• why does online dating scare me

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• what about attaching a name and a face
• and a description to a messenger scares me

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• its not rejection
• i’ve known that my whole life
• it sucks but it doesn’t scare me anymore

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• maybe it’s the sense
• that everything good I have
• i kinda stumbled my way into
• and that i’m scared searching will ruin my luck

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• i don’t think that’s it
• i stumble because
• i have to follow a breadcrumb trail of half-rendered emoticons
• to even know what i want
• that’s a fight in itself

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• maybe i’m scared because its so unknown
• i have to try really hard for social cues but at least they’re there
• their desires are so unknown over six pics
• and a little description
• maybe its scary and i have to do it
• cause i cant rely on what they want

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• in the long run
• i gotta figure out what i want.