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• i'm only fifteen minutes from a costa/bookstore/mcdonalds
• i can live with the two puppies
• the cinema is only twenty minutes away
• it's £10 to london from here
• they have a forest about 3 mins away
• the room here looks sweet & has a forest wall

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• i'll be at least an hour away from any of my close friends
• the nearest station only takes me to london
• i have to get a bus everywhere else
  • or bug dad to give me a lift, ergo taking any sweet independence i've had for the last couple of years
• eg: i feel like i'm moving back in with my parents after being away for a while.
  • living with mum was like a student house
• this town is really fucking boring
• this house is really fucking boring
  • they are boring..
• i'm nowhere near the beach/sea
• travelling to brighton/work/everything will always require an hour and a half instead of thirty minutes
• the room here is half the size of my old place
• i'll miss the comfort of my mum and brother
• dad & jools have a lot more time on their hands (even if they won't admit it) - at home we aalways have a free house, welcome for anyone to come over and stay. incredibly different here.
• they like to know times i'll be gone and home
• they eat as a family (i have definitely taken my freedom to cook for myself for granted)
  • jools likes cooking. the kitchen is, essentially, her place.
  • i just wanna make cheese chips and not get judged okay
  • they really like their meat
• they make me feel lazy
  • like they wake at the crack of dawn. i wake same time for work and college everyday, if i want to sleep longer when i have no plans, fucking let me
  • they lit do nothing so i feel like doing nothing
  • neither of them are used to teenagers or young adults
  • this town is fuckin boring so i end up lazing in my room, i don't actually enjoy it ffs
• my s. mom always has a way of making me feel guilty
  • like when i ask for lifts and things (i really try and keep it to a minimum but if i have no way of getting somewhere or owed money then i have a good fucking reason)
  • like her kids are pretty spoilt to use the term loosely so no you are not the fucking queen of parenting
• they act like i am the third child
  • i work and i go to college.
  • the sole reason i can't move out from all of them is money
    • the government don't help people like me move out anymore
    • my job is far too low paying to rent a room. i earn possibly just enough to pay for a single shit room, rent only. if in the unlikely event my pay got tripled or my parents volunteered to pay for the rest of my expenses, i still wouldn't be saving any money for travel which is first and foremost what i wanna do?