👽 now playing: Perfect Water by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• i feel normal for the first time in six days
• i'm a little scared
• i think i probably should redrew a couple oc sheets i have on the main page
• fuck
• you know every time i say that i'm nice or say that i'm pretty i really don't believe it
• i feel like... if you say you're nice, then you're not actually nice
• or if you say the good traits about you then they're not really all that there
• like when people say they're empaths
• i guess i am an empath but i don't talk about it all the time
• because it makes me feel pretentious
• i don't really like being empathetic though
• like how i don't really like being pretty
• but i also like being pretty, i know i'm pretty. that's a fact
• i don't feel all that pretentious saying that i'm pretty because i know i'm pretty
• i guess i'm pretty
• a little bit
• but i know i'm pretty cause people are nice to me

👽 now playing: Here To Go by DEVO 👽

• derealizing again
• i'm trying to stave it off with silly music
• it's crawling up behind me
• no i'm okay i'm fine
• i showered and now i'm going to try and draw something
• in a few minutes maybe i'll go drink some tea and brush my teeth
• i'll consider tofu