SHINYA IS a big part of me sorta too. Okay that doesn't make sense but I heavily relate to this boy. Well first of all he can be a playful annoying jackass to his best friend and I do that to my friend Vis *A LOT* so that's what started my "kin" with him.

But as I got to know him better he kinda??? fits me?? like. He hides his emo-ness with jokes and shit but he's gone through a lot that he doesn't like to bring up (like me, I feel so gross bringing up bad stuff that's happened to me and I try to forget so hard).

Sometimes I feel he's just a "synpath" worthy character but I don't feel he deserves to be demoted to that? Like I feel genuinely close to him and I hate seeing other RP blogs for him because then I feel super invalidated and it wasn't like that with my Kido RP; I could tolerate doubles there but not with Shinya.

He hurts and he hides it and he always smiles even when he's hurting and he doesn't want to talk about anything that's happened to him and even though he fought so hard to get to his good position he was rejected for the one purpose he fought for and that's super relatable, especially now that I'm sick.

I was supposed to be the good child and be independent, get good grades, never be a hassle. Ever since I got sick though I've been nothing but and its like I worked so hard to get approval and succeed and then everything crashes and we're stuck in this sort of wishy-washy acceptance where you know you didn't get what you wanted but you're tolerated anyway until you become useful.