originally i got a vip ticket though i lined up for vvip. i was, at first, crestfallen but i have learnt to accept it. so many opportunities to get a vvip ticket came to me but none actually worked. a day before the fanmeet, i was so bitter because there were SO MANY vacant vvip seats that i started breaking down so i decided to message ticketworld about it just to confirm that upgrading wasn't allowed (i was THAT desperate omg) and i literally fell off my bed when they replied oh my god.

so i ended up getting vvip tickets with my friends.

before entering the theater, i managed to meet up with justine also known as the most huggable squish ever. she was so warm and we recreated seokwoo photos! we were both laughing at how the photos came out because wonwoo was serious most of the time (justine: omG LoOK AHAHAHhahAHhHA me: why am i an expert at this... nevermind i look horrible.)

as we entered the theater, jeah, kayla and i all received pink cards. we were kind of bummed because we thought it was for photo op but i kept reminding them that they might switch colors just to lighten up the mood.

when we got to our seats, we were SO SHOOK our seats could see the stage. music videos started playing and by the end of the second music video, my throat already hurt so much.

the show started and OH MY GOD it was the best thing ever. their dancing was GREAT their vocals were THE BEST ESPECIALLY SEUNGKWAN MY BABIE CHILD AND SEOKMIN. i also witnessed seokmin's neck rub in real life. ha. beat that.

so i really enjoyed it oh my god i kept on screaming, singing along to the songs, and shouting "i love seventeen" that people in front of me actually started to laugh at me. by the end, when they were saying their messages, i was so desperate to be waved at by wonwoo but i realized that he probs wont wave at me so i just waved at mingyu. jeonghan pointed to our direction and mingyu looked at me and waved OH MY GOD. we started freaking out and then all three of us just waved more at him and he LAUGHED and waved again that i actually sat on the floor.

the show ended AMAZINGLY i can't put it into words. i was literally hurriedly retouching my makeup whilst they were announcing which colors got hitouch and which got photo op and i was like "yeah we get it we're photo op." and then the guy said that we were for hitouch AND I DABBED SO HARD AND BACKFLIPPED SIX TIME just kidding but Yes bambam is shook by me DABBING.

we filmed so many crazy ass videos whilst waiting for hitouch and the line started moving SO FAST i thought it was still going to be a long time it turns out IT WAS THE REAL THING.

so when i got on the stage the staff was like "NO SELPON NO SELPON" i was so ready to Catch His Hands . so i went backstage with a SHOOK expression on.

HI-TOUCH PER MEMBER

• seungcheol: I EXPECTED HIM TO BE SO BUFF and he really is wtf i love my sugar appa xD just kidding but yea his grip was strong and his hands felt rough for me? i dont know but he was like the fifth person? not sure.
• jeonghan: he was so masculine and he was the epitome of beauty. he was so fair and his skin was milky. his eyes were literally chocolate i was trying so hard not to CRY he was BEAUTIFUL. his hands were normal i guess. not too soft not too rough.
• jisoo: JOSHUA HAD SOFT HANDS he was so Pretty in person he was smiling so big at me he looked like a fairy-cat hybrid to be honest.
• soonyoung: SOONYOUNG WAS AS BEAUTIFUL AS I EXPECTED HIM TO BE. he had me so shook i cant look at him because i just looked at our hands but from behind our hands he was smiling at me. THE HAMSTER SMILE. THE KWON SOONYOUNG HAMSTER SUSNHINE SMILE.
• jun: where did he go
• wonwoo: THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WAS SECOND TO THE LAST I THINK? he was almost at the end. but he was SO FAIR AND PALE. he had this intimidating yet fascinating gaze so when he stared at me whilst our hands clasped with each other i got so shook i didn't know what to say. out of awkwardness, we looked away from each other but managed to stare each other down in pure silence. his eyes were so sparkly and his hair was so charcoal and his lips were so pink and soft and k*ss*ble. (wonwoo's gaze cycle: me, the table, curtains, me, table, me, curtains.) at the end, his lips curved into a smile at me and honestly i was the one to back away because i just couldn't take it anymore. his hands were so soft. his hands were so cold and i just wanted to give him all of my warmth for the rest of my days.
• jihoon: i expected jihoon to be a few centimeters taller than me but he was just the same height (mind you, i'm 159 cm. who's lying between the two of us?)it seemed so quick with him but he was beaming at me LIKE LITERALLY BEAMING and he squeezed our hands together i was shook i thought my hand was just too big for his it turns out he just tightened it together my heart is clenching just thinking about it
• seokmin: SEOKMIN WAS SO FULL OF MELANIN i expected him to be creamy white but he was. melanin. HE WAS SMILING SO BIG AT ME. THE GUMMY SMILE. and i wanted to faint. he smelled of mint apparently omg and his hands were the roughest out of them all.
• mingyu: OH BOY HE WAS THE LAST ONE. i also had the most interaction with him because we were basically just teasing each other and stuff like that. he apparently recognized me because there was a glint of recognition in his eyes and he was staring into my soul with a HUMONGOUS grin on his face. (apparently he whispered 'you' to kayla so he recognized her too omg.) he was literally saying "hAaAaIiIiIi HAii Hayyy Hai" i raised me hand to meet his but literally HE SHOVED HIS HAND INTO MINE WHAT THE HELL. he was smiling at me cheekily as he quickly leaned so close we were like centimeters apart and i was like "ohcrapwhatdoidonowthisboyisgoingtokillme" his hands were so soft and gentle. his eyes were so welcoming it felt like home. he also LIGHTLY squeezed my hand but not the JIHOON TYPE he just tightened it a bit i swear i could feel a finger of his at the back of my hand? he also didn't break eye contact with me so i just stared into his eyes i guess hh. LITERALLY I COULD SEE HIS CANINES CLEARLY AND HIS BREATH SMELLED OF APPLES AND HIS EYES WERE SO CUTE AND HIS HAIR WAS SO FLUFFY AND HIS LIPS WERE SO RED. so i accidentally let out a QUIET moan i don't know why? but since we were so close he heard it and he GIGGLED like "ahihihihi" and i was like "I'M SO DONE WITH YOUR AHIHIHI'S BOY" and that's the story of how i Broke Up With My 0.5 Second Fling Mate.
• minghao: where did my son go
• seungkwan: SEUNGKWAN i mumbled "my BABIE CHILD" when i met him but he had quite soft hands? not exactly soft but STILL GENTLE. he was smiling at me i was MELTING and his eyes were so big and his cheeks i wanted to kiss his cheeks :(
• vernon: LISTEN UP vernon was the first one who saw me oh my god. he must have heard me get scolded because when i hurriedly placed my hand on his he straight up chuckled at me and my shook expression. his hand was the softest out of them all AND I DIDN'T THINK HE WAS THAT MUSCULAR AND GOOD-LOOKING BEFORE; I WAS PROVEN WRONG i have been SCAMMED. but the PICTURES DON'T DO HIM JUSTICE. they do vernon so dirty omg his face was so strong and well-structured and his eyes were so squinty whenever he smiled at me and OMG HIS GUMS WERE SO CUTE. i still can't believe i made him laugh.
• chan: CHAN SMELLED LIKE MEN'S PERFUME I WAS SO CLOSE TO CRYING he seemed so mature in real life what the hell? he was also MUCH TALLER THAN ME. his jawline was good i'm going to. cry. HE WAS ALSO SMILING SO BIG. you know. THE lee chan smile! yes! that!

bottomline: i love seventeen so much more now.