👽 now listening: Yum Yab by Jarboe 👽

• i had a bad day today

👽 now playing: Weakling by Swans 👽

• i love this record so much...
• also spring break is after this week
• i made nothing for wondercon but that's okay i'll advertise my commissions extra hard

👽 now playing: Night Boat To Cairo by Madness 👽

• this song's so silly i love it
• i like watching the funny guys dance around in front of a green screen
• NIGHT BOAT TO CAIROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

👽 now playing: I Got My Tooth Removed by 100 Gecs 👽

• i love this song it's so silly
• it sounds like something aimkid would animate something to
• also today i learned that the demon from all of dio's album covers is named murray...

👽 now playing: Thank You by Swans 👽

• sorry for the late update today was vv busy
• i sobbed looking at a photo of my gf

👽 now playing: Cool City by Danny Elfman 👽

• i went to get lozenges for my girlfriend because she lost her voice
• i'm immensely proud of her
• i wish i had more ideas for the con but i don't know what to do for it
• there's nothing that i've made that i'm proud enough of
• maybe postcards.

👽 now playing: Spider by Oingo Boingo 👽

• god i'm such a fuckup
• i can't do anything right
• i should just pull out of the con at this point
• no one buys my stuff anyway

👽 now playing: Run Away (The Escape Song) by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i'm so unbelievably stressed right now
• i have no fucking ideas for prints and the con is a week away
• i haven't done a damn thing
• maybe i'll do postcard-sized prints
• but all i know is that i don't want to sell my old prints anymore
• it disgusts me just looking at them
• why am i like this

👽 now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx 👽

• a guy outside the CVS said i was pretty

👽 now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• I FUCKING PREDICTED THIS SONG WOULD COME ON NEXT HELLO????
• anyways oh my god this fucking song is putting me in a chokehold
• bouncing around and giggling and snapping my teeth

👽 now playing: Killing For Company by Swans 👽

• i'm just fucking losing it right now holy shit i'm ....
• the great annihilator is such a wonderful album i imagine it being performed on a stage

👽 now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• happy saint patricks day i'm thinking too much
• esus

👽 now playing: Driven Like The Snow by The Sisters of Mercy 👽

• it wasn't st patricks day
• i need kilroy was here on CD

👽 now playing: Reptiles and Samurai by Oingo Boingo 👽

• this is the time of night where the voices start to
• oh god fuck oh fuck

👽 now playing: I'm Going To Do It by Giles Corey 👽

• self-explanatory
• sierra please deliver me from the evils in my mind

👽 now playing: Headless by Deftones 👽

• she had to leave early
• i'm worried i won't be able to finish in time
• i don't think i like woodworking class as much as i thought

👽 now playing: Inside Out by Duster 👽

• i want to go back to sleep
• my girlfriend did wonderfully last night and i loved it just like she said
• she's done so much and i'm so proud of her
• i don't know why i don't want to remember
• it'll take a while
• like the will wood concert

👽 now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo 👽

• god it hurts just to remember.
• what the fuck
• holy shit
• i need to go organize my records or something cause jesus christ...
• i think i have ocd

👽 now playing: On The Outside (1988) by Oingo Boingo 👽

👽 now playing: Deadline by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• HELLLOOOO
• guess what i found at the record stoer...
• TWO STYX 45s, ONE STYX CD
• AND
• CAUGHT IN THE ACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ON DVD
• i am very happy right now
• also,,,, i'm going to see my girlfriends show tonight
• she's going to do so well and i'm very proud of her
• i need to get ready now

👽 now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo 👽

• happy mario day
• my computer's being a piece of shit
• i should probably clean
• i wanted to go in today but then was like oh it's useless
• i should probably clean

👽 now playing: Skin by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i saw this girl on the bus and she was reading a book
• i haven’t read a book in ages
• anyways woodworking class is today
• i went in to the art studio yesterday cause i was itching to finish a piece that we started that day
• i feel at peace again right now

👽 now playing: When The Lights Go Out by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i’m on the bus right now
• i fucking astral projected last night
• something didn’t get put back right because my head hurts
• but only one side
• i also fell asleep in my clothes
• i think i went to another reality

👽 now playing: Is This by Oingo Boingo 👽

• good morning chat
• i have to be somewhere in about 3 and a half hours so i'm punching in
• hopefully my stomach stops hurting lol
• ope never mind there it is lol
• i binged last night like an idiot
• i was doing so well too…

👽 now playing: Money by Pink Floyd 👽

• i feel at peace right now
• the college is interviewing me for being gay lmao
• they’re probably gonna ask me about how the college is treating me and stuff
• wearing the böc symbol on my face

👽 now playing: Is This by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i get to be interviewed tomorrow
• i should sneak something in there
• i feel kind of sad
• like am i being too patronizing? i just want to ask my followers what they want to see...
• i wanna delete something i posted

👽 now playing: Out of Control by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i'm making a sakuya sticker now
• i'm hungry but i'm waiting till 8 to eat
• i love danny's voice
• it's so sweet, especially on dark at the end of the tunnel

👽 now playing: Why'd We Come by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i've done nothing all day
• i'm so fucking understimulated
• i think i'm going to make a few more batches of stickers

👽 now playing: Let The Right One Slip In by Morrissey 👽

• i feel so fucking empty
• maybe a red bull will help or something
• some form of caffeine
• cause i'm so unmotivated
• i haven't made stickers i need to have an even batch

👽 now playing: Monsters by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• just putting in my two cents for the day
• i think i'm going to finish this batch of stickers then go have drinks
• i wonder if i can make packs/bundles cause i'll probably have multiple renditions of one character
• they'll be upon request

👽 now playing: Chi by Korn 👽

• i feel like i'm forcing myself to do things
• my dad refuses to give me adderall,, when it's evident that'll work
• i'm tired

👽 now playing: Giant Steps by John Coltrane 👽

• freeform jazz stops the voices
• i'm sitting on my floor i made an entire pack of 35 stickers
• i hope people get the reference

👽 now playing: Toxicity by System of a Down 👽

• making a quick entry before i go to school
• i haven't used my planner in a long time

👽 now playing: Chop Suey! by System of a Down 👽

• i'm in a jackbox game with my friends right now
• my hands are cold
• oh my god
• i'm going fucking insane
• i hope they don't think i'm annoying

👽 now playing: Around The Fur by Deftones 👽

• need to diet

👽 now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• THIS FUCKING SONG
• THIS SONG
• OH MY GOD
• I'M RUNNING AROUND AND SCREAMING AND YELLING
• AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I NEED TO
• OHUA AUHAUA UAHUAHAUAH

👽 now playing: Spider by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i feel like i'm withering away
• i don't feel like i exist
• i don't know who i am anymore
• i live to go to school

👽 now playing: Right to Know by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i finally have ideas to draw for wondercon
• my friend from woodworking class says she's going,, i wonder if i'll see her
• anyways lol
• i have some cinnamon covered apples
• i forgot what i was gonna say

👽 now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo 👽

• you know i just feel a little bit peaceful right now
• this feeling probably won't last long
• i was just sitting in bed listening to music through my laptop
• and i was just... kind of existing again
• i'm not derealizing right now
• maybe a little bit, or maybe i'm just tired
• i was just drawing
• and laying in bed
• this song makes me feel at peace and i like that
• the guy that sings this song knows i exist

👽 now playing: Go Away by Danny Elfman 👽

• i wonder how long it’s going to take to get my life back together

👽 now playing: Help Me by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i'm drunk again
• thinking about marvin the martian
• i'd show him all the nicest things i could,
• i'd show him the mountain even though i couldn't begin to understand what he talks about
• he'd point in between stars and i think that's wonderful

👽 now playing: All My Friends by LCD Soundsystem 👽

• i'm drunk
• i have a massive crush on the landlord from oh! super milk chan
• oif my friend finds out he's going to lose it
• i think i already told him

👽 now playing: B.Y.O.B. by System of a Down 👽

• listening to this thinking about my old friend
• i haven't seen them since august
• and i'm worried
• i make my coffee the same way that they do
• i miss them

👽 now playing: Strawberry Fields Forever by The Beatles 👽

• i am most definitely derealizing again
• surprisingly i'm kind of fine with it
• a part of me kind of likes it
• i'm just kind of floating right now
• i don't mind
• i feel peaceful

👽 now playing: I Can Change by LCD Soundsystem 👽

• APPARENTLY I'M SEEIG LCS SOUNDSYSTEM IN JUNE I'M VV HAPPY
• my friends and i are gonna watch cocaine bear tonight
• i'm wondering if we should go to panera
• but with my last experience with the manager i don't know if i want to
• but i think i'm going to do it anyway so i can show him who's boss
• i'm not scared of him

👽 now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• yesterday was great today wasn't all that great
• last night i watched oh! super milk chan with a friend and that was really fun though
• if moleskine made a journal that was 400 pages but could fit in my pocket that woulc be so cool legit

👽 now playing: Secret Road by Blue Öyster Cult 👽

• owough i thikn i'm derealizing again.
• either that or i'm tired

👽 now playing: Haven’t We Been Here Before by Styx 👽

• today is the 40th anniversary of kilroy was here!!!!!!!!
• i’m very happy right now
• i think i’ll post today
• i can’t believe i rewrote this entire album from scratch
• ohhhhhhhh……… my god dude
• very happy
• happier than i’ve been in a vvvvv long time

👽 now playing: Don't Let It End by Styx 👽

• I HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY
• i got a new journal that i knew would last a long time!!!
• 400 pages and i got it the day of the 40th anniversary of kilroy was here!!!!!!!
• i'm very happy right now
• i also got a memoryholder rock

👽 now playing: Cold War by Styx 👽

• the anniversary of kilroy was here is tomorrow
• i feel like i should do something special but i don't know what to do
• this song is so based though
• i hope i can do something, i need to remember not to feel bad if i can't
• maybe i'll make bracelets...
• my friend LOVES this song and i think he drew jonathan today i love that drawing so much

👽 now playing: Black Blade by Blue Oyster Cult 👽

• considering going out
• maybe not.......
• but it'd be funny lol
• i havent eaten today but i wanna but i also don't want to

👽 now playing: Rainbow in the Dark by Dio 👽

• at my dads work again
• i feel like working at the record store downtown
• that would be interesting
• the owner seems nice
• if not that then the store next door
• the guy that works there worked with daft punk that’s fucking insane
• idk what to draw…

👽 now playing: Pedestrian Wolves by Oingo Boingo 👽

👽 now playing: Thank You by Swans 👽

• damn i really just feel alone
• i wonder if anyone's on

👽 now playing: Weakling by Swans 👽

• it feels like i always need attention
• i'm such a toxic person
• god why was i born female
• you know what i'm just going to accept that i'm a horrible person
• and i'm just going to go on with my life and play my cds
• i am terrible and that's okay
• not ok for anyone else though
• i just WANT PEOPLE TO FUCKING CARE ABOUT THE SHIT I SAY

👽 now listening: Lost Like This by Oingo Boingo 👽

• guess who dropped out of its graphic design class
• i feel like a failure
• but i guess i have more time now

👽 now playing: Stay Here by Swans 👽

• GUESS WHO WENT TO THE RECORD STORE
• my friend and i were there and we found FILTH BY SWANS!
• i'm so fucking happy right now
• it was on my wishlist
• it also comes with a poster that i'm going to be hanging up as soon as i finish writing this
• i fucking love swans,,,

👽 now playing: Even Flow by Pearl Jam 👽

• i feel strangely at peace
• waiting for my pc to boot up so i can pla...

👽 now playing: Spectral Bride by Giles Corey 👽

• lol, i'm a failure and also a drunk probably
• that's okay
• you know why?
• because i feel better when i'm out of my body
• i feel better when i'm dizzy and don't care about anything ever
• i feel alright right now and i like that
• i deserve this every once in a while.

👽 now playing: Just Another Day by Oingo Boingo 👽

• damn last night was ass
• i need to check to see if my prof responded
• i'm fucking done with this class lmfaooooo

👽 now playing: Cold War by Styx 👽

• uuughaaaa i'm in the middle of a cafe
• a part of me is worrying that the hyperfixation is going to die out for this album
• i'm still writing it but i can feel it slipping away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• anyways i hate my graphic design professor
• i have two things due on saturday and one thing due tomorrow, none of them i've even started
• death has set its eyes upon me and is advancing

👽 now playing: Jeremy by Pearl Jam 👽

• i look so cool and independent when i'm out but as soon as i go home i sit on my floor and just stare at the wall and maybe eat a sandwich
• i just wish things were a little better

👽 now playing: We Rock by Dio 👽

• sorry the title makes me giggle a little idk why
• just listening to this guy on shuffle right now
• he's fucking cool
• the album covers look like shit i wanna draw
• but i can't!!!!!
• but that'gs okay
• i can still draw relatively okay
• yesterday wasn't all that good but because it wasn't that good today will be great
• i'm in the cafe right now but i should probably go back class starts in 15 minutes
• one day i'll get over my fear of drawing in public

👽 now playing: Gratitude by Danny Elfman 👽

• am i really considering dropping out of graphic design or am i just going through pmdd

👽 now playing: Long Live Rock 'N' Roll by Dio 👽

• i'm kind of upset because my hair got wet and i felt nice about it for once
• hair dries eventually though
• i'm listening to dio right now obv
• i mean i own a shirt i kind of have to listen to the music
• i'm considering alphabetizing the CDs my dad got me when i get home today
• i have a lot to do and it's only tuesday
• (afraid of disappointing people)

👽 now playing: Paranoid by Black Sabbath 👽

• apparently i never resubmitted the graphic. i swear i did
• my fucking professor sent me three messages about it and i want to fucking cry
• i'm listening to metal to distract myself

👽 now playing: Nothing To Fear (But Fear Itself) by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i'm in a cafe talking to my friend
• i kind of feel like a failure
• honestly i wish that things were different
• i can't drop out of any more classes..... i am NOT a failure

👽 now playing: The Last Time by Danny Elfman 👽

• i'm back in the cafe
• i managed to talk to an employee and we talked about having bangs
• my graphic design professor says he can tell i'm "taking the class seriously" but like.
• i mean of course i am but i'm also very afraid of HIM and even more afraid of letting him down
• my life is on the line. i have adhd.

👽 now playing: Choose Your Side by Danny Elfman 👽

• today i did nothing but sit in my room and drink
• i feel a little bit like a failure
• i haven't had the motivation to clean my room or do anything like that
• my sketchbook is gone

👽 now playing: The Last Time by Danny Elfman 👽

• today was really fun
• i went to go get records with my friends
• he got godspeed and weezer and i got dio and rob zombie
• now i'm working on my graphic design assignment

👽 now playing: The Fear by Death Grips 👽

• i'm in a vc rn
• i'm going to go insane
• this progress report is killing me
• it's due in 2 hours

👽 now playing: Heard Somebody Cry by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i finished the progrep
• now i have the exercise to worry about
• god i'm afraid i'm doing it wrong
• i could just go "The Many Ranges of Warmth" and call it a day
• it's more or less a good design aftr all
• i wanna eat i just have to take my mind off it
• i'm scared i'm gonna binge tomorrow

👽 now playing: Out in the Twilight by Tally Hall 👽

• i met someone new today
• they like most of the things i like
• fighting demons rn i CANNOT talk about styx yet
• i really need a haircut

👽 now playing: Da Funk by Daft Punk 👽

• i got some good photos for my next graphic so im like really excited
• i'm gonna send it to him and see what he thinks
• i still need to do that progress report :(

👽 now playing: Get Over It by Danny Elfman 👽

• i need to fucking do this progress report but executive dysfunction loves to get in the way
• i feel like a failure sometimes lmao

👽 now playing: Ring A Bell by Death Grips 👽

• i have a meeting with my graphic design teacher today
• i still need to figure out what i should talk about with him
• i may or may not have fucked up
• they gave me the complete opposite of my order today
  • i asked for water, they gave me lemonade
  • i asked for no toppings, they put strawberries on top
• i'm not mad though i don't even want them to redo it
• sometimes this happens you know
• and it's not like i'm deathly allergic to anything in the drink so there really is no reason to redo it
• it tastes perfectly fine
• but anyways i probably am going to try and get a head start on the project or some...

👽 now playing: Me and the Birds by Duster 👽

• i think i'm getting into another funk
• but then again it's the beginning of the month
• this is going to be really fun
• my head hurts and i can't sleep
• i just wonder if like. things will get better

👽 now playing: Nothing To Fear (But Fear Itself) by Oingo Boingo 👽

• oh my god i’m so exhausted and it’s not even the second week
• i need to schedule an appointment for my graphic design class so i can meet with my professor
• a part of me thinks that he thinks i’m cis and i don’t want to ruin that but at the same time like. he’s a graphic design teacher. he can tell i’m not cis by my handwriting

👽 now playing: On The Outside by Oingo Boingo 👽

• damn coffee actually works on me
• i'm just kind of sitting here in my room i feel kind of meh right now
• casually doodling and stuff
• i wish that i wasn't human
• it would be so cool if i was a little green alien and i go around in space and do silly things

👽 now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx 👽

• this might be the week that i write actual dialogue for this album remake
• the ideas are just like surging through me right now
• lightning shoots from my fingertips
• like it was the dialogue after Mr. Roboto that really opened my eyes
• i could tack that on, change some things and that would essentially be one part of...

👽 now playing: Halloween by Japan 👽

• my gf was successfully spooked
• i'm thinking about the desert moon album cover
• it's so hypnotizing it's like dennis deyoung wants to pull me in and take me on an adventure
• i'm not ok
• anyways oh my god that cover is so fucking BEAUTIFUL it's so simple and i'm so in love with it
• i've spent hours staring at it

👽 now playing: Lose Yourself To Dance by Daft Punk 👽

• i love dennis deyoung
• if he did pull me into the album cover and take me on an adventure i would be ok with it
• it seems so nice in there in that little album world

👽 now playing: & by Tally Hall 👽

• it's been a while since i've listened to them
• too many bad memories involved with them unfortunately
• i'm trying to get over it because i love them and i love their music
• they've inspired me so much and tuning in is how i show my gratitude
• anyways i've been working on this graphics assignment all night
• i've put in my twelve hours and then some for this week imo
• i just hope i'm doing this right this is sucking the life out of me
• my friend and gf are coming over tonight to watch skinamarink again
• i think i mentioned that yesterday
• but i think we aren't going to be as scared because we know what's gonna happen
• my gf on the other hand hasn't seen it

👽 now playing: Islands by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i woke up at 4 i didn't want to wake up at 4
• i don't think there was a work day today since it literally was like the first week in contemporary crafts
• my friends are coming over tomorrow night to watch skinamarink again
• i'm so excited we're going to turn off all the lights in the house
• it's gonna be so fun
• i need to update my graphic and i realized thta it's not going to be all that difficult to modify
• i'm a little bit happy about that too
• i can't be too happy or else i'm going to be extra sad later
• pleasure and pain

👽 now playing: Elevator Man by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i learned that danny elfman listens to death grips yesterday
• he posted about going to a record store
• the money store was one of the records he bought
• it seems like his favorite is punk weight
• i mean why wouldn't it be it's just 99% bass
• LMFAO IMAGINE I CATCH HIM AT THE DEATH GRIPS CONCERT
• I TURN AROUND AND HES JUST THERE WHAT THE FUCCK
• he woudnt do that
• i'm trying really hard to figure out the graphic design class right now
• i fell asleep for 5 hours so that was 5 hours wasted
• i have a feeling that i'm not gonna be sl...

👽 now playing: Clowns of Death by Oingo Boingo 👽

• wake up wake up
• its the first of the month
• okay so it's 3 am right now
• surprisingly i'm not kilroyposting right now
• my stomach hurts though like i said it would
• remember when i said i wasn't going to get a coffee? guess what i did
• i'm trying to figure out a set schedule so that i can do this fucking graphics assignment
• i got a notebook cause it reminded me of iggy pop

👽 now playing: Blah Blah Blah by Iggy Pop 👽

• rise and grind gamers i didn't sleep and my phone did not charge when i was in the shower

👽 now playing: Lightning by Danny Elfman 👽

• i've been anxious and paranoid for about 4 days
• this sucks
• maybe i need to cut back on the coffee
• watch me get another coffee in the morning

👽 now playing: Just A Human by Danny Elfman 👽

• i need to drag myself out of bed and charge my headphones lol
• class starts at 1:45 today and i need to get on the bus really ficking soon
• have to fight the urge to get a drink
• may god have mercy on me

👽 now playing: Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others by The Smiths 👽

• i made it to the area on time
• can’t wait till my stomach starts to hu...

👽 now playing: Go Away by Danny Elfman 👽

• it's 4 am
• i was just randomly struck with inspiration and i cant go back to sleep
• i have to wake up in 2 hours this fucking sucks
• anyways i think that jonathan could have used something similar to a 2-way manual data transfer box to hijack the MMM broadcasting system
• i have one of those my family found it in the garage so i opened it up and i can confirm there possibly could be a way to alter it if you really tried
• i wanna sleep so fucking bad man 😭
• the grind never stops
• i'm COOKING

👽 now playing: Say Hey Kid by Death Grips 👽

• first class went well
• the prof talked for like an hour and ever...

👽 now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx 👽

• i'm still trying to design the fucking. uh the characters
• the major players
• also it's almost 6 am over here
• this is the last motning i can be hungover
• college starts on monday i have to wake up at 6 am and go onto th e bus

👽 now playing: Around The Fur by Deftones 👽

• college is tomorrow morning and suddenly i get the motivation to do all the things i've wanted to do this entire fucking month
• i hate having adhd
• i'm making stickers right now uuuuuuuughhhhhhhh

👽 now playing: Hey! by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i'm finally getting to revising that story and i'm doing a hell of a good job
• i went to the lunar new year festival in town
• sorry for the short update i'm so tired i got my shot today

👽 now playing: Snowblind by Styx 👽

• i just woke up
• the lunar new year festival is in town
• i think i'm going to go today with my girlfriend
• i love her
• i wrote an entire story for kilroy was here and i completely forgot it
• god damnit this always happens
• i think i need to try and get an ocd diagnosis
• i feel like really empty right now i'm just sitting here
• post-live depression is real and it's affecting me really bad right now
• i think that i should write in my planner more
• college starts in three days
• i'm really nervous

👽 now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx 👽

👽 now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx 👽

• sorry for the late update i was in la the whole day yesterday so that's essentially what i did
• i also signed an nda so i can't talk about what i did tee hee it's a secret

👽 now playing: Hey by Oingo Boingo 👽

• a lot happened today
• i went to a new record store and there was more there than the other one i went to
• the other one i went to is kind of ass anyway soooooo sorryyyyy
• i got:
  • remain in light by talking heads
  • fear of music by talking heads
  • power, corruption, and lies by new order
  • unknown pleasures by joy division (which imo is ESSENTIAL)
  • equinox by styx
  • back to the world and desert moon by dennis deyoung
• so overall it was a good day
• i went to chili’s after and i ate too much my stummy hurt now (>_<)
• i can’t wait to add these records to my...

👽 now playing: Glory Be by Oingo Boingo 👽

• im at costco rn…
• my head kind of hurts
• im worried i pissed off the record store employee cause he seemed dry when i talked to him
• i have this annoying valley girl voice when i get excited so maybe he didn’t like listening to that
• i feel a little bad

👽 now playing: Up My Sleeves by Death Grips 👽

• college is starting next monday
• i woke up late again
• i went to the cafe as well and had a quick chat with my girlfriend
• i wonder if something bad's gonna happen to me if i stop making these posts...

👽 now playing: Good For Your Soul by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i remade this song on that thirtydollar.website soundfont page
• i don't kknow why i just was bored
• i have too much time on my hands
• wrong song
• i wonder if i should link the stuff i listen to

👽 now playing: Fresh by DEVO 👽

• this song makes me think about when i wen...

👽 now playing: Alberto Basalm by Aphex Twin 👽

• it's almost 5 over here
• i hope that i don't fall asleep till 3 again i have a lot to do
• maybe i'll turn on the aphex twin ambience album and sleep till 11
• i say i have a lot to do all the time and nothing ever gets done
• maybe i just don't know where to start. i need to drink water i'm hungry
• school starts up again next monday
• i'm finally excited to actually be doing something and not rotting away like i have been the past month and a half
• good fucking lord
• i have 2 art classes and one graphic design class
• yahoo

👽 now playing: Private Life by Oingo Boingo 👽

👽 now playing: Losing My Edge by LCD Soundsystem 👽

• today feels kind of gross
• i think i'll grab a coffee or something
• i had some italian wedding soup it actually tasted good
• i need to clean on top of my dresser and find a good place to put my records so they're not gonna get fucked up
• i got three new records i mentioned that two days ago
• the record store i got them from is hiring so maybe i can work at the record store like james murphy said he did
• i've never been wrong
• i used to work at a record store
• had everything
• before anyone

👽 now playing: Pain by Oingo Boingo 👽

• the anxiety is kind of dying down a little which is good
• maybe tonight i'll be able to sleep with the lights off for the first time in days
• i got a new physical journal to put the stuff i wouldn't publish in
• i gifted one to my gf as well
• there are some secrets of mine that i will never share
• i went to starbucks before though
• it was nice my gf and i drew and talked
• i think i'm going to go draw now
• sorry for the small entry

👽 now playing: Mind/Body/Light/Sound by Swans 👽

• i was twitching from anxiety all night last night and i'm pissed cause i can't get any sleep
• i feel anxious again
• i don't know when my gf's getting out of rehearsal i should ask her lol
• yesterday she had to go to a church event

👽 now playing: Pedestrian Wolves by Oingo Boingo 👽

• i feel anxious but really
• i fucking hate the way my body feels right now
• maybe watching skinamarink wasn't the best idea like
• two severely mentally ill and paranoid best friends go watch a movie that plays on your severe mental illnesses and paranoi...

👽 now playing: Three Bedrooms in a Good Neighborhood by Death Grips 👽

• i’m back in my hometown again!!!!
• this fucking app crashed while i was making this entry so uuugh
• i’m out right now though i got starbucks and i’m walking around cause i didn’t get much exercise when i was at the cabin
• i finally get to catch up on all the stuff i said i would draw
• i forgot my charger at home so all i had was my sketchbook
• i had a bad breakdown but it’s okay now!!!
• i watched The Thing again and i also watched other movies like Downsizing
• downsizing was a weird ass movie and it had like this overall theme about capitalism and stuff and the environment
• basically it was about this thing people ...

👽 now playing: Breathe (In The Air) by Pink Floyd 👽

• i’ve been stuck in a cabin for days
• i’m going home tomorrow so that’s good
• uuuuuuuuuuu sorry the posts have been short

👽 now playing: Nookie by Limp Bizkit 👽

• i don’t think i left the cabin at all today
• no wonder why i’ve been feeling so sad today
• it’s blue monday
• honestly i just want to go home now but what would i do then?
• at this point i’m just waiting for college to start up again because i’ve had enough of the days blending together
• i did nothing i wanted to
• it’ll be fine
• i’ll be fine

👽 now playing: Superstition by Stevie Wonder 👽

• sorry it’s so late i watched the thing again
• in the mouth of madness is on again
• a lot of bad things happened today and yesterday and i hope it gets better

👽 now playing: Children of God by AJJ 👽

• i'm so fucking understimulated it's not funny anymore
• i wish that i could finish something for once in my life
• but what's the point if nothing's going to come from it? like nothing i do seems like it's ever going to take off
• idk. i'm trying to draw but it's not coming out right
• should i just force myself?

👽 now playing: Giving Bad People Good Ideas by Death Grips 👽

• just had like 2 breakdowns
• maybe today's not my day
• or maybe the bad luck from yesterday was just delayed
• idk
• i'm gonna go walking once the sun comes up

👽 now playing: Ain't This The Life by Oingo Boingo 👽

• hey ugys it's 2:30 pm
• i don't think i'm going anywhere today
• i feel so drained right now
• honestly i feel a little sad because i didn't do much over my break
• it's kind of funny bow quickly time can pass if you let it
• honestly i also feel kind of sick lol
• not like illness sick just "i wanna go back into bed and sleep kind of sick"
• i think i want to draw something today but i just haven't had the energy
• also i'm probably going to start on the other title card
• idk man i wish i was a little healthier but i don't know where to start

👽 now playing: True by Danny Elfman 👽

• i'm at starbucks again uee hee

👽 now playing: Better Times by Danny Elfman 👽

• it's thursday
• my gf came over and i showed her my old computer
• sorry for the short update i'm on a call with my friend watching him play tboi
• bye till tomrorrrrow

👽 now playing: The Powers that B by Death Grips 👽

• i'm at my dad's work again and yippee i actually have my surface open rn!!!!
• i think i'm going to try and write some scenes for SOR and maybe sketch out what the final title card for Rodney's going to look like
• i need to update the thumbnail for ulthar's oc sheet on the other list tee eeeeeeee
• death grips is nice
• it's also freezing in this fucking break room but i think that i can't leave until my dad does
• i forgot that the last time that i was here the wifi couldn't penetrate the door and i had to wait till my dad got out of the lab
• so i guess i'm stuck here lmfao
• whatever lol i can still write i like the...

👽 now playing: Snowblind by Styx 👽

• good afternoon
• i woke up with a headache
• i think i'll make waffles or somethin g
• i love how tommy shaw sings it's really recognizable
• such a melodious voice
• i wanna meet him and dennis (even though he's not part of the band) and jy and the panozzo twins too
• maybe someday
• i'm growing out my hair cause i realized i can be a dude with long hair
• idk though because perople keep calling me ma'am and she at first glance and it suckssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
• anyways i think i'm going to go make some waffles

👽 now playing: Little Birds by Neutral Milk... 👽

👽 now playing: Shitshow by Death Grips 👽

• good afternoon everyone
• my thought of the day is that modern horror games seem to be too marketed towards children
• it sucks only having "family friendly" horror games
• i don't know if this is gonna get any better
• and as an artist things are getting more and more difficult because now all the media wants to see are these brightly colored, many-toothed things that have no fear factor at all other than the occasional cheesy jumpscare
• sorry for the rant
• i found my laminate and now i'm gonna draw some stuff to throw in the cricut
• it's been a while since i did any stuff with my cricut
• i haven't drawn anything yet
• i can't sort things by importance!!! i do...

👽 now playing: Snowblind by Styx 👽

• wondercon's coming up
• i wonder what i'll do for it
• i have a lot of work to do before march
• i paused my music and rn i'm watching a walkthrough of I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream
• it's a cool game i love harlan ellison's voice in this game
• idk what i wanna draw
• i'll check back in when i finally find something to do
• maybe i'll make stickers

👽 now playing: Loose Cannon by Puzzle 👽

• i couldn't find the laminate i was looking for but i did find some nice green nail polish
• i'm gonna kind of fix myself tonight, shower, paint my nails black and green like an alien

👽 now playing: Haven't We Been Here Before by Styx 👽

• i can't sleep, pms hit HARD while i was with my gf and it sucked
• i didn't even order anything from starbucks
• we made up later though which makes me very happy
• anyways i think i'm going to long beach
• i think i get to meet a prop guy i've been thinking about for a while which is cool
• i hope i can still update lol
• i don't know what to wear ooooogh
• GOD i love styx jesus fuck
• also the computer has been brought inside so i am VERY very happy about that uee hee

👽 now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx 👽

• apparently it was an anime con. that's fi...

👽 now playing: Glory Be by Oingo Boingo 👽

• first time in a while that i haven't stayed up all night
• the other night i got myself lip balm for me and my gf
• i haven't called the doctor, nor have i cleared out a space
• i did however write a lot about my ocs, and i added lore for barnard
• m3gan came out today, but i doubt it's anything within my taste
• i don't think i'm gonna go out today, i don't want a repeat of what happened when we saw smile
• wondering if i actually got traumatized that night, not by the movie but by the manager of the restaurant nearby iykyk
• i hope that i'll actually be able to draw some more today, when i was out last night i forgot my sketchbook :(
• i went to the store and got some fruit an...

• i actually feel compelled to write something for once
• i'm working on a lorebuilding project with my friends online and it's been fun so far
• i have to draw a lot though LMAO i have to make an entire comic
• a part of me is telling me that this isn't really a priority right now
• let's just see how this turns out

update (12 PM, 1/5/2023)

• i did not write. i sat there and didn't do anything
• i'm so tired and i wish i was home right now
• also i just had an espresso shot and i'm terrified it's gonna do something to my stomach.
• i mean i have water but still
• this place got me drinkin potions 💀

• i've been trying to fix my schedule for three days, maybe the way i'm doing it isn't very healthy
• i've pulled like three all nighters trying to make sure i'm mad exhausted by the end of the day
• i have to wake up early tomorrow anyway i think i'll try it just one more time
• i'll try to update this every day or as much as i can, just like my friend does
• i don't know how this thing works so i don't know if i inherently have to make things on here bullet points
• a part of me says yes, the word "list" is in the name, and i don't know if this site counts as a blog
• whatever i'll figure it out as i go along