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“To be, in a word, unborable.... It is the key to modern life. If you are immune to boredom, there is literally nothing you cannot accomplish”
DFW

"The really important kind of freedom involves attention and awareness and discipline, and being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them over and over in myriad petty, unsexy ways every day."
DFW

bookmarks:
listography GIVE A GIFT OF MEMORIES
fromblownspea... about me (resolutions 2024)
books (to read)
books (that i read in 2024)
travel (places i want to see)
  • Rapid heartbeat from light exertion (walking quickly, running up stairs), not so much pounding as weak and fast
  • Occasional dizziness upon standing, a dimming of vision that precedes nausea and feeling like I'll pass out
  • Very oily skin, especially in the T-zone, and a worsening of acne, accompanied by dehydrated, flaking skin
  • Irritable or even just angry, ready to lash out at anything Toshi says
  • Hand tremors made worse by coffee or general nervousness (speaking up in class), internal anxiety that may or may not be accompanied by the tremors
  • Consistent and continual hair loss that is very obvious in the shower, when hair comes out by the handful
  • Occasional memory loss, especially with alcohol and with oversupplementing on Biotin; literally "passing out" and waking up with little recollection of how I fell asleep
  • Brain fog and sleepiness on occasion, feeling like I can't focus meaningfully on anything
oct 21 2014 ∞
dec 26 2014 +