• Pokemon

Pokemon is my longest standing interests. There are so many adaptations and different forms of media styles to consume it in, it was impossible for me to not become obsessed with it. Many of the games hold a very special place in my heart, and eventually, I hope to be able to do playthroughs of every single one. I enjoy the modern animated series, but prefer the animation that I grew up watching, as well as the movies on VHS. I collected the cards as a kid, but no longer indulge as an adult. I still enjoy pokemon card openings, and I especially enjoy 3D pokemon card art! My all time favorite adaptation of Pokemon that has impacted me profoundly since the age I first learnt to read would be Pokemon Adventures. I WILL post about Red & Green/Blue Oak from Pokemon Adventures, they're Ash Ketchum & Gary Oak counterparts but more angsty and emotionally connected and inexplicably intertwined by fate. i care them. So Bad.

• Corpse Party

I first watched a playthrough of Corpse Party: Repeated Fear in 2013, after already being obsessed with various other RPG maker horror games. The characters in Corpse Party struck me in a way other characters hadn't, to the point I'm still analyzing and exploring them today, and the uniqueness of the universe enraptured me. Corpse Party was critical in helping me recognize my systemhood, as Blue (not the same as Blue Oak) is an introject of Ayumi Shinozaki, and has been active & identifiable since I was 9. We have multiple AUs to put the Corpse Party characters in, as well as a character analysis fic in progress!

• Mythology

Mythology has always entranced me. Every culture has it's own form of it, and in multiple areas of the world that would have likely had no or limited contact, there are accounts of entities of all sorts, but the aspects they reside over, the rituals of devotion and practices, and sometimes even appearances can all be seen repeated similarly. That's fascinating, and I believe in belief. I'm also incredibly intrigued by the ways mythology can be related back into psychology and sociology and other such studies and labels or classifications of humans.

• Psychology & Neurobiology

You don't usually end up kinning on kinstagram without being some sort of fucked up. (said with love <3) Understanding why the brain does what it does, and how altered signaling can have serious side effects is so important to me. I was medicated for years with medications I was genetically resistant to, and got testing for it that proved I'd have adverse or no reactions to specific classes of medications that I was then continuously prescribed despite the doctors having those reports. They just didn't read them. Some of these meds left me with side effects I'm still experiencing, and were generally inappropriate to be prescribing to someone with my profile. This was solely for mental issues, as my physical health wasn't seen as serious because I "needed to take care of the mentals first." My mentals were bad because my physicals were even worse and no one would listen or take me seriously until I was dying. Eat shit, and live, Previous Doctors. So I've learnt a lot to be able to help myself and I love projecting onto characters or just adding depth to them with personal headcanons from real life information I've gathered.

• Genetics

Linking back to the previous paragraph, being improperly medicated led me down a rabbit-hole of medical research to delve into. I truly enjoy the process of research, especially things that connect back and recontextualize how I understand the world, but medical information is inaccessible. It focuses on and enforces a standard of being as a rich, cis AMAB, white Christian and validating their pain and catering to it while anyone outside that frame of reference is invalidated, condescended, and has to jump through hoops to attain basic symptom relief. Documents and research are frequently locked behind paywalls, and free resources are guarded by medical & scientific language that requires memorizing terms, prefixes, suffixes, and so much more. I'd like to eventually make it easier to bridge that gap for people uninvolved in medical communities as it is intrinsically linked to ableism & disability rights. Genetics impact everything, and so many "quirky" things about out bodies can actually be symptoms that might not be serious now, but could point to something bigger, that will present more severely later in life. Genetic anticipation, mutations, translocations, deletions, inactivation, mosaicism, pregnancy, the impact of trauma on gene expression, intergenerational trauma, and epigenetics are all subjects I hope to remain educated and updated on, and help people realize these fields are severely complicated and intertwined with so much information, but there's still so much about us that we don't know, but I think we used to, just with different words and mindsets that have been lost to violence and the times.

• Youtube

Youtube...The gift that keeps on giving. Oh, how you've revolutionized the modern world. Kids these days don't even remember when the app image was an old box TV...Kids these days didn't experience Fred, or Drunk Minecraft with Mark, Bob, & Wade, or The Password Rant by Tobuscus...or Minecraft Oasis by IHasCupquake, or Boxxy, or The downfall of Yamimash, the real-time rise of Keemstar...BoyinaBand before he was outed...Kids these days don't even know Cryaotic and why "We stopped being genuine a long time ago" shot him back into relevancy solely for the awaiting nosedive into a fall of infamy and irrelevancy. What a time to be alive. Truly, I don't know that it's a replaceable site. It's been a lifelong dream of mine to make youtube videos and eventually become self sufficient from it. So many youtubers brought me comfort in some of the darkest moments of my life, and it shreds my heart to know the phrase "Never meet your heroes" rings true for so many of them. I'd like to end up being someone that makes videos I'm proud of, and that people are entertained by, and eventually grow a loving & supportive community of people that makes how batshit life is easier to cope with for each other.