Under $20

• Wildflower seed packets
• Foxgloves seeds
• Snapdragons seeds
• Dahlias
• Iris bulbs
• Tulip bulbs
• KN95 masks
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• Thick winter socks
• Fun dress socks (crew) please
• Bath bombs
• Soy or beeswax candles
• Dark chocolate (esp truffles)
• Wool dryer balls
• https://freshgroundroast.com/products/es...
• https://www.jdglowcosmetics.com/collecti...
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• Any cookbook
• Needle in the Bone-Caryn Mirriam-Goldberg
• The Moth Diaries- Rachel Klein
• Citizen: An American Lyric- Claudia Rankin
• On Intersectionality: Essential Writings of Kimberle Crenshaw- Kimberle Crenshaw
• We Real Cool- Bell Hooks
• The Shock of the Fall- Nathan Filer
• The New Best Recipe- Fool's Illustrated Magazine
• How to Grow Stuff- Alice Vincent
• bell hooks
• e. e. cummings
• Your Beauty Mark- Dita von Teese
• First to a Million- Dan Sheeks
• Set for Life- Scott Trench
• The Vagina Bible
• Dinner Illustrated: 175 Meals Ready in 1 Hour or Less- Cooks Illustrated

• Pay off credit cards
• Pay off Hunter's student loans
• $10,000 emergency savings
• Fully funded retirement accounts
• KonMari
• Buy house w 4 bedrooms and a yard
• Give my friends and family $$$
• Revamp my lingerie collection
• Shoe collection

• Smart Watch
• Long lunchtime run
• Nap
• To see Austin

• To be done with school
• A job in a lab
• Time with my cats
• A real date night with Hunter
• Cuddles
• Multiple days off
• No homework
• No projects
• A home cooked meal
• Fresh flowers
• Cupcakes

• http://honestlywtf.com/diy/diy-boot-stuf...

• Polaroid Camera
• To know what the hell to do with Einzige
• A better grasp on German
• Not to be so terrified
• To have done that stupid paper

• "...and stuff" at the end of arguments
• Using "like" too often
• "they're/there/their" "too/to/two" "your/you're" "it's/its" mistakes
• mispronouncing "nuclear"
• stepping on cracks
• touching doors
• side-arm hugs
• "Sorry"
• chronic lateness (especially without a notice--don't keep me waiting for 30-90 minutes without so much as a "hey sorry things are running slowly")

• To finish this goddamn paper
• focus
• any kind of appetite
• energy
• no feelings
• comfort

• to not sleep alone (more than anything)
• to be held
• to cuddle
• to not feel sick every morning
• to have stable moods
• to get physics homework done
• to have attention from the boyfriend
• to not feel so empty
• Jay to come to me, put his hands on my shoulders, and tell me to come home. With him.

• focus
• hot tea (goddamn I should just get on that)
• energy
• a ride to WalMart
• a less idiotic concentration face
• time to spend with people
• this week to be over successfully
• still want flowers
• not to be grossed out by perfume
• an epic hug
• the room to myself
• infinite fluffy hats

• to sleep for 20 hours straight
• to cuddle
• hot tea
• a sweatshirt that smells like my boyfriend
• my glasses
• fresh flowers
• a kiss
• company
• more hours before the dawn
• forehead kisses
• to hold hands

• Kitchen/cookbook storage https://www.ikea.com/us/en/p/billy-oxber...
• Drop leaf table https://www.ikea.com/us/en/p/norden-gate...
• Spare bedroom pull out
• Bike storage https://www.wayfair.com/storage-organiza...
• Duvet insert, king size
• Linen duvet cover https://www.wayfair.com/bed-bath/pdp/gra...

• Banks
• Bear Hands
• Big Data
• Bleachers
• Zella Day
• Robert DeLong
• The Fratellis
• Glass Animals
• Halsey
• Imogen Heap
• Ingrid Michaelson
• Iron and Wine
• The Mars Volta
• Melanie Martinez
• MS MR
• Regina Spektor
• Sir Sly
• Sylvan Esso
• Tove Lo
• The White Stripes
• Amy Winehouse

• Peonies
• Fuji chrysanthemum
• Wildflowers (assorted)
• Foxgloves
• Snapdragons
• Dahlias

• Coffees
• Razors
• Lingerie
• Acrylic nails
• Wax
• Jeans

• Organizers for Sihir things
• Organizers for all my stationary
• Bedside table
• Hooks for tapestry
• More pillows?
• Mirror hooks
• Professional shirts
• Pens

• 3-4 dogs
  • Irish Wolfhound: Rilo
  • pug: Howard/Enid
  • Bloodhound
  • Great Dane
• 2-3 cats
• hedgehog
• dwarf hamster
• possibly a chinchilla
• a small forest
• potted flowers EVERYWHERE
• fresh flowers
• a well-dressed kiddie pool I can pretend is a pond
• windows
• mirrors
• tree decals
• walls of books
• pillows!

• want
• need
• be
• walls
• touch
• bond
• feel
• frightened
• trust
• please
• hold
• nervous
• new

• drinking water
• 10 minutes after waking up from a nap
• good posture
• the touch of someone who cares
• the resolution of an awkward situation
• being sore after a thorough workout
• bruises from good times
• brushing my hair
• finding the perfect phrase

• complete health
• Jay's complete health
• better drugs
• no side effects ever
• a date
• time with the boyfriend
• focus
• the ability to sleep again

• back massage
• kisses
• slow, deep sex
• Friday night at 7.00 pm
• a bath in a tub with bubbles
• clean sheets
• sleep
• hand holding
• spooning
• lips on my neck
• lingerie shopping

• sleep
• someone to rub my tummy
• someone warm to snuggle with
• health
• Prozac
• superfuzzy pajamas
• a fluffy cat to snuggle with
• liters of soup
• someone to touch my face
• slippers

• First Position
• The Dancer
• Under Our Skin
• Solitary Confinement
• Seven Samurai
• Writer of O
• The New World
• Tangerine
• The Girl King

• Florence and the Machine
• Jimmy Eat World
• Dizzy Gillespie
• Charlie Parker
• Count Baddie
• Ella Fitzgerald
• Johnny Cash

• mise en place
• Large bouquet for dining room table
• Clear counter tops
• Bathroom storage so the counters aren't so cluttered
• New sectional
• Functional futon for office
• Vacuum for floors in apartment
• More Ethiopian coffee for Aeropress
• About $1K more a month so I can have real savings vials and a coffee budget
• New industrial piercing jewelry since mine is missing a ball bearing
• $0 credit card balance for my Chase card
• One more talk with my dad

• Clean apartment
• Clean floors
• Clean clothes
• Clean sheets and pillowcases
• Painted nails
• Stiletto heels
• Crisp black eyeliner
• Good coffee in the morning
• Sparkling lemon water
• Classical music
• Furry blankets
• Regular showers
• Freshly shaven skin
• Thick lotion
• Face mask
• Fresh cut fruit

• Lunch
• To not be averse to eating
• A gym membership
• Good grades
• Summer time
• To be confident in shorts
• A really tasty NA drink
• Cuddle outside with the boy and some books
• More time
• A new bathing suit

• Medication to work
• The will to do what I need to
• My chest to stop hurting
• Not to sleep alone
• To get out of my head
• Escape
• The right words

• owning Tree of Codes
• tree tattoo
• possible white ink tattoo of "Every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around" on my wrist?
• get my shit in order
• regular sleeping schedule
• regular writing schedule

• need
• forever
• drunk
• addict
• terror
• love
• trust
• relationship
• abandon
• crazy

• sleep
• to do well in the fencing tournament tomorrow
• cuddling
• kisses on the eyelids
• pasta
• bustier
• a shoulder to lay my head on
• good stretch
• finished homework

• sleep
• to be held
• hot tea
• not to have 2 exams this week
• not to feel overwhelmingly stupid
• more time in which to study
• a massage, preferably from a loved one
• flowers