrology
• Miss Christine / Frank Zappa's Hot Rats
• schizophrenia, loss of motivation, dysregulation of dopamine system
• Churchill's garden

• touch: get a massage, manicure or a haircut
• written word: read motivating books, go to the library or browse through the shelves with free books around the city
• water: go swimming, take a bath
• movement: yoga class, foam roller, stretching
• nature: go for a walk in the woods, look at a large body of water / buy new plants for the balcony, take care of them
• creativity: draw, knit, work with wood or clay, write
• order: sorting/tidying/cleaning, write to-do-lists to clear the mind and get rid of bad thoughts, make plans, act on them
• support: talk to a good friend or, you know, mum
• nourishment: cook a nice healthy meal, maybe try out a new recipe
• sound: watch ASMR videos, listen to mantras or singing bowls
• warmth: have tea or matcha latte, get a hot water bottle, take a bath, wear warm and comf...

• denim dress
• a New Yorker subscription
• an e-bike / a shop in Munich
• a telescope
• a new bed
• ✔ a new computer / laptop
• Ravine base game
• new running shoes
• crystals: a black tourmaline and a citrine wand / a crystal singing bowl
• constellation quilt DIY / embroidery triangle
• The Tarot of Leonora Carrington
• perfume: AESOP perfume (Hwyl sounds interesting), Byredo Mojave Ghost or Super Cedar, Ecsentric Molecules No. 1
• Wandler bag (mytheresa)
• a nipple piercing (Medusa piercing)
• Perifit
• Prismacolor coloured pencils (col-erase)
• clothing in royal blue
• (expensive) art objects for the everyday

• DW watch strap
• Paula's Choice retinoid / niacimide
• bedding / duvet set / Essenza
• OUAI leave-in conditioner
• earrings 1 / 2 / 3
• BOSE noise-cancelling headphones
• RefectoCil lash and brow serum

after the lockdown

• ✔ go swimming
• go to the cinema
• go dancing
• ice-cream parlour
• ✔ Indian supermarket (buy Chana Masala spice and Tom Yum paste)
• see an exhibition
• Gärtnerplatztheater
• Staatsoper
• draw in a museum (Glyptothek)
• Medical Art and More
• Munich Readery
• Guatemuc
• Garuda
• Hippie Chay
• Kommbar
• Madam Chutney
• Café Zeitgeist
• book an improv theatre workshop
• (visit Ramapriya at a yoga class

• Shibori
• learn Spanish (conversational level; trips to Barcelona and Mexico)
• French (finish reading Harry Potter and work with the grammar books)
• book a language course
• ✔ screenprinting
• metalsmithing
• a better swimming technique
• 100 ASL signs
• Russian (brush up my grammar and vocabulary)
• sailing license
• paint on sage green cardboard in royal blue ink, glue it on muted rose-coloured paper
• Bali hands project: paint or sculpt hands (wood, print, clay, limestone, papier maché, linocut)
• join the sofa singers
• glass blowing workshop

• Andrea Pitzer - Icebound: Shipwrecked at the Edge of the World
• Peter Matthiessen - The Snow Leopard
• Tom Hornbein - Everest: The West Ridge
• Jamaica Kincaid - Among Flowers: A Walk in the Himalaya

• the Hampstead Heath Ladies' Pond
• Virginia Woolf's A Room of One's Own
• motorcycles and chainsaws
• the year of lush roses and nasty ants
• greek mythology: Demeter and Persephone (Baubo/vulva presentations, the Croatian on the subway telling stories about his daughter and Greek wife, Carmen Rohrbach mentioning the myth in connection with Sicily, Demeter's home country)
• the number 22
• the urge to write a book and buy a house
• Miss Havisham from Charles Dickens' Great Expectations

• 2005: London (alone, staying with a host family for three weeks and meeting Ann-Katrin and Friedericke)
• 2006: Paris (graduation trip)
• 2007: Paris (Friedericke)
• 2010: London (Tamara)
• Stockholm (Lexi)
• Paris (university)
• Côte d'Azur (Lena, Lexi and Amélie)
• Venice (Bert)
• 2011: Barcelona (Lexi)
• Prague (Lena, Michi and Christian)
• Venice (university)
• Hungary (university)
• Vienna / Balaton (Lena)
• Côte d'Azur (Lena, Lexi, Tobi, Michi, Yanic, Christian)
• 2012: Budapest (Lexi, Yanic, Michi)
• Amsterdam (Lexi)
• 2013: Antibes / Côte d'Azur (Lexi, Yanic, Michi)