• had a really pleasant high today. $35 worth. i need my unemployment to kick in today, i sttill have to tell medar im receiving it and i have to pay akire back $10. karli $9

it was strange i felt high but didnt feel that psychedelic high. which i love from shrooms. this was more internal. like i was waiting patiently for it to kick in and to see wonderful colors and the textures and the patterns respond to my heightened state. we went to the brooklyn museum btw. but none of that happened. it was just so internal and festering. like an anxious feeling. like i wanted to vomit. like i wanted to lay down. my head felt a bit light as well. it was so different this time. i'll reflect and say it was fine rather than be disappointed cos i wasnt fullly upset. after i thought it was just me being unable to get high. we vaped a bit too. but karli and akire felt the same. so im not buggin or deficient in terms of getting high.

the first time we got high was trippy. the second time even trippier. the third above and beyond amazing trip. the fourth a more spiritual/personal one. akire said the fresher the shrooms the better. maybe these were a bit older.

comin home at 5 i still felt high as fuck. at 6 pm i'm high as fuck. at 7 pm i;m writing this relfection. i shouldve drawn immediately when i got home. instead i ate leftover pancakes (munchies) and tried to play sims which didnt work out. cos im not too into as i once was i think. or maybe i need generations. im not sure.

i'm laying down. i couldnt stop talking to issam for a bit. i was like addicted. i love talking to him. like it feels weird going hours without saying something to him. i have so much to say and tell him. even when im quiet.

i still have to tell him about my unemployment.

the comedown of this high is so good and unnoticeable.