am excited.. one day tho, I'll stop being such bad luck like my brother says - w people n find a best friend yknow??? idk. Someone super patient!! Kind!! That I will feel warm n safe about - a feeling of trust that I can't second guess, who I feel I can share sad problems that aren't downplayed, and will feel like a priority in their life n not someone to b used or an obligation or to boost their ego! I hope!!!! I hope so much (but I'm ok now. There's a lot to look forward to and I really wanna just get invested into hobbies n my health!)