• café kioki düsseldorf ★★★★★
• café hermanns dortmund ★★★★☆
• café miamamia essen ★☆☆☆☆

• “i hope the exit is joyful and i hope never to return.” ― frida kahlo

existing is an inevitable burden that i must endure. let's make it a litte more bearable. i want to breathe.

tv shows watched

• squid game 2

movies watched

• parasite (2019)

• botts dossier
  • zusatzaufgabe
  • schreiben
• tush hausarbeit
  • korpus fotografieren
  • einführung kohärenz etc lesen
• exta hausarbeit
  • themenfindung
  • exposé
  • schreiben
• psychologie
  • folien zusammenfassen
  • altklausuren
• kjl seminar
  • text daubert vorarbeiten
  • text druckmittel vorarbeiten

• watch a movie at the cinema w/ cousin
• go to korean restaurant w/ friend
• make my art journal
• draw/paint again in my sketchbook
• crochet
• get into movies
• make jungkook shaped chocolates
• make hot chocolate bombs
• make dubai chocolate?
• cook and bake

january

winter edition

• meßmer - pflaume zimt ★★★★☆
• meßmer - gebrannte mandel ★★★☆☆

ländertees

• meßmer - französische pflaume ★★★★☆

vegan stuff

• veganer schinken spicker grillgemüse
• like gyros
• alpro soja vanille
• shawarma house

what i've been listening to...

▷ january

• jungkook
  • still with you
  • dreamers
• umi / wherever u r (ft. v)
• txt / deja vu
• megan thee stallion / neva play (ft. RM)
• ceechynaa / peggy
• glorilla
  • watchu kno about me (ft. sexyy red)
  • wanna be (ft. megan thee stallion)
• doechii / denial is a river
• lady gaga / die with a smile (ft. bruno mars)
• myriam fares
  • ghamarni
  • ana wel shog
  • waheshni eh

🎥 watching

• nana
• are you sure?
• bts in the soop season 1

📖 reading

• paolo coelho - the alchemist

• get hot
• slow living. learn to really breathe when you breathe.
  • do more things that i truly enjoy
• do ur best in uni (i'm begging?)
• gym/health focus
• learn korean
• don't think deeply about everything. allah will take care of everything, even your emptiness.
• try to find a reason to stay alive in the simple things
• affirmations
• be more artsy
• deen focus - lock in before and during ramadan

• daily al-baqarah
• morning & evening adhkar
• daily al mulk
• slow, focused salah
• gratitude journaling
• dhikr, istighfaar
• tahajjud

home workout / gym / <10k steps january

• 6th - 10k steps
• 7th - 10k steps
• 9th - treadmill, incline 55 mins
• 10th - treadmill, incline 45 mins - stairmaster 6 mins
• 13th - 13k steps
• 14th - 10k steps
• 17th - 10k steps
• 21th - 12k steps
• 23th - 14k steps
• 25th - 11k steps
• 28th - 11k steps

tried

• vanilla perfection ★★★★★
• blueberry cheesecake ★★★★★
• white almon coconut ★★★★★
• salted caramel ★★★☆☆
• marzipan white chocolate ★★★★☆
• vanillekipferl ★★★★★
• sweet honey ★★★★★

want to try

• vanilla chocolate chip cookie
• fudge brownie
• strawberry yogurt split
• vanilla birthday cake
• lemon cheesecake
• white chocolate

before fajr

• khalwa - tahajjud
  • dua
  • istighfaar
  • qur'an

after fajr

• adhkar al sabah
• surah al baqarah

to do

• an hausarbeiten schreiben
• psychologie klausurvorbereitung
• korean studies

after maghrib

• journal (theraphy)
• read
• crochet

daily tasks

• start my morning with tahajjud, adhkar and surat al baqarah
• 1 hour of studying for uni
  • psychologie vorlesung
  • botts dossier
  • hausarbeiten literatur/linguistik
• read. goal: 3 books
  • paolo coelho - the alchemist
  • sasa stanisic - herkunft
  • ?
• 1 hour of mental health work
  • journal, script affirmations, mirror work, inner child workbook
• workout
• 1 hour of studying korean
• 1 chapter of awfd with notes
• watch 3 movies/week

january

• back to uni, klausurenphase, trying to find a reason to stay alive, angry at everything, i want to start art journaling, thinking a lot about jungkook and namjoon, music
• und vielleicht muss der nächste schritt ein rückschritt sein, denn so kann ich nicht glücklich sein

february

• music, free time, doing whatever i want, still feeling stuck, creativity, art journaling, reading, spending a lot of time alone, walking for hours through bookstores, libraries and cute shops while listening to my favorite music, met friends after a long time, girlhood, looking forward to ramadan, wanting to do better but struggling, namjoonification of my brain

march

• reading, use goodreads again
• get into movies
• solo activities
  • (i wanna go to a museum and the cinema alone)
• art journal + diary
• movie park
• an den see fahren
• picnic w/ cousin

• let's unlearn shame together

♡

(this list will keep growing)

• summer nights
• rain
• (rainy summer nights)
• nice people
• technology
• good food
• huge buildings
• music
• taking walks
• nature
• drawing
• rivers
• stationary
• art supplies
• new books
• the smell of boukhoor