• kioki (düsseldorf) ★★★★☆
  • matcha was bad, vanilla latte was GREAT and so was the matcha cheesecake, it was a bit crowded but that's expected on a saturday in düsseldorf, atmosphere was amazing
• hermanns (dortmund) ★★★☆☆
  • nice people and ambiance, flat white and cappuccino were heavenly, the san sebastian cheesecake was actually a lemon cheesecake but it was fine
• miamamia (essen) ★☆☆☆☆
  • cappuchino was terrible, chocolate cake was defrosted supermarket cake, ambience was really great though it's a shame i won't be going again
• la luna (essen) ★★★★☆

🎥 watching

• nana
• jjk
• bts in the soop season 1
• when life gives you tangerines
• adolescence

📖 reading

• ernest hemingway - the old man and the sea
• son won pyeong - almond
• jesmyn ward - sing, unburied, sing

• “i hope the exit is joyful and i hope never to return.” - frida kahlo
• “وأنا لغيرچ وحش كاسر وبحضانچ أكون إنسان” - maryam shehab
  • to others, i'm a fierce beast, and it is in your arms that i become human
• „you're my soul and i'm just somebody” - jin (falling)
• „in order for me to write non-political poetry i must listen to the birds, and in order to hear the birds, the war planes must be silent.“ - marwan makhoul
• _„난 고장난 내가 좋아“- rm (around the world in a day)
  • i like my broken self

tv shows watched

• squid game 2

movies watched

• parasite (2019)
• j-hope in the box (2023)
• us (2019)
• seventeen right here world tour in cinemas (2025)
• shrek 2 (2004)

• angie thomas - the hate u give
• paolo coelho - the alchemist
• linda sue park - seesaw girl
• bov bjerg - auerhaus

tried

chunky flavor (more)

• vanilla perfection ★★★★★
• blueberry cheesecake ★★★★★
• white almon coconut ★★★★★
• salted caramel ★★★☆☆
• marzipan white chocolate ★★★★☆
• vanillekipferl ★★★★★
• sweet honey ★★★★★
• vanilla chocolate chip cookie ★★★★★

zerup (more)

• iced tea peach

want to try

chunky flavour (more)

• vanilla chocolate chip cookie
• fudge brownie
• strawberry yogurt split
• vanilla birthday cake

what i've been listening to...

▷ january

• jungkook
  • still with you
  • dreamers
• umi / wherever u r (ft. v)
• txt / deja vu
• megan thee stallion / neva play (ft. RM)
• ceechynaa / peggy
• glorilla
  • watchu kno about me (ft. sexyy red)
  • wanna be (ft. megan thee stallion)
• doechii / denial is a river
• lady gaga / die with a smile (ft. bruno mars)
• myriam fares
  • ghamarni
  • ana wel shog
  • waheshni eh

• reading, use goodreads again
• get into movies
• solo activities
  • (i wanna go to a museum and the cinema alone)
• art journal + diary
• movie park
• an den see fahren
• picnic w/ cousin

home workout / gym / <10k steps

• january
• 6th - 10k steps
• 7th - 10k steps
• 9th - treadmill, incline 55 mins
• 10th - treadmill, incline 45 mins - stairmaster 6 mins
• 13th - 13k steps
• 14th - 10k steps
• 17th - 10k steps
• 21th - 12k steps
• 23th - 14k steps
• 25th - 11k steps
• 28th - 11k steps

april

• 4th - 12k steps
• 5th - 15k steps
• 7th - 10k steps
• 8th - 12k steps
• 9th - 11k steps

winter edition

• meßmer - pflaume zimt ★★★★☆
• meßmer - gebrannte mandel ★★★☆☆

ländertees

• meßmer - französische pflaume ★★★★☆

vegan stuff

• veganer schinken spicker grillgemüse
• like gyros
• alpro soja vanille

restaurants

• shawarma house

snacks

• oreo fresh milk snack
• leibnitz choco cookies

existing is an inevitable burden that i must endure. let's make it a litte more bearable. i want to breathe.

• botts dossier
  • zusatzaufgabe
  • schreiben
• tush hausarbeit
  • korpus fotografieren
  • einführung kohärenz etc lesen
• exta hausarbeit
  • themenfindung
  • exposé
  • schreiben
• psychologie
  • folien zusammenfassen
  • altklausuren

january

• back to uni, klausurenphase, trying to find a reason to stay alive, angry at everything, i want to start art journaling, thinking a lot about jungkook and namjoon, music

february

• music, free time, doing whatever i want, still feeling stuck, creativity, art journaling, reading, spending a lot of time alone, walking for hours through bookstores, libraries and cute shops while listening to my favorite music, met friends after a long time, girlhood, looking forward to ramadan, wanting to do better but struggling, namjoonification of my brain

march

• ramadan, crocheting, getting back into a routine, trying to build a new connection...

♡

(this list will keep growing)

• summer nights
• rain
• (rainy summer nights)
• nice people
• technology
• good food
• huge buildings
• music
• taking walks
• nature
• drawing
• rivers
• stationary
• art supplies
• new books
• the smell of boukhoor
• bts

• watch a movie at the cinema w/ cousin
• go to korean restaurant w/ friend
• make my art journal
• draw/paint again in my sketchbook
• crochet
• get into movies
• make jungkook shaped chocolates
• make hot chocolate bombs
• make dubai chocolate?
• cook and bake

• get hot
• slow living. learn to really breathe when you breathe.
  • do more things that i truly enjoy
• do ur best in uni (i'm begging?)
• gym/health focus
• learn korean
• don't think deeply about everything. allah will take care of everything, even your emptiness.
• try to find a reason to stay alive in the simple things
• affirmations
• be more artsy
• deen focus - lock in before and during ramadan

• let's unlearn shame together

• daily al-baqarah
• morning & evening adhkar
• daily al mulk
• slow, focused salah
• gratitude journaling
• dhikr, istighfaar
• tahajjud