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"I can never read all the books I want;
I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want.
I can never train myself in all the skills I want.
And why do I want?
I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life.
And I am horribly limited."
- Sylvia Plath

Marta follows:
clare observations (april)
shirley podcasts (two thousand and nineteen)
links (two thousand and nineteen)
about me
moths films (2019)
  • phosphenes
    • the stars and colours you see when you rub your eyes
  • brontide
    • the low rumbling of distant thunder
  • dactylion
    • the tip of a middle finger
  • nudiustertian
    • pertaining to the day before yesterday
  • gargalesthesia
    • the sensation caused by tickling
  • petrichor
    • the smell of rain on dry ground
  • dendolatry
    • worship of trees
  • lethologica
    • the inability to recall a precise word for something
  • psithurism
    • a whispering sound, i.e: the sound of wind in trees, or rustling leaves
  • witzelsucht
    • a feeble attempt at humour
  • epeolatry
    • worship of words
  • woundy
    • excessively; extremely
  • tacenda
    • things not to be mentioned
  • naupathia
    • sea sickness
  • baisemain
    • a kiss on the hand
  • astrophe
    • hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head—a crisp analysis, a cathartic dialogue, a devastating comeback—which serves as a kind of psychological batting cage where you can connect more deeply with people than in the small ball of everyday life, which is a frustratingly cautious game of change-up pitches, sacrifice bunts, and intentional walks
  • l'espirit de l'escalier
    • that feeling you get when you leave a conversation and think of all things you should have said
  • lonely
    • sad because has no friends or company
      • without companions; solitary
      • (of a place) unfrequented and remote
  • lalochezia
    • the use of abusive language to relieve stress or ease pain
  • cataglottism
    • kissing with tongue
  • basorexia
    • an overwhelming desire to kiss
  • grapholagnia
    • the urge to stare at obscene pictures
  • agelast
    • a person who never laughs
  • wanweird
    • an unhappy fate
  • dystopia
    • an imaginary place of total misery; metaphor for hell
  • petrichor
    • the smell of dry rain on the ground
  • anagapesis
    • the feeling when one no longer loves someone they once did
  • luftmensch
    • an impractical dreamer with no business sense; one with their head in the clouds
  • sonder
    • the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk
  • nihilism
    • n. 1a) the denial of the existence of any basis for knowledge or truth b) the general rejection of customary beliefs in morality, religion, etc. 2. the belief that there is no meaning or purpose in existence
jul 8 2012 ∞
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