songs on repeat

• lemonade, aespa

books read(ing)

• ...

movies

• the grand budapest hotel (2014) ☆☆☆☆☆

tv shows

• ...

songs on repeat

• need your company, le sserafim

books read(ing)

• after dark , haruki murakami

movies

• backrooms (2026) ☆☆☆
• incantation (2022) ☆☆☆

tv shows

• we are all trying here ☆☆☆☆☆
• my royal nemesis watching/on-hold

• Out, Natsuo Kirino
• The memory police, Yoko Ogawa
• Convenience store woman, Sayaka Murata
• Confessions, Kanae Minato
• The vegetarian, Kang Han
• Winter in Sokcho, Elisa Shua Dusapin
• Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982, Cho Nam-joo
• I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki, Baek Se-hee

• notion
• notebooklm
• grammarly
• forest/ypt

work? no listening to vaundy's discography?: yes

(⋆̲: yeah no | ⋆̲⋆̲ hmm | ⋆̲⋆̲⋆̲ ok | ⋆̲⋆̲⋆̲⋆̲ great | ⋆̲⋆̲⋆̲⋆̲⋆̲ i love you vaundy thank you for existing)

(ONE DAY... I WILL START THIS LIST)

• the ugly stepsister (2025)
• the substance (2024)
• pearl (2022)
• the witch (2015)
• bedevilled (2010)
• perfect blue (1997)
• possession (1981)

• still lonely, seventeen
• the eve, exo
• hold, winner
• drama, txt
• sha la la, pentagon
• super, seventeen
• odd eye, shinee
• mic drop, bts
• dna, bts
• butterfly (extended version), bts
• good bad ugly, red velvet

songs on repeat

• carrousel, lexie liu
• lo que quieras, chita
• lo único que quería este verano, blair

books read(ing)

• wind-up bird chronicle, haruki murakami

movies

• wake up dead man (2025) ☆☆
• every breath you take (2023) ☆☆
• 65 (2023) ☆☆☆
• trap (2024) ☆☆
• a letter to my youth (2026) ☆☆☆☆

tv shows

songs on repeat

• can't you see, skyler spence
• stab my back, the all-american rejects
• lush life, zara larsson

books read(ing)

• wind-up bird chronicle, haruki murakami (still reading!)
• terror, antología ☆☆½

movies

• only yesterday (1991) ☆☆☆☆
• little women (1994) ☆☆☆
• legally blonde (2001) ☆☆☆☆
• "wuthering heights" (2026)

songs on repeat

• go/champion, blackpink
• body to body/fya, bts (!!!!)

books read(ing)

• ( ಠ_ಠ)

movies

• (•_•)

tv shows

• one piece s2 ☆☆☆☆
• girl from nowhere: the reset watching

Yo nunca escribí, no sé qué es escribir. Me encanta la literatura, y aun así no sé escribir. Leo palabras, una detrás de otra, y no las puedo asimilar, no me entran en la cabeza. Ni las palabras, ni la gramática, ni las analogías (qué gran envidia quienes pueden hacer analogías. los dientes de león habían cambiado de soles a lunas decía Nabokov y yo me inclino ante tal genialidad). En fin, no tengo ningún talento para escribir. Tampoco nunca intenté, y no me preocupa.

Solo me preocupa cuando empiezo a tener esa sensación de ahogamiento... algo me ahoga, me asfixia, me suspende, me hunde, y no sé cómo ponerlo en palabras. Y como no puedo ponerlo en palabras no puedo darle entidad. Es un gran desconocido, asi que solo me queda decir que me aterra lo desconocido.

Tengo también un problema, al cual yo le llamo estado comatoso. No sé en qué mo...

• Breathing is already a heavy burden
• Would Ariana eat this? Would ariana look like this?
• I don't want to stay awake, I don't want to go to sleep, I don't want to think, I don'w want to move (I want, I want, I want, I want...)
• Life is just not for me
• Just a disappointment

• ⭔ xo, my cyberlove (chuu)
• ⭔ euphoria (alpha drive one)
• ⭓ reverse (exo)
• ⭔ play (misamo)
• ⭔ wuthering heights (charli xcx)
• ⭔ revive+ (ive)
• ⭓ deadline (blackpink)
• ⭓ kiss all the time, disco occasionally (harry styles)
• ⭔ free spirits (ca7riel & paco amoroso)
• ⭔ monica (jack harlow)
• ⭓ arirang (bts)
• ⭔ wish re-imagined (olivia lufkin)
• ⭓ fujieda ep (asian kung fu generation)
• ⭓ eternal sunshine (ariana grande)
• ⭓ pureflow pt. I (le sserafim)

electric heart, 8turn. | what you want , cortis. | boytude , idntt. | go!, cortis. | paint candy, close your eyes.

(updating...)

damn me and my slow ass ┌( ಠ_ಠ)┘

february

• sunday 22: 2 pomodoros, had lunch, watched some yt (girl what r u doing), felt miserable, (how to get back to studying?), 5 pomodoros, went out for a walk, did some cardio bc why not, ate pizza bc why not, 2 last pomodoros for todayyy
  • progress: ▰▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱
• monday 23: woke up early for my medical appointment, lost morning time doing ~ things (and playing videogames NO D:); had lunch; took a nap (NOO); locked in till 2 am (yay) and ate pizza
  • progress: ▰▰▰▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱▱
• tuesday 24: woke up super late already ಥ_ಥ ,,,, I did nothing and it's already 5 pm **die...

• The fault in our stars (julius caesar)
• Something wicked this way comes (macbeth)
• Kings of infinite space (hamlet)
• Brave new world (the tempest)
• What dreams may come (hamlet)
• Late eclipses (king lear)
• The mortal instruments (julius caesar)
• A local habitation (midsummer night's dream)
• The sound and the fury (macbeth)
• The glimpses of the moon (hamlet)
• By the pricking of my thumbs (macbeth)
• Too like the lightning (romeo and juliet)
• Into thin air (the tempest)
• In cold blood (timon of athens)

• jan ⬩ solar opposites; prismacolor colored pencils; bullet journal
• feb ⬩ kkhd/ssd; me thinking about how college life is hard and doesn't align with my slow, lazy ass
• mar ⬩ sanami 🍳🍊; bts arirang live
• apr. ⬩ arirang (album) ((part. II))
• may. ⬩ ---
• jun. ⬩ pureflow (album), color blue
• jul. taylor swift sad songs, hollywood crush (what)

(updating...)

• Hard-boiled wonderland, Haruki Murakami
• The power of the dog, Thomas Savage
• To kill a mockingbird, Harper Lee
• Cien años de soledad, Gabriel García Marquez
• Dance dance dance, Haruki Murakami
• Hercule Poirot's Christmas, Agatha Christie

• the holiday (2006)
• little miss sunshine (2006)
• to wong foo... (1995)
• vacation (1983)
• forrest gump (1994)
• pride & prejudice (2005)
• stardust (2007)

Tuve un sueño. Uno raro, colorido, como hace tiempo no tenía. El último sueño lleno de color que tuve implicaba el fin del mundo, y nosotros huyendo por carreteras larguísimas que se extendían hasta el cielo. Y mi padre, y la casilla, y todas sus baratijas, colecciones y pertenencias, y yo buscando una llave mientras pensaba esto es lo único que me queda . Y el otro (último) sueño colorido que tuve solo tenía peluches gigantes, hombres grandes y musculosos con máscaras peludas de animales, un gran predio similar a un sitio de juegos, como esos a los que de pequeña quería ir pero difícilmente me llevaban y cuando lo hacían yo difícilmente los disfrutaba, y luego un tiroteo. Yo me decía es lo mismo que la otra vez , y después se paraba todo, como si fuera la grabación de una película.

Y ahora el último, efectivamente el último que tuve, era un mundo solo de adultos que usaban carritos de niños para trasladarse. Carritos pequeños, de plástico..._"Necesito que me empujes"_ y yo, otra yo que era otro, empujaba. "No sé si va a subir" "No importa, ahora agarra ritmo y avanza"... . Y el carrito con la otra mujer que era ..._"Siempre tan distraída"_ . No se si subía al tren o no, no se si ..._"Esta cafetería es cara y lo que sirven ..._ . Una chica pide unas tostadas... no se q..._Tenés que decir algo, porque ella no sab..._ Y me miran y siguen mirándome. Miro a l..._Yo solo hago lo que me dicen_ y yo solo puedo decirle no, no y nos vamos. Y después no se que más p..._¿Qué es eso?_ Perfumes. Solo de 100ml ¿Y hay tiendas con perfumes de 200ml, 50... . Quisiera volver, ir a la tienda, que es..._"Le tendría que comprar un perfume a mi ..._ "Podés volver otro día, salir otro día... "Sí, siempre me olvido" . No se por qué se me caen las lágrimas...

• blackpink champion remix (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
• start running/exercising again (yes, I'm unable to move)
• watch lots of things
• learn how to draw =)
• renovate my furnite
• move rooms
• kick start x raw flame mashup
• bts hooligan upbeat remix(?)

• my "time to study" laptop
• mech keyboard bc the sound inspires me(?
• instrumental music to set the mood (shoutout to channels like onia music) or cozy vlogs
• bottle of water 👍
• energy drink (if I happen to have one)
• pomodoro app (like yellow tomato or pomofox)
• small notebook for notes and write how miserable I am

• "Grim reaper barbie"
• Tyler telling her that he wishes he was escaping Jericho with her
• The two of them being legally required to attend therapy and stalking their parents lol
• Yes, tyler killed a lot of people as the hyde, but wednesday is the only one he saved in that form
• "You are becoming obsessed with this monster in the woods"
• Tyler looking bemused that Wednesday could "eat girls scouts for breakfast"
• Tyler with a black corsage for her
• Wednesday looking for a dress to go the Rave'N
• "Amazing" "I mean it" "You look beautiful"
• Tyler admiting what he did to Xaver and her telling him she would've taken it further lol (the "what, like putting piranhas in a swimmin... kills me everytime)

• atelier, chita
• la caída del ángel, brunne romeo

• I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday.
• I will love you if you cut your hair and I will love you if you cut the hair of others.
• I will love you as the starfish loves a coral reef and as kudzu loves trees, even if the oceans turn to sawdust and the trees fall in the forest without anyone around to hear them.
• I will love you as a thief loves a gallery and as a crow loves a murder, as a cloud loves bats and as a range loves braes.
• I will love you as misfortune loves orphans, as fire loves innocence and as justice loves to sit and watch while everything goes wrong.
• I will love you as a dagger loves a certain person’s back
• I will love you as a drawer loves a secre...

jan

• I saw two shooting stars :)
• I had the most embarassing experience (at work). I can't go any lower than this, so up we go from now on.
• My dissertation is on the right track !
• My nephew is taking his first steps (o゜▽゜)o☆
• I'm so into bullet journaling (!)

feb

• I already forgot about bullet journaling
• my nephew somehow already runs (in baby form ofc)
• a pretty well known tokyo-based company contacted me for a job offer... I don't think I'm even a match but ok I guess
• I want to finish my thesis but at the sam...