- tamed absurdly itchy gums with unsterilised needle
- crushed percocet on a hole record whilst two best friends sat on either side of me, rolling dreads into my head
- fired up strange pirate obsession
- hair up in turbans and wraps; to be beaded, embroidered, adorned
- n and i transfer entire kitchen to my bedroom to avoid interacting with parents' guests
- officially nocturnal; wake up 18:00, go to bed 8:00
- no input, no output; bed-bound
- not wanting/needing to discover any new music, just listening to a whole lotta alela diane
- pulled out electoral signs from the neighbourhood's front yards by the light of the moon with n, stuck over thirty into the grass by the school steps
- saw the world's biggest dog/werewolf/creature/death hound under streetlight at two in the morning after prior pranking adventures
- feel cursed, ridden with bad luck
- difficulties breathing before/whilst going to bed
- dad and n go back to london
- huge snowstorm after month of mild weather
- conor's house party: included bonding with the host and his mother, holding an isolated drug-fuelled dance party in the kitchen, observation of drunk hoodlums and watching one of said hoodlums vomit all over the furniture, his one-hooter, his lighter and himself
- stomach flu: come home from quinlan's early morning by taxi, set up deathbed in bathroom and proceed to purge entire body weight
- biological mother snoops through bag whilst the porcelain throne caresses my sickly head; finds grass stash; calls cops: fight ensues. end result: a hole kicked into the wall, a fist full of black hair unrooted, a nosebleed, more puke, cops paramedics firefighters oh my!, estrangement
- insignificant cutting slip up
- marijuana tolerance: up, down, all around. questioning whether i should be smoking at all granted the mental instability, medication changes, possible health complications?
- childhood mini-nightmare realised: favourite hat blown off and lost unbeknownst to me
- finally tried avocado bubble tea; sold
- 420 or whatever: admitted myself to the hospital for perpetual heart pain/shortness of breath, discharged early in the morning (there's nothing wrong with me save for my overly anxious mind); let a gopher into the clinic by luring/cooing it in through a set of side doors; talked to lovely cafeteria lady about the 60s and woodstock, got a big coffee for the price of tea; smoked a bowl in a hospital courtyard, proceeded to wander around the rockyview some more; walked home through the park at dawn, revisiting my favourite haunts by way of celebrating the holidays
- panic attack at q's: heart going 180bpm; fear of seizuring/fainting/cardiac arrest/going insane; benzodiazepines; peace
- sleepover at k's: a fair bit of rum and other alcoholic blessings; running around the neighbourhood at two in the morning with q and j, tearing down electoral signs then starting a dumpster fire with said signs; knicky knicky nine doors
apr 18 2012 ∞
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