january

• back to uni, klausurenphase, trying to find a reason to stay alive, angry at everything, i want to start art journaling, thinking a lot about jungkook and namjoon, music

february

• music, free time, doing whatever i want, still feeling stuck, creativity, art journaling, reading, spending a lot of time alone, walking for hours through bookstores, libraries and cute shops while listening to my favorite music, met friends after a long time, girlhood, looking forward to ramadan, wanting to do better but struggling, namjoonification of my brain

march

• ramadan, crocheting, getting back into a routine, trying to build a new connection with god, feeling extremely ungrateful. do i want to sabotage myself? do i not want anything good for me? - depression, life altering events, watching hobi live for 12 hours, watching his concerts (comfort!!!), getting closer to my cousin again, started a new diary, hating work, holidays, thinking about all the shit i still have to do for uni but never starting, realizing that maybe it's okay to crash out, i did my best, it is what it is, don't take life so seriously

april

• back to work, touching grass in an attempt to cure depression