good days used to seem like they were far and few between -

i've gotten so much better at not letting one bad thing ruin my entire day, or even letting one good thing make a bad day better -- it's like finding the little plastic baby in a king cake on mardi gras, or looking at the clock and the numbers always match your day of birth. it's like having a mental breakdown in the car in the pouring rain, the radio is drumming in the background some sad sad song and then your favorite song from childhood starts playing and you finally stop and smile. it's like getting the present that you want on christmas morning, or someone telling you what you needed (not what you wanted) to hear. it's like settling into a hot bath after a really long day, or seeing your mom after months of being away. it's the little laughs in the car with your dad, it's seeing your grandparents slow dance in the middle of the kitchen, it's the friend that says hi to you on the street before your 8am, it's looking at your childhood photos and seeing that gummy innocent smile. it's the little things that make you smile, that make your day.

coming to terms with your reality is hard. embracing your shadow self, owning your insecurities, your anxieties, your struggles. it's hard. i get better every day

- i might not have a "good day" every day. but i try to find the good in each day.