WOW here it goes again the one day a year that i get more sappy about chanyeol than i usually do (as if that was possible) *pcy voice* here we go

idk i just?? i love him so much and he means the world to me. the day after tomorrow it'll be 2 and a half years since i've stanned but even if some would consider that short i honestly can't imagine life without him now? even if i've never met him irl or anything he's such a big part of my life... i don't think there's been a day when i haven't thought about him, he's just this sort of warm, comforting presence that's always there for me; he's home. just the thought of him is a pick me up for when i'm down and i really hope he has someone who can be that for him too ;;

i'm really proud of him this year because he kept going despite hectic group and personal schedules, overbearing "fans" and another member leaving. he took it in his stride and never failed to smile for the fans; idc if ppl call that two-faced because imho he's doing it for us and it's one of the things i admire most about him. also how he doesn't show when he's affected by negative netizen comments, i definitely couldn't do the same in his place and i appreciate it but i do wish he wouldn't bottle his feelings up bc i don't think it's healthy :(( i wish he'd be selfish sometimes, ya know? but one place he is greedy are his achievements this year! obviously there's as expected, exo- but other than that he's done so much solo stuff! he had his first movie, (web)drama and ost this year, and along with his covers and his variety show appearances he's really branched out and i've never been prouder ;; there's always room for improvement and i hope he gets to reach his full potential in ever field he decides to pursue so that he can get the recognition he truly deserves for his TALENT, not just his looks <3 (but how he's been focused on working out more recently is