• rix ➶ he/him ➶ dec 1994
• trans ace, bi
• boricua/guanaco dude living in chicago

i'm a grown ass guy who began obsessing over cartoons at the age of 4 and simply never stopped. i've been on the internet for a very, very long time (i got on way too early lmao) but it wasn't until 2018 that i started interacting in fandom spaces. i want to make friends! but im also v nervous lol

my home situation is kind of not great, so i use fandom as a form of escape. i have depression, generalized and social anxiety, and osfed. i've been hospitalized and medicated for these, and have spent time in psychiatric institutions as a result of these mental illnesses. in more recent years, i've come to suspect i've had undiagnosed and unmedicated ADD that simply never got caught because we were busy dealing other shit at the institution lmao

i'm sort of nervous and worry a lot that others hate me. i'm also extremely forgetful and unfocused. it takes me a long time to reply, so if you send a message and i don't respond, i'm either distracted, freaking out, or idk working

i've gone from being the highest scorer in class to being kicked of college out on academic probation. i've had periods where i couldn't leave my room for weeks because of anxiety and panic attacks, and not too long ago i led a discussion on aging with HIV in my second language in front of 30 strangers. in 2014 i was at one of my lowest points, and in 2019 i graduated with highest honors. i love you and it's going to be okay!