• slip on sneakers, grey sheer tights, gauzy dark seagreen dress or top with jean shorts

• ourselves
• baby wipes or cleansing cloths
• band-aids/first aid kit
• 2 sleeping bags
• bubbles
• disposable cameras
• tent
• sleeping pads
• pillows
• cell phone
• clothing (incl. rain boots/coat, plenty of socks/underwear)
• cooler (see food)
• contacts/glasses (mere)
• medication, incl. vitamins (preferably of the chewable variety), birth control, etc.
• deodorant (VERY IMPORTANT)
• music making things
• generally liquid soap, in case it comes to washing dishes/selves

• study origins, i guess
• clean and where is my vacuum????
• study biology, homework due friday
• biology, highlight and note take
• SAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY
• sumthin awesome
• make study guides for origins and biology

• can of gingerale, with no real ginger in it (140)
• one strawberry poptart (205)
• one not super delicious grilled cheese (200, so says the interwebs)
• two vegan fruit bars (no idea)
• two chocolate covered pretzels (no idea)
• a couple mini marshmallows (uh, 60?)

are you freaking kidding me?

• Spend some quality time with my wife
• WAWA
• bagels and fish
• cheese steak
• parc
• brisket and latkes
• hannukah <3

• Billy Joel "The Longest Time"
• David Bowie "When I live my dream"
• Coconut Records ft. Zooey Deschanel "Summer Day"
• Buva "The First Cut is the Deepest"
• Pulp "Dishes"
• Seu Jorge "Tive Razao"
• Yo La Tengo "Gates of Steel (live Devo cover)"
• Arcade Fire "The Well and the Lighthouse"
• Phoenix "Rally"
• Horace Silver "Yeah"
• Van Morrison "Sweet Thing"
• New Order "Ceremony"

tom waits' favorite albums, to download. motherfucker.

• In The Wee Small Hours by Frank Sinatra (Capitol) 1955
• Solo Monk by Thelonious Monk (Columbia) 1964
• Trout Mask Replica by Captain Beefheart (Straight) 1969
• Exile On Main St. by Rolling Stones (Rolling Stones Records) 1972
• The Sinking of the Titanic by Gavin Bryars (Point Music) 1975
• The Basement Tapes by Bob Dylan (Columbia) 1975
• Lounge Lizards by Lounge Lizards (EG) 1980
• Rum Sodomy and the Lash by The Pogues (Stiff) 1985
• I'm Your Man by Leonard Cohen (Columbia) 1988
• The Specialty Sessions by Little Richard ...

America I've given you all and now I'm nothing. America two dollars and twenty-seven cents January 17, 1956. I can't stand my own mind. America when will we end the human war? Go fuck yourself with your atom bomb I don't feel good don't bother me. I won't write my poem till I'm in my right mind. America when will you be angelic? When will you take off your clothes? When will you look at yourself through the grave? When will you be worthy of your million Trotskyites? America why are your libraries full of tears? America when will you send your eggs to India? I'm sick of your insane demands. When can I go into the supermarket and buy what I need with my good looks? America after all it is you and I who are perfect not the next world. Your machinery is too much for me. You made me want to be a saint. There must be some other way to settle this argument. Burroughs is in Tangiers I don't think ...

• 'powerstripe' (tigercity)
• 'ain't no easy way' (black rebel motorcycle club)
• 'there she goes' (the la's)
• 'moanin' (charles mingus)
• 'fences' (phoenix)
• 'jolene' (dolly parton)
• 'sleepyhead' (passion pit)
• 'acquiesce' (oasis)
• 'guest list' (screeching weasel)
• 'drive' (the cars)

the names of my three children, in order from youngest to oldest

• julian
• lily
• harry

with

• martin

as a back up, since i love that name. also because julian is too self-indulgent sounding to be oldest.

from oldest to youngest

• martin
• lily
• julian
• harry
• ..i am not having four children.

works we read that year, not counting the death of ivan ilych & les miserables, neither of which i technically read, although technically i read most of the latter several years ago, when i cared. (bolded if i own them)

mp1

• crime and punishment
• parts of genesis
• the epic of gilgamesh
• job (i think)
• JB
• the masque of reason

mp2

• the iliad
• shield of achilles
• things fall apart
• second coming
• the odyssey
• ithaka

books to go to college

• sherlock eins
• sherlock zwei
• count of monte cristo (to be read cheerfully over thanksgiving)
• of human bondage (to be read morosely over thanksgiving)
• one hundred years of solitude
• less than zero
• catch 22
• midnight in the garden of good and evil
• the yiddish policemen's union

WHAT. so many how did this happen.

• waive lc health insurance
• wait for updated bill
• pay first semester tuition etc
• call doctor to refill prescription/forward prescription to oregon
• give mother address for forwarding insurance
• pack for college
• decide on a final book list
• keep in touch with the hit of the summer
• conclude the hit of the summer
• arrange for plans for wednesday
• deposit 60 dollars into checking account
• deposit check into savings account
• don't panic

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah booty, booty, booty, booty, booty, booty-rockin' show-stoppin', everybody back poppin' knee-jerkin', girl work it work it till your stomach hurtin' don't stop, gotta get it, get it break it down till your body's sweatin' everybody watchin', that don't mean we stoppin' let them know you worth it, dust it off and jerk it jerk it, jerk it, dust it off and jerk it let them know you worth it, dust if off and jerk it jerk it, jerk it, dust it off and jerk it whatchu know bout to bang bang dontchu wanna know, dance and go relax and take off your coat this ain't somethin that you seen before whatchu know bout to bang bang dontchu wanna know, dance and go relax and take off your coat this ain't somethin that you seen before booty-rockin', show-stoppin' everybody back poppin', knee-jerkin', girl work it work it till your stomach hurtin' everybody watchin', th...

• ...and you will know us by the trail of dead
• jimmie vaughan
• gov't mule
• craig erickson
• outrageous cherry
• the von bondies
• archie bronson outfit
• heartless bastards
• north mississippi allstars
• the datsuns
• the detroit cobras
• the mooney suzuki
• two gallants
• the duke spirit
• the greenhornes
• black rebel motorcycle club
• black diamond heavies
• dan auerback
• stevie ray vaughan
• jonny winter

• ✔ beach boys--pet sounds
• ✔ beatles--revolver
• ✔ beatles--sgt. pepper
• ✔ beatles--abbey road
• ✔ beatles--rubber soul
• ✔ beatles--the white album
• bob dylan--highway 61 revisited
• bob dylan--blonde on blonde
• bob dylan--blood on the tracks
• marvin gaye--what's going on
• ✔ the rolling stones--exile on main street
• elvis--the sun sessions
• miles davis--kind of blue
• velvet underground--velvet underground and nico
• ✔ the jimi hendrix experience--are you experienced?
• bruce springsteen--born to run
• van morrison--astral weeks
• michael jackson--thriller
• chuck berry--the great twenty eight

Most of my friends opted to stay in their college towns this summer, which was sort of the impetus for this account (well, that and a few drinks..), just anything to pass the time out here. Lunch could be fun, but I leave town the 27th to get back out to Portland. Are you in the mountains all next week?

I'm the first one in the fam to go to college, so I spent all life getting here then was like, wait. What do I do now? And there are no real answers, so I'm just taking my time about it.

Cape Cod sounds awesome. Just saw a shark week special on it, try not to get eaten. And yeah, snow tubing is the shit. I tried the skiing thing but I'm actually kind of scared of heights, so that didn't work out that great for me.

• ✔ Email advisor about switching from neuroscience to intro to bio
• order text books for 4 classes
• ✔ Look into PE classes (step, mon/wed)
• Continue packing tonight, and clean
• ✔ Facebook Michelle about Saturday
• ✔ Facebook Hilary about the key
• ✔ FIND CHECK!!!!!!!

• no homework, since i'm doing ALL OF IT on thursday
• get to a bank and get a new debit card
• laundry
• clean while the laundry is going so that it looks as good as it did when mom dropped you off
• to wear tomorrow: white whole foods tshirt, black skirt, solid hoodie, basic shoes, hair down
• to wear tomorrow night: oh jeez i have no idea
• go to dark star
• meet with bio group tomorrow night

• apply to whole foods/cutter mills/whatever for the summer time
• ✔ study biologia, a lot, and do the homework today (monday)
• study spanish (everyday)
• ✔ finish unpacking and clean
• look into buying festival tickets
• storage unit?
• plane ticket home
• housing deposit/housing mess

• CLA Paper on Brazilian Slavery
• Spanish 5
• E&D Draft Iliad/Aeneid
• Thank You Letter
• Start IA Paper
• Clean Room
  • Empty Trash/Recyclables
  • Vacuum
  • Lysol
• Try not to be so fucking sick all the time

• my left elbow, in three spots
• my right elbow, in one raised spot
• my left knee, severely
• my right knee, mildly
• my back
  • the whole thing
  • on the right, a handswidth below my bra line
  • the middle left, two fingers to the left of my spine
• a line along my lower ribcage, where i pressed into the barrier
• actually, every bone in my torso, essentially, and some spots without bone
• my scalp, and i am not that short
• my feet, both bottoms and top, assuming the bottoms of feet can bruise.

• till fall break: 17
• till thanksgiving break:
• till christmas break:

"and if there were a god, i think it very unlikely that he would have such an uneasy vanity as to be offended by those who doubt his existence."

-bertrand russel

june

• phoenix
• bat for lashes
• crocodile
• the soft pack
• wavves
• christmas island
• delta spirit
• silversun pickups
• rye rye
• dirty projectors
• sarah jarosz
• eels
• ben harper and the relentless7
• cocktail slippers
• karen verros
• debutantes
• ann-margaret
• what four
• el grupo nuevo de omar rodriguez lopez
• burnt sugar the arkestra chamber

july

• soko
• steriogram
• florence and the machine
• beth jeans houghton
• jay jay pistolet
• blue roses
• mumford and sons
• emmy the great
• eugene mcguinness
• amanda blank
• phoenix
• the distillers
• spinnerette
• burke
• lissy trullie
• grizzly bear
• empire of the sun
• living things
• simian mobile disco
• the horrors

the future descending like a (brick) bright chandelier

• grow hair long
• get a tattoo that will probably end up being josh ritter lyrics
• have an illicit affair with a much older man
• dye hair back to a natural color and stop getting bangs, no matter how good they do or do not look
• throw out half of everything i own
• get a drivers license
• wear nothing but exceedingly classy high heels for a month (clothing optional)
• spend 24 hours in a 24 hour diner
• see how long someone can live on nothing but champagne and clementines and black and white television by experimenting on myself
• wear a fedora by the fireplace and smoke a pipe while (not injecting 7% solution) ...

• loud thunderstorms
• pill bottles with no child lock
• watson's eye for color
• and his wife calling him james
• falling asleep slowly
• josh ritter posters
• max when he really wants to give you a kiss
• tortellini alfredo
• the party tower (because it's always having a rave)
• pogo's alert ears and bug eyes
• intoxication, in places I shouldn't be
• rdj's smile
• putting quality mascara on clean lashes
• waking up at the end of a sleep cycle
• lists of things we said we'd do tomorrow
• planning my future in Austin, TX
• making money
• good hair days
• 75% off sales

in which there is an unreasonable amount of rdj. which is to be expected, i suppose.

• kiss kiss bang bang
• charlie bartlett
• fight club
• trainspotting
• bill and ted's excellent adventure
• the hangover
• less than zero
• watchmen
• iron man
• the motorcycle diaries
• jerry maguire
• the singing detective
• 10 things I hate about you

• the bangles--hazy shade of winter
• bloc party--song for clay (disappear here)
• franz ferdinand--ulysses
• queens of the stone age--feel good hit of the summer
• does it offend you, yeah?--with a heavy heart (i regret to inform you)
• she wants revenge--tear you apart
• muse--time is running out
• sugarcult--los angeles
• queens of the stone age--better living through chemistry
• postal service--this place is a prison
• placebo--running up that hill
• bloc party--i still remember
• smashing pumpkins--ava adore
• bloc party--uniform
• bright eyes--lua
• elvis costello--less than zero
• simon & garfunkel--a hazy shade of winter...

• arizona
• stadium arcadium

• titus andronicus
• cedell davis
• ✔ patrick wolf
• plasticines
• living things
• ✔ jaguar love
• matt and kim
• the paddingtons
• the view
• edward larrikin
• devandra banhart
• J.U.F. (jewish-ukrainian freundschaft)
• ✔ the gay blades

• 1 small chocochip cookie
• beans and rice and salsa and shredded cheese on tortilla with 2 fruit bars
• saltines
• half a pb&j
• potatoes au gratin
• little bit of broccoli
• half a piece of cake
• 1 miller lite
• 1 miller high life

• 2 packets of english muffins (12 total), one white, one wheat
• one large container peanut butter
• one large container strawberry jelly
• 1 lb of carrots
• 30 apples
• 20 pears
• 1 bag of clementines
• 2 cases of agua
• 2 bags of franzia, blue label
• 2 bottles of cruzan mango rum
• 1 large bag of chex mix
• 2 large bags of tortilla chips
• 2 medium sized containers of salsa, one medium, one hot
• 1 container pickles
• 5 knives
• 2 spoons

• large drawers (2)
• single drawer
• printer
• laundry soap
• those colorful boxes
• hooks
• posters etc
• magazine organizer
• green light
• xmas lights
• cork boards
• paddle ball

• soda, hopefully gingerale
• soup and saltines
• medication/drugs

• pay health insurance
• do e+d readings of abbott
• spanish homework!!!!!!!
• intro to ia readings
• go to intro to ia @ 2-4
• pay back ella
• pay back elsa?
• brunch @ 11
• library for cla
• cla paper???

Albums

• Closing Time (1973)
• The Heart of Saturday Night (1974)
• Nighthawks at the Diner (1975)
• Small Change (1976)
• Foreign Affairs (1977)
• Blue Valentine (1978)
• Heart Attack and Vine (1980)
• One from the Heart (1982)
• Swordfishtrombones (1983)
• Raindogs (1985)
• Franks Wild Years (1987)
• Big Time (1988)
• Night on Earth (1992)
• Bone Machine (1992)
• The Black Rider (1993)
• Mule Variations (1999)
• Blood Money (2002)
• Alice (2002)
• Real Gone (2004)
• Orphans: Brawlers, Bawlers, and Bastards ...

• midnight in the garden of good and evil
  • which is short and an easy read and should just be finished, already
• the yiddish policemen's union
  • which got slow but has been half read for like all summer
• sherlock, vol. II
  • because it's not as good after a point
• catch 22
  • again
• a heartbreaking work of staggering genius
  • which is so pretentious that i don't want to love it quite as much as i do

city of angels

• hey there delilah
• set the fire to the third bar
• read my mind
• chicago
• life is beautiful
• here without you
• konstantine
• they're not like us
• glowing logos
• what i'm looking for

crazy games

• warsaw 1943
• a crazy game of poker
• the general
• here i dreamt i was an architect
• la camisa negra
• when the war came
• cemeteries of london
• fairytale of new york

• arctic monkeys
• plasticines
• cobra starship (oh leighton meester)
• modest mouse
• wilco
• jack white
• raconteurs
• ray lamontagne
• sonic youth
• iron & wine
• peaches
• the sounds
• metric
• the decemberists
• camera obscura
• akron/family
• silversun pickups
• yeah yeah yeahs
• king khan and the shrine
• conner oberst and the mystic valley band
• the vaselines

• over the door hooks
• bed risers + under the bed storage drawers and things
• laptop lock
• bike
• shower caddy
• 3 laundry bags, smallish, for ease of laundrying
• 2 fitted xl sheets
• duffle, pref. with wheels
• those oversized really soft blankets
• fleece (while i'd like a northface, i can't pay those prices)
• lockbox?
• hot water heater for tea
• tea
• ...less than zero poster
• bed clip on light, for reading sherlock
• one of those really exciting sit up in bed pillows for sitting up in bed!!!!!
• christmas lights

• ✔ waive health insurance
• ✔ pay 1st semester tuition
• ✔ straighten hair tuesday night
• ✔ pack up your entire room, completely, by tuesday night
• ✔ get some sleep
• ✔ watch some weeds
• contact a/b
• ✔ refill prescription
• watch movies starring anyone else
• stop eating so much
• stop staying up so late
• ✔ fix roots before college

• less than zero poster
• maybe an iron man poster
• maybe a singing detective poster ONLY because he is so so pretty.
• sherlock holmes poster (2009 or otherwise)
• ugly doll
• american psycho
• three musketeers
• kiss kiss bang bang
• boots!
• house of leaves
• various david eggers
• various jonathan safran foer
• various kurt vonnegut
• various jd salinger
• the hangover
• something by hemingway, because i feel i should
• something by kafka, to freak me the fuck out

• ✔ new skinny jeans, either dark or light wash, just not identical to my current ones. it'd be nice if they fit, too.
• ✔ a new cardigan, long, with long long long sleeves, in a sturdy material that is neither too weighty nor too fragile, preferably in a delightful shade of melange blue or purple or grey or something
• ✔ new black leggings, without holes
• ✔ new sweater tights, or ones that don't have a huge hole where my crotch should go.
• ✔ a leather jacket
• fingerless biker gloves, such as are featured by the people's front of judea or the judean people's front or some such nonsense
• acid wash jeans that i can't pull off, just because i am in that kind of mood
• ✔ a fleece. columbia or some such nonsense. just because.

• joshua james
• landon pigg
• josh ritter
• brett dennen
• corinne bailey rae
• remy zero
• lenka
• iron & wine
• alexi murdoch
• elliott smith
• fionn regan
• ray lamontagne
• josh rouse
• william fitzsimmons

• walls = electric blue or maybe red
• old bureau, painted blood red or maybe white or maybe chalkboard, or maybe just covered in posters
• ikea platform double bed, painted to match bureau, with drawers for extra stuff
• sets of cubbies, one to the right of my window, the other at the foot of my bed, to either be painted or dark wash wood, filled with books
• closet doors to be repainted to match walls
• floppy chair in corner opposite my head
• there's a little table there too, one of the white ones
• wall where my head goes to contain posters, probably of rdj in one form or another
• a lamp will probably need to be mounted sideways on a bureau
• can i loft my bed?