is it silly that i want a boy to break my heart? knowing that i will devote myself to him, he could in fact use this to his advantage and bring on an onslaught of emotions and tears and future fears. is it silly that i want something new to add to a chapter in my unwritten auto-bio. a chapter that involves a romance that shouldn't be. i need a valid reason to cry and hate boys and feel vulnerable and dedicate nights to reading warsan shire poetry and days where i only wear black as i mourn the time i was once a naive girl who let someone into her sheltered heart, yet still remain naive. is it silly that i wish you knew that i liked you so you could do this. to say kind words and make me smile and say you like me (love me) even if you don't mean it. but i know you wouldn't because you are beyond genuine and sweet and a good and kind hearted friend (even if you are asshole). but i need a reason to hate you and get over you. and this seems valid.