• my name is ivan. i also go by vanya and ray.
• i'm a trans man (he/him pronouns).
• i started testosterone/hrt 6/5/18.
• white (irish, british and russian ancestry). i'm fluent in english and know a chunk or so of russian. i currently live in new york.
• pansexual && engaged.
• 22 years old.
• emotional, physical and sexual abuse survivor. bullying victim. recovering self-harmer, alcoholic and drug addict.
• marxist communist.
• agnostic; but i am studying and interested in polytheism, particularly egyptian polytheism.
• i also believe in reincarnation, ghosts/spirits/cryptids, extraterrestrial beings, and the art of divination.
• employed for the state government.

prof. dx'd --

• autism/aspergers syndrome (asd)
• sensory processing disorder (spd)
• bipolar disorder
• generalized anxiety disorder (gad)
• obsessive-compulsive disorder (ocd)
• borderline personality disorder (bpd)
• post traumatic stress disorder (ptsd)
• eating disorder not otherwise specified (ednos)
• some psychotic symptoms (delusions and visual/auditory hallucinations)
• dyspraxia & dyscalculia

physical issues --

• spina bifida occulta (causes chronic back pain. pain was exaggerated after i received a permanent back injury from a previous job)
• chronic joint pain (possible rheumatoid arthritis)

non-fandom --

• rollercoasters
• bath bombs
• cars
• birds
• recreational drugs/drug history/drug culture, etc.
• russian history/culture

fandom related --

• axis powers: hetalia
• pokemon
• monster hunter
• fantastic beasts and where to find them
• harry potter
• warriors series
• various bands (death cab for cutie, frightened rabbit, a day to remember, coldplay)

theriotypes --

• wolf (gray wolf)
• dog (corgi, borzoi, siberian laika)
• bird (pigeon)
• ghost (non malevolent spirit)
• pokemon (shiny ninetales, giratina)
• monster (hellhound, odogaron & gore magala from monster hunter)

synpaths -- (note: i am NOT fictionkin with these characters. they are simply extremely relatable to me on an almost spiritual level)

• aph russia/ivan braginsky (hetalia)
• john egbert (homestuck)
• newt scamander (fantastic beasts and where to find them)
• bigby wolf (the wolf among us/fables comics)
• blu (rio)
• illya kuryakin (the man from uncle)

phobias/things that make me uncomfortable --

• spiders/insects
• parasites
• nuclear warfare
• apocalypse themes/theories
• bright lights
• loud noise

triggers--

• self-harm
• abuse
• rape
• sexting & sex in bathrooms
• ritalin misuse/abuse/addiction
• kingdom hearts
• green day
• billie joe armstrong
• steven universe