• ludicra
• drudkh
• summoning
• dissection
• striborg
• xasthur
• mutiilation
• darkthrone
• emperor
• temnozor

• ivy
• little white lace curtains
• think Tarkovsky, sort of
• mirrors everywhere
• candles everywhere
• birdcages
• old glass bottles
• ferns
• antique turntable
• orchids
• peacock feathers
• a fucking sword
• red and white roses
• beautiful vases
• some sort of tiger

• Waking Life (rewatch)
• Chungking Express
• Pulp Fiction
• Marina Abramovic: The Artist Is Present
• The Mirror
• Through A Glass Darkly
• Intermezzo
• A Spell to Ward Off the Darkness
• Jackie Brown
• Nostalghia (incomplete)
• XXY
• Dracula: Pages from a Virgin's Diary
• A Girl Walks Home Alone at Night
• Persona
• Butter on the Latch
• Sea of Vapors (short film)
• Inherent Vice
• Texas Chainsaw Massacre
• Silence of the Lambs
• The Seventh Seal
• Goodfellas

• you're allowed to be bad at things, everybody poops their pants initially. don't be afraid to poop ur pants.
• let the qquirkiness flow ok don't think about it ur a star
• pull shit out of your ass
• feces, the anal sphere as a metaphor for life
• no matter how little sense you think you're making, you will always be more coherent than mr bradley. mr bradley is the lowest common denominator.
• similarly, worf's got your back. good tea. nice house.
• ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

• karaoke
• macaroni
• ice cream (coconut)
• pina coladas
• japanese tea garden
• do hair
• moma

san francisco:

• cappuccinos in north beach
• japan town
• china town
• haight st
• de young/legion of honor
• golden gate park

oakland:

• piedmont
• lakeshore
• craft depot
• china town
• hiking
• oakland museum

berkeley:

• telegraph ave
• uc berkeley

santa cruz:

• those floral doc martens
• a better bathrobe
• black artsy t-shirts (remember the bin at the magazine store)
• black leggings, still
• colorful scarves

• nectarine tree
• meyer lemon tree
• strawberries
• carrots
• squash

• block island
• japan
• taiwan
• blue lagoon, iceland
• LA: rose bowl flea market, the last bookstore
• mendocino
• miami
• point lobos
• capri, italy
• tarot garden in capalbio, florence, italy
• ruby beach, oregon
• salvation mountain
• antelope canyon
• white sands, new mexico

• people being self-deprecating
• false modesty
• "I can be a bit of a Grammar Nazi."
• nazi comparisons to things that aren't genocide in general
• neo-nazis
• eminem
• cissexism
• especially in science
• the entire world

• aliens/outer space
• magician

• open doors
• counting steps
• walking in general
• also counting in general
• too much noise
• not enough noise
• too many thoughts
• messy room
• too busy panicking to clean room
• sudden urge to leave the house
• and just GO PLACES
• BOREDOM
• certain fabrics
• wrong music
• too much computer
• too much stimuli
• sweat
• dandruff
• sudden need to shower
• CANT FOCUS FOR SHIT
• lonely

• deer park in center of Nara
• tokyo
• kyoto
• osaka
• harajuku

• learn french
• dress kawaii
• use cute pens
• shower frequently
• brush my teeth 2x a day
• get enough sleep at reasonable hours
• stretch and exercise
• practice clarinet for 40 minutes each night
• write thoughtful essays
• understand math
• have good nails
• learn how to style my hair so it actually looks presentable
• draw a lot and read a LOT

• kiss girls
• roll in grass
• swing on swings
• blog
• eat ice cream
• play pranks
• explore cities
• get lost
• walk carolyns god
• eat sadwiches!!!
• drink iced coffee
• go to six flagssssss
• hang with friends
• movies
• motorcycle?????
• clothes get lots of clothes
• dress pretty
• get flirted with
• reject people
• flirt with people
• get rejected

• alameda
• pt reyes
• san francisco
• monterey
• san luis obispo
• big sur
• mendocino
• new york lol

• vaguely
• however
• really
• large
• in fact
• jesus
• jesus christ
• holy shit

• brianna
• jose
• alex
• xitlally
• like everyone i knew in elementary school
• idkkkkk

• the sea of trolls (series)
• warrior cats series (omg)
• a series of unfortunate events
• harry potter
• inkspell
• airborne
• the wizard heir
• his dark materials series
• eragon / inheritance cycle
• the dark tower series + finish

• dead animals of any sort
• especially dead birds/cats
• anxiety attacks
• too much work
• not being able to help my friends when theyre sad or in trouble
• the old man and the sea when he loses the fish
• the OFF soundtrack
• in the aeroplane over the sea
• cockroaches ( i hate them im terrified of them etc)
• birds because i love them so much
• thinking about my cats dying (no nononono nono no no no no)
• mary oliver's poetry
• the ocean
• the fact that im a materialist
• the fact that i'll never be able to get my work done until the last minute
• when my ipod wont sync and its 3 am and i...

• being pressured to watch a tv show just so the person can talk about that tv show to someone. shut up i don't care
• people who search for things to criticize and make fun of

• black cropped zip up hoodie
• a nice belt
• another pair of black jeans probably
• plaid leggings
• plaid flannels
• black blazer
• black shoes
• black everything jk
• long dark floral skirt
• other long skirts
• black/grey sweater
• black cardigan
• no more white t-shirts they make me look 8
• black turtle neck maybe grey idc
• inspiration from tumblr user radioactivemongoose

• short hair
• that ice cream
• when cats are cute and dont stink
• folk punk except only sort of
• webcam filters
• bizarre images
• star trek tng

• sell clothes
• take pics of clothes for etsy
• go to beach with abarar
• story for thalia
• go to doctor
• go to dermatologist
• go to nutritionist
• clip shadows claws
• take shadow to vet
• apwh... fuck
• add things to tumblr queue

• Drive
• Aladdin
• Detachment
• Kill Your Darlings
• Gattaca
• Ai Weiwei: Never Sorry
• Ghost in the Shell
• The Pervert's Guide to Ideology
• like 1/2 of The Talented Mr. Ripley
• Ju-on
• Journey of the Universe
• Sympathy for Lady Vengeance
• Valerie and Her Week of Wonders
• Only Lovers Left Alive
• Inauguration of the Pleasure Dome
• Helter Skelter
• Twin Peaks: Fire Walk With Me
• Blue Velvet
• Beetlejuice
• Wild at Heart
• Waking Life

• fancy floral armchair
• new orleans voodoo tarot deck
• dress form
• urban decay electric palette
• tony&guy sea salt texturising hairspray
• bathtub caddy
• nars satin lip pencil

• desk
• table for room
• armchair?
• curtains
• shoe rack
• christmas lights

• lots of potted plants
• curtains, drapery
• candles

• never listen to classical music to fall asleep
• mendelssohn is perfect for getting shit done
• german opera

• mustard

• stop comparing yourself to others. you're better than they are. you have more discipline.
• play more confidently, powerfully. speak more confidently. your words, as well as your music, have power.
• you'll feel more accomplished if you brush your teeth regularly.
• practice, practice. do you really want to be a drum major? the correct answer is yes.
• believe in your fucking self.
• get over yourself and do your work. get used to doing tedious work. stop fucking around all day.
• you are fully capable of being amazing, so try.
• stop listening to, or even being around people who make you feel stupid about the things that you love. these people will sniffle your happiness and creativity, and...

• antique bathtub
• vanity
• library
• window seat
• multiple smaller windows with curtains
• cozy closet
• garden!!
• statues in garden
• den
• indoor garden

• illustrator
• author
• botanist
• florist
• gardener
• topographer
• graphic designer
• museum curator
• painter

• wear sunglasses in profile pictures

• picnic
• amusement park
• opera/symphony
• beach alone on a rainy day
• beach with friends on warm day
• blanket forts at home
• CABIN holy shit cabin trips!!!

• holy shit i have like three days left to do two weeks worth of homework
• this happens every marking period
• why am i the way that i am
• i need to finish this painting
• i need to practice clarinet for expo and graduation
• i need to learn more french
• i need a black pencil skirt
• and a white shirt for graduation
• and a slip
• i need a lot of things
• 8tracks did u really have to start undergoing maintenance right this second melt this shit earth
• i need a real girlfriend
• and a better online personality
• and online friends
• why have my dreams been so crazy lately
• i want to start doing like a monthly sketchbook page thing

• deer
• kitties
• birds
• whales
• rats
• bears
• foxes
• octopuses
• sloths
• doggies
• snails
• toads
• lizards
• bunnies
• red pandas
• raccoons
• squirrels
• bats

• american gods
• the outsiders
• the old man and the sea
• sacre blue - incomplete (it sucked)
• sandry's book - incomplete
• les miserables - incomplete
• the thief
• the birth of venus
• miss peregrines home for peculiar children
• sabriel
• lirael
• abhorsen
• good omens - currently reading

• polish shoes
• literally nothing else thank fuckin god

• get better at drawing
• go to the beach a lot
• travel to san luis obispo
• hang out with my friends
• take the bus places
• go to the city
• read at least 15 books
• learn how to swim
• try roleplaying
• talk to amanda??? more (note: i need to stop flirting with girls on the internet)
• get better at writing
• purchase or rent a clarinet
• go to a play or musical
• get my cat to stop humping everything goddamnit mr biscuits STOP
• make a flower crown
• buy one of those lipstick vibrators lol
• i probably wont do any of those things

• speak french
• swim
• read tarot
• paint
• play cello
• sail a boat
• sword fight
• meditate properly
• make candy
• make proper flower crowns
• sew
• cosplay
• play video games well
• cook lol
• type faster
• use adobe illustrator
• write better
• take better pictures
• do a lot of things better basically

• no more us history (tru)
• no more uniforms!!! (truu)
• different kinds of stress/hatred (lol worse kinds)
• marching band yo (eughg)
• french! (EEUGGHHG)
• new friends i guess (sort of????)

• swords
• lifting weights
• redwood forests
• dreams
• morality
• medieval tapestries
• mirrors
• Cambodian Psych-out

• back up your goddamn computer to your goddamn portable hard drive
• install updates
• go to Monterey with mom
• Mendocino
• get bus pass
• take ferry to city?
• madonna inn

• lumberjack
• christmas tree
• crazy cat lady

THINGS I LIKE

• leather jackets
• novelty t-shirts
• artsy t-shirts
• cool patterned button down shirts
• army jackets
• my green boots
• black/brown heeled booties
• leather skirts
• asymmetrical things! skirts, jackets
• short hair
• tropical shirts?
• plaid flannels
• psychedelic prints
• that long red silk dress
• SCENTS: cinnamon, ginger, patchouli, lilac
• tapestry prints
• maybe button down denim shirts? loose-fitted
• high waisted black/brown/red denim

• dye hair
• watch orange is the new black
• watch gundam wings
• go through bookmarks
• go camping with mom
• go camping with friends?
• talk to lyla
• go hiking
• hang up curtains

• the gay science
• existentialism is a humanism
• the history of sexuality
• aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe
• norwegian wood
• the abc of communism
• confessions of a sociopath
• Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind: Informal Talks on Zen Meditation and Practice (Suzuki, Shunryu)

• black leggings + jeans
• crop tops
• more batwings
• more black, orange, red
• pencil skirts
• bodycon dresses
• tacky patterns
• clashing patterns
• plaid??

• nasturtiums
• poppies
• roses
• lavender
• sunflowers
• yarrow
• morning glory
• foxgloves
• hollyhock
• columbine
• so many flowers

• paint!
• new bookshelf
• drawers under bed
• put lots of crap into storage
• remove white tubs
• swap out shitty blue/white plastic tub thing
• new desk
• replace avengers, dr who, monty python posters (art posters!)
• fill space under oM poster
• fix lights
• new shelves???
• move coat hanger
• fancy rug
• CURTAINS

• marching band
• music in general
• achievement hunter
• fashion
• gender expression
• philosophy

• letterman jacket
• flats
• halloween lipstick

• jazz music
• beetles
• winter
• grimes
• ghosts

• stay clean
• vacuum frequently
• do all of your homework on time
• drink lots of hot chocolate
• carry an umbrella

• roxy lalonde
• cute kawaii girl
• mysterious witchy
• intrepid reporter
• alpha bitch
• bad bitch
• cool artist
• nature freak idk
• dedicated musician
• shy bird
• bow down to me ur queen
• whimsical and powerful like white queen in alice in wonderland
• fox mulder
• old fisherman
• violent misandrist mermaid
• beach babe
• post-apocalyptic rebel leader who beheads her enemies while taking shots of whiskey

• things covering my ears (besides like, earbuds)
• open doors
• bright lights
• repetitive noises
• too much noise
• not eating
• places that are too messy
• chewing noises
• malls
• hot weather
• sports radio
• crowds
• being thirsty

• deer sketches

• ocean - PSAPP-y
• french music
• roxy lalonde
• daverezi
• medieval fantasy
• renaissance
• roadtrip
• christmas/winter
• witchy vibes
• scully/mulder

• the queen of attolia
• good omens
• ethan frome
• silence of the lambs
• the book thief
• code name verity
• huntress
• the hobbit
• lord of the rings trilogy
• emma

• all of my friends
• eddie redmayne
• lee pace
• all the cute girls
• a mermaid
• a whole bunch of fictional characters
• a ghost girl
• special agent dale cooper
• and audrey horne
• a bunch of twin peaks characters i guess

• nobody
• as of right now
• unless you count my cat
• he tries to stick his tongue inside my mouth all the time he's really gross
• yeah i've never kissed anyone v.v

• modeling
• yard sale
• selling plushies
• selling pins/other things i make
• buying from goodwill, selling on etsy (vintage shit)
• doing manicures
• art commisions???
• selling soap i make
• refurbishing furniture