Aren't I the worst? Sometimes I fear that I don't know how to stop. It's weird and sad to be honest about this

• isolating myself/avoidant behaviour
• picking at my skin (lips the most)
• use (consciously) exercise to procastinate important tasks that need to be done
• daydreaming and not doing anything to sublimate it
• staying in bed/thinking of going to bed when my head feels heavy
• overdoing shopping therapy
• staying inside when I could go out
• too much sex
• punishing myself with "spending my free time doing things I enjoy but feeling not joy at all" for not doing what I need to do before
• self sabotage: with too much sleep, with too little sleep, with eating too much, with eating too little...
• crying/feeling anger everytime somethings goes out of the way I planned it