january

• redecorating my room, bewerbungen, vorstellungsgespräch, probearbeiten, bts tour announcement, ticketing, ausbildungsplatz bekommen!! #yay

february

• work, losing weight, got munich tickets for bts!

march

• ramadan, praying again, baking, worried about work, feeling lonely, making a lot of dua, affirming, cut my hair, first eid without my cousins, still had fun, got dressed up and baked so many cookies!, quit my job, arirang <3333, job searching again, trying to get my life back together, finally found an apartment for my sister

april

• back on track, walking a lot, looking for a job, its cold

may

• planned to stay at my new job for 4 weeks but ended up quitting after barely 3 weeks. at least i got to show my true and unbothered self. i didn’t feel satisfied. i‘m lost but i‘m discovering a new way to god and i feel less scared and more loved and accepted. the graveyard by our house doesn’t smell like jasmine anymore. i always loved the smell of jasmine, now it just reminds me of things, and i never want to remember anything again. sister is hopefully moving out next week.