• write a book
• work on my posture
• wake up early
• try drugs other than weed
• travel to new york
• think of him and feel nothing. get closure.
• remain alcohol-free
• move to a better house
• make friends
• let the past die. kill it, if i have to.
• learn more about my heritage
• learn how to fucking kiss
• learn an instrument
• learn a new language
• if possible, write every day
• go to the library at least once a month
• give my cats all the love they deserve
• get published
• get more tattoos
• get into photography

if it doesn’t come bursting out of you

in spite of everything,

don’t do it.

unless it comes unasked out of your

heart and your mind and your mouth

and your gut,

don’t do it.

if you have to sit for hours

staring at your computer screen

or hunched over your

typewriter

searching for words,

don’t do it.

if you’re doing it for money or

fame,

don’t do it.

if you’re doing it because you want

women in your bed,

don’t do it.

if you have to sit there and

rewrite it again and again,

don’t do it.

reading

watching (cinema)

• funny face (1957)
• already tomorrow in hong kong (2016)
• black panther (2018)

watching (tv)

listening to

• twenty one pilots - oh ms believer
• george ezra - pretty shining people
• chromatics - camera

occured

• the oscars are SHIT
• i'm done excusing my mom's abusive behavior. it's not tough love, it's emotional + psychological violence. i can't wait to ...