- Taking a break from grading tests. Stepping outside on the balcony. Blowing a few soap bubbles.
- Compliments, stories and hugs from my students.
- Spilling my drink on the blue blouse I was wearing. I changed into something green and orange and felt so much more comfortable. Clear message: blue doesn't spark joy. Off to the donation box!
- Coffee with coconut drink.
- Cat+Cow festival: a very surprising but powerful Kali meditation (I felt sadness and frustration, also a little self-pity) - there was an incredible energy in the tent with around 150 women screaming from the top of their lungs / going through constellation exercises with Lea, learning about our energy blocks / connecting with Andreas and Vero (who spilled the tea on her disagreement with Andrej and might let me rent Lachdach soon!) / an interesting hypnosis session with Jessica (I turned the heavy weight on my shoulders into armour and revisited a vision from my Akashic Records reading); her little dachshund Alma and even the heavy thunderstorm that blew off the tent from over our heads during the massage - in the end we stood in the rain half-naked, holding on to the pavillon but the nice thing is: it was OK / sitting in Franzi's tent after the storm, more and more people coming in, sharing their stories and food / fireflies everywhere (Ash said they're a sign from my mum?) / swimming naked in the cold lake; feeling myself, the outlines of my body, my bones and joints, feeling light and free; the sandy beach and sunshine, watching people, listening to the healing circle in the background / cultivating JOMO - accepting that I was overwhelmed and not able to participate in all the workshops I wanted to, going to bed early the first night when I just wasn't feeling it / Yin Yoga (even though it was a test, too, with so many people close to each other in that tent and all the noise - but my body loved it) / an OK encounter with Ale and Jessy - they ran into me while I was talking to two happy hippies who were standing in line for tofu curry with me and so it was a light and easy conversation / Franzi's new friend Oliver! She met him at a tantric eyegazing workshop and felt a connection. She thought he was cute but assumed he was there with his partner. That evening, when she was in her bathtub browsing Bumble, he was the first person suggested to her! She took it as a sign and approached him the next day. And they're so lovely together! He offered to help me bring my stuff to my car on Saturday and we had a great conversation. I hope they'll make it last!
- C.'s hype beast energy. He lovingly coached me through the task I'd been dreading and avoiding for weeks and sat with me while I was manipulating my Photoshop file. He told me that 80% and done is so much better than striving for 100% but never making it. He told me I am good enough. Which showed me that apparently I still don't really believe that myself. Anyway. I love his positivity, his touch, the calming and reassuring effect he has on me.
- Inspiring a student to call me "my Queen".
- Having my cello bow repaired. I loved talking to the luthier in the shop. On the way home, I accidentally listened to classical music on the radio, too. And loved it. Perhaps I should take lessons again?
- Visiting my Granny Friends. They clearly perceived my chaotic energy and mirrored it to me. And gave me the idea to buy a house in France. / Snacking wild strawberries from their rooftop terrace.
- A morning just to myself on a crazy busy day.
- Presenting our ideas for the new choir outfits. Taking pictures of myself for Steffi's lookbook. I found out that white really suits me! And I started wearing my pair of white jeans.
- A little trip to Rosenheim with C. and L.
- Relevant truths in my HD incarnation cross: Your Cross carries the energy to say ''yes''. It also carries an enthusiasm for life and is driven to make things grand by marching to the beat. You are here to spread excitement and spread the word about whatever it is that you are passionate about. Your commitment to things is unbounded and fuels the enthusiasm. However, you are here on earth in a physical body and do have some constraints. You need to set some limits to the number of things you say ''yes'' to. Make certain you agree only to what you are absolutely passionate about. If you not, you will surely burn out.
- A very busy day with a full schedule. But I was relaxed, had a little bit of time to myself in the morning. And apparently I radiated good energy that day. I was able to support a friend, met lots of students on the way to school and we had nice and easy conversations, joked around. I sang with a few colleagues, then harmonized with Lucie in yoga class; choir practice was a breeze, too. I felt vocal, confident, received tons of compliments. It's interesting to see how much my energy influences people's reaction to me.
- Booking Module 2. I'm returning to Hridaya France next month! [edit: I got the opportunity to do a Gestalt Therapy training instead! But I now have a lot of credit at Hridaya and need to return within the next two years]
- Asking my friends to post their favourite picture of Villa Josalie to give C. an impression of the place.
- Mastering the Kilimanjaro course in the high rope forest with Lara and Reyhaneh. Dealing with my fears.
- Alex's Flinta Fiesta. Her grumpy grampa naked cat. Everyone's cute outfits. Braiding tinsel into each other's hair, painting our nails and bodies. Alex's drawings. The fact that it didn't even take an hour before the first ones were topless and Z. jumped around wearing a big rainbow strap-on. Making fuse bead art with K.
- Yin Yoga and Satsang. Being invited to lead the Kali mantra. Compliments for my voice. Raising my vibration.
- Really really nice vegan ice-cream at Eisbrunnen. Poppy seed and marzipan was amazing.
- Sunflowers. Buying them for my home. Driving past large yellow fields, musing about the fact that they're always turning their heads toward the sun.
- Attending a Women's Circle at Rote Mondin. Pairing up with Claudi. It was amazing to talk to someone who's so similar to me. Almost as if I don't have to feel weird anymore? And she offered me an insight: Am I avoiding positive feelings? (Or is it quietude? Am I even ABLE to truly relax?) [edit: So shocking that someone burned the place down only one week later...]
- ILTIS BURN: The rangers' dice game - answering questions together whenever they showed up. Hanging out with Jana, Christian, Tina and Kerem. Getting to know Gregor a little better. Singing with him. Developing an idea for an erotic reading in his deep bass voice. Compliments for my sour Thai curry. An honest talk with C. on Eli's bench. Getting to know Stefan, managing to get him a membership for MMB. Hanging out in Balu's Bauwagen, meeting Christian's Triangles Cult gang. Following the White Rabbit into a cozy little nook. Snuggling up with C. in there. The bagpipe and drum live music right before the effigy burn. Group hugs.
- Franzi's visit in Munich. She's super easy to be around and we had great conversations. She also told me about the Practical Magic Sequel that is coming out soon! (I got all 4 books now - my summer reading) We went shopping in Schwabing and had delicious vegan bao buns. I gave her my Astrology cap - it just simply suits her better.
- My new long silky kimono in the perfect burnt orange shade. I wore it to Katharina's garden party and Franzi wore the red gown she'd found at a vintage store in the afternoon. We felt like witch sisters and talked about Charmed with the other guests. It was a great party, too. I had flirty Harry Potter nerd vibes with Martin and rediscovered the massage gun in the tipi. The introductory games were fun, too!
- Talking to fox and Mephy on the phone when I was really stressed out because of Burn Orga problems. It really helped. I found out I like Mephy a lot. And fox said that it's between me and Kanako who the most interesting person at MMB is. Sometimes I also have the feeling that he really gets me. We're on a similar intellectual level. Oh, and he invited me to Singing Sands Nano Burn at a Loch in Scotland!
- The 1:11:11 phone call with fox. And when I randomly picked up my phone the next morning , it was 11:11. I also sat in row 11, seat 1 and 11 at the two Krishna Das events.
- Speaking of which: chanting with Krishna Das. Listening to his stories. Being brave enough to ask a question in front of the audience: How do I know what I really want? He just laughed at me in a friendly way and said something like... follow your bliss.
- Spending all the money I had left to buy snacks for the students. Going on a little trash clean-up walk together. And reflecting on the past year together on the last school day.
- Performing at our school's summer party. Singing a few songs, hardly nervous at all. Joking with Christian F., my co-teachers next year. Also, I'm gonna teach ninth grade. Finally a break from the exhausting 11-year olds.
- Wearing my Desigual skirt. It has pockets.
- Making an elaborate sign for my porridge instead of doing the important work. I really enjoyed my crafting break.
- Flo put me on the guest list for the COEO sundowner set at Bahnwärter Thiel. I really liked the place and his music. Surprisingly, Christian F. showed up as well! Afterwards: Burner meet-up at Heinrich's place. Mandy was cute when she wanted me to take a photo of her famous snack plate.
- Exciting August plans. And the beginning of the summer holidays. Best time of the year. The eternal summer feeling.
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