• Andrea Pitzer - Icebound: Shipwrecked at the Edge of the World
• Peter Matthiessen - The Snow Leopard
• Tom Hornbein - Everest: The West Ridge
• Jamaica Kincaid - Among Flowers: A Walk in the Himalaya

• write it off
• vagus nerve stimulation
• nasal douching with salt water
• manifestation, creation meditation
• cold showers
• (self-)massage
• nasal breathing, resonance frequency breathing
• self-compassion / a positive judgment of self-worth; not dependent on success or failure; accepts imperfection / self-compassion kicks in when self-esteem leaves us; it means accepting own imperfect nature / compassion is the desire to alleviate suffering.
• delayed gratification: I can have it - in 10 minutes
• start where you are because that is where you need to be
• habit stacking (attach it to an anchor - an already established habit) / habit bun...

“Every recipe, whether we cook it or not, offers a vision of the good life, and a way of tasting food in your brain. It doesn't need to actually have been eaten in its time to feel real to us now." - Bee Wilson

Favourites:

• Tandoori seitan skewers
• Instant pot chana masala
• Sweet and sour sticky tofu
• Non-basic salad recipes
• Roasted fennel and cauliflower with chic...
• Eggplant and sweet potato with harissa, ...
• Bhindi Masala - vegan okra curry
• Potato broccoli curry
• Lentil soup
• Coconut Soup
• Chocolate cookies with buckwheat
• Sourdough bread / The Perfect Loaf
• Vegan Apple Cake
• Kaspressknödel
• Pumpkin spinach lasagna

• Yellow turmeric stains. On kitchenware, the countertop, my skin. Everywhere. Nasty.
• People. People are SO annoying. On public transport: talking loudly. Touching me. Talking on the phone! Talking to me. Someone with restless legs syndrome in my field of vision.
• Flashlight-style phone alarms. Phone alarms/sounds in general. Just put it on silent for God's sake. I really don't need to hear you playing Candy Crush.
• Not cleaning after your dog. Or actually doing it but throwing the poo bag on the ground instead of the garbage can. WHY?
• Littering in general.
• People not wearing their face masks (properly).
• Loud breathers.
• The smell of clementine peel.
• Not being able to pluck an eyebrow hair b...

Ich bin zur Zeit immer wirklich traurig, wenn ich aufwache, weil in meinen Träumen so viel mehr passiert als in meinem Leben.

• A short-lived mood lift.
• Painting.
• Clean sheets. Amazing smell.
• Oranges, eating them with and without cake.
• Taking a walk with Martin on Good Friday. Seeing toad couples, bees and a few dogs. Martin climbed a tree. There were white and pink blossoms on the bushes. A nice day.
• Rewatching Im Juli for the first time in years.
• Being reminded of choose your own adventure books.
• A long letter from Anika.
• Making eggplant burgers with Manu. Watching Sister Act .
• A surprisingly good frozen falafel dish.

• January: Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #1 (2018)
• Your Name. (2016)
• Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #2 (2019)
• Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #3 (2020)
• Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #4 (2020)
• Emily in Paris #1 (2020)
• Die kleine Hexe (2018)
• Amadeus (1984)
• February: The Minimalists: Less Is Now (2021)
• Locke&Key #1 (2020)
• My Octopus Teacher (2020)
• Bridget Jones's Baby (2016)
• The Devil Wears Prada (2006)
• I May Destroy You #1 (2020)
• Wild (2014)
• I Am Not Okay With This #1 (2020)
• Salt, Fat, Acid, Heat (2018)
• Chef's Table #1 (2015)
• Street Food #2: Latin America (2020)
• To All The Boys: Always And Forever (2021...

I'm not even sure it's wise to set goals for the coming year because I don't know what will be possible. However, in this spirit I will phrase my first intention:

• Find a new goal. A new direction. I feel awfully stuck and stagnant at the moment and while sitting with this feeling surely is a lesson I have to learn I am longing for movement and progress. What do I really want in life?
• I'm going to try a habit forming technique. I chose three areas I want to improve and I'm going to dedicate 5 minutes to each of them every day. Meditation (mind), strength training (body) and drawing (creativity). Don't break the chain!
• Find people I vibe with. I've been so disappointed by many of my friends. By their limited world-view, by their lack of drive, openness, understanding, sense of adventure. I really need a new tribe.

• Hays Code
• Hilma af Klimt
• Leonora Carrington
• symbolism and surrealism
• Magic realism
• Ashtanga and Kundalini yoga
• Reiki
• Psychosomatic medicine
• cancel culture
• Michael Armitage
• pencil bouquet (You've Got Mail)
• Slawomir Elsner
• Maurice Ravel - L'Enfant et les Sortilèges
• Naomi Klein "Take back power" (New Statesman)
• lunar astrology
• Miss Christine / Frank Zappa's Hot Rats
• schizophrenia, loss of motivation, dysregulation of dopamine system
• Churchill's garden

• touch: get a massage, manicure or a haircut
• written word: read motivating books, go to the library or browse through the shelves with free books around the city
• water: go swimming, take a bath
• movement: yoga class, foam roller, stretching
• nature: go for a walk in the woods, look at a large body of water / buy new plants for the balcony, take care of them
• creativity: draw, knit, work with wood or clay, write
• order: sorting/tidying/cleaning, write to-do-lists to clear the mind and get rid of bad thoughts, make plans, act on them
• support: talk to a good friend or, you know, mum
• nourishment: cook a nice healthy meal, maybe try out a new recipe
• sound: watch ASMR videos, listen to mantras or singing bowls
• warmth: have tea or matcha latte, get a hot water bottle, take a bath, wear warm and comf...

• denim dress
• a New Yorker subscription
• an e-bike / a shop in Munich
• a telescope
• a new bed
• ✔ a new computer / laptop
• Ravine base game
• new running shoes
• crystals: a black tourmaline and a citrine wand / a crystal singing bowl
• constellation quilt DIY / embroidery triangle
• The Tarot of Leonora Carrington
• perfume: AESOP perfume (Hwyl sounds interesting), Byredo Mojave Ghost or Super Cedar, Ecsentric Molecules No. 1
• Wandler bag (mytheresa)
• a nipple piercing (Medusa piercing)
• Perifit
• Prismacolor coloured pencils (col-erase)
• clothing in royal blue
• (expensive) art objects for the everyday

• WindowSwap let's you enjoy someone else's view somewhere in the world.
• Robin Sloan's Reading Room for members of the Society of the Double Dagger. I just love this author's way of thinking and what sparks his interest.
• Lena's Amaretto walnut cake. Incredibly moist and buttery.
• Going on a very windy walk through the woods. A little lake, deer, talking about our potential love lives.
• Getting to know my neighbour Martin. He feels so familiar and very laid-back. A bit random, too. We ended up lying on my living room floor the other night, drawing. Trying out all my paints and pens. Then we checked out weird tattoos. And I straightened and braided his hair.
• Using up leftover paint with a fan brush. Creating a kinda wild-looking 5 minute mushroom painting.
• Hanging out on the sofa at school on a Mo...

after the lockdown

• go swimming
• go to the cinema
• go dancing
• Idee (buy GellyRolls)
• Indian supermarket (buy Chana Masala spice and Tom Yum paste)
• see an exhibition
• Gärtnerplatztheater
• Staatsoper
• draw in a museum (Glyptothek)
• Medical Art and More
• Munich Readery
• Guatemuc
• Garuda
• Hippie Chay
• Kommbar
• Madam Chutney
• Café Zeitgeist
• book an improv theatre workshop
• (visit Ramapriya at a yoga class

• the Hampstead Heath Ladies' Pond
• Virginia Woolf's A Room of One's Own
• motorcycles and chainsaws
• the year of lush roses and nasty ants
• greek mythology: Demeter and Persephone (Baubo/vulva presentations, the Croatian on the subway telling stories about his daughter and Greek wife, Carmen Rohrbach mentioning the myth in connection with Sicily, Demeter's home country)
• the number 22
• the urge to write a book and buy a house
• Miss Havisham from Charles Dickens' Great Expectations

• Shibori
• learn Spanish (conversational level; trips to Barcelona and Mexico)
• French (finish reading Harry Potter and work with the grammar books)
• book a language course
• ✔ screenprinting
• metalsmithing
• a better swimming technique
• 100 ASL signs
• Russian (brush up my grammar and vocabulary)
• sailing license
• paint on sage green cardboard in royal blue ink, glue it on muted rose-coloured paper
• Bali hands project: paint or sculpt hands (wood, print, clay, limestone, papier maché, linocut)
• join the sofa singers
• glass blowing workshop

• 2005: London (alone, staying with a host family for three weeks and meeting Ann-Katrin and Friedericke)
• 2006: Paris (graduation trip)
• 2007: Paris (Friedericke)
• 2010: London (Tamara)
• Stockholm (Lexi)
• Paris (university)
• Côte d'Azur (Lena, Lexi and Amélie)
• Venice (Bert)
• 2011: Barcelona (Lexi)
• Prague (Lena, Michi and Christian)
• Venice (university)
• Hungary (university)
• Vienna / Balaton (Lena)
• Côte d'Azur (Lena, Lexi, Tobi, Michi, Yanic, Christian)
• 2012: Budapest (Lexi, Yanic, Michi)
• Amsterdam (Lexi)
• 2013: Antibes / Côte d'Azur (Lexi, Yanic, Michi)