- "what horrifies me most is the idea of being useless: well-educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age."
- "i am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who look better, who live better, who love better than i."
- "i can never read all the books i want; i can never be all the people i want and live all the lives i want. i can never train myself in all the skills i want. and why do i want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. and i am horribly limited."
- "and you are the moving epitome of all of this. of you, by you, for you. god is this all it is, the ricocheting down the corridor of laughter and tears? of self- worship and self-loathing? of glory and disgust?"
- "will we ever? i wonder. i wonder terribly.
- "can you understand? someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little? for all my despair, for all my ideals, for all that - i love life. but it is hard, and i have so much - so very much to learn."
- "perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing."
- "girl, aging girl, is haunted by own nothingness and devours views from windows (stories, movies, overheard talk and sights in the street, pictures in newspapers, etc.) with continuous feeling she is 'just about', miraculously, to come into her own - her own life."
nov 28 2020 ∞
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