• am tired
• permanently
• being a human is a full-time job

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• staring into space
• the voice talking in my head
• is it me

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• numb
• endlessly
• only tears are from loss
• and even then, only sometimes

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• there are two voices
• the quieter one i shut out
• they don't belong

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• my voice
• depressingly clinical
• even tone, metronomic pacing

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• the quieter one
• more emotional
• running like the B side of an old album
• unbearable when in the background

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• lost ages
• of time, of youth
• i am old, without memories

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• seasons
• drifted through
• without any directive except to survive

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• even that
• sometimes hard to do
• keeping on when you see no future
• is the essence of courage

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• attempts
• to convince myself
• of anything, of any when

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• i'm alive
• my thoughts are valid
• not repeated from the web

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• my problems aren't real
• suppression is effective
• i can live
• but I can't breathe