πŸ‘½ now listening: Yum Yab by Jarboe πŸ‘½

  • i had a bad day today
mar 23 2023 ∞
mar 23 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Weakling by Swans πŸ‘½

  • i love this record so much...
  • also spring break is after this week
  • i made nothing for wondercon but that's okay i'll advertise my commissions extra hard

πŸ‘½ now playing: Night Boat To Cairo by Madness πŸ‘½

  • this song's so silly i love it
  • i like watching the funny guys dance around in front of a green screen
  • NIGHT BOAT TO CAIROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

πŸ‘½ now playing: I Got My Tooth Removed by 100 Gecs πŸ‘½

  • i love this song it's so silly
  • it sounds like something aimkid would animate something to
  • also today i learned that the demon from all of dio's album covers is named murray...
mar 21 2023 ∞
mar 22 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Thank You by Swans πŸ‘½

  • sorry for the late update today was vv busy
  • i sobbed looking at a photo of my gf
mar 21 2023 ∞
mar 21 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Cool City by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • i went to get lozenges for my girlfriend because she lost her voice
  • i'm immensely proud of her
  • i wish i had more ideas for the con but i don't know what to do for it
  • there's nothing that i've made that i'm proud enough of
  • maybe postcards.
mar 20 2023 ∞
mar 20 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Spider by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • god i'm such a fuckup
  • i can't do anything right
  • i should just pull out of the con at this point
  • no one buys my stuff anyway
mar 18 2023 ∞
mar 18 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Run Away (The Escape Song) by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i'm so unbelievably stressed right now
  • i have no fucking ideas for prints and the con is a week away
  • i haven't done a damn thing
  • maybe i'll do postcard-sized prints
  • but all i know is that i don't want to sell my old prints anymore
  • it disgusts me just looking at them
  • why am i like this
mar 18 2023 ∞
mar 18 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx πŸ‘½

  • a guy outside the CVS said i was pretty
mar 17 2023 ∞
mar 17 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γ–yster Cult πŸ‘½

  • I FUCKING PREDICTED THIS SONG WOULD COME ON NEXT HELLO????
  • anyways oh my god this fucking song is putting me in a chokehold
  • bouncing around and giggling and snapping my teeth

πŸ‘½ now playing: Killing For Company by Swans πŸ‘½

  • i'm just fucking losing it right now holy shit i'm ....
  • the great annihilator is such a wonderful album i imagine it being performed on a stage
mar 15 2023 ∞
mar 15 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γ–yster Cult πŸ‘½

  • happy saint patricks day i'm thinking too much
  • esus

πŸ‘½ now playing: Driven Like The Snow by The Sisters of Mercy πŸ‘½

  • it wasn't st patricks day
  • i need kilroy was here on CD
mar 14 2023 ∞
mar 15 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Reptiles and Samurai by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • this is the time of night where the voices start to
  • oh god fuck oh fuck

πŸ‘½ now playing: I'm Going To Do It by Giles Corey πŸ‘½

  • self-explanatory
  • sierra please deliver me from the evils in my mind

πŸ‘½ now playing: Headless by Deftones πŸ‘½

  • she had to leave early
  • i'm worried i won't be able to finish in time
  • i don't think i like woodworking class as much as i thought
mar 13 2023 ∞
mar 14 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Inside Out by Duster πŸ‘½

  • i want to go back to sleep
  • my girlfriend did wonderfully last night and i loved it just like she said
  • she's done so much and i'm so proud of her
  • i don't know why i don't want to remember
  • it'll take a while
  • like the will wood concert

πŸ‘½ now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • god it hurts just to remember.
  • what the fuck
  • holy shit
  • i need to go organize my records or something cause jesus christ...
  • i think i have ocd

πŸ‘½ now playing: On The Outside (1988) by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

mar 12 2023 ∞
mar 13 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Deadline by Blue Γ–yster Cult πŸ‘½

  • HELLLOOOO
  • guess what i found at the record stoer...
  • TWO STYX 45s, ONE STYX CD
  • AND
  • CAUGHT IN THE ACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ON DVD
  • i am very happy right now
  • also,,,, i'm going to see my girlfriends show tonight
  • she's going to do so well and i'm very proud of her
  • i need to get ready now
mar 12 2023 ∞
mar 12 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • happy mario day
  • my computer's being a piece of shit
  • i should probably clean
  • i wanted to go in today but then was like oh it's useless
  • i should probably clean
mar 10 2023 ∞
mar 10 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Skin by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i saw this girl on the bus and she was reading a book
  • i haven’t read a book in ages
  • anyways woodworking class is today
  • i went in to the art studio yesterday cause i was itching to finish a piece that we started that day
  • i feel at peace again right now
mar 9 2023 ∞
mar 9 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: When The Lights Go Out by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i’m on the bus right now
  • i fucking astral projected last night
  • something didn’t get put back right because my head hurts
  • but only one side
  • i also fell asleep in my clothes
  • i think i went to another reality
mar 8 2023 ∞
mar 9 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Is This by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • good morning chat
  • i have to be somewhere in about 3 and a half hours so i'm punching in
  • hopefully my stomach stops hurting lol
  • ope never mind there it is lol
  • i binged last night like an idiot
  • i was doing so well too…

πŸ‘½ now playing: Money by Pink Floyd πŸ‘½

  • i feel at peace right now
  • the college is interviewing me for being gay lmao
  • they’re probably gonna ask me about how the college is treating me and stuff
  • wearing the bΓΆc symbol on my face
mar 7 2023 ∞
mar 8 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Is This by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i get to be interviewed tomorrow
  • i should sneak something in there
  • i feel kind of sad
  • like am i being too patronizing? i just want to ask my followers what they want to see...
  • i wanna delete something i posted

πŸ‘½ now playing: Out of Control by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i'm making a sakuya sticker now
  • i'm hungry but i'm waiting till 8 to eat
  • i love danny's voice
  • it's so sweet, especially on dark at the end of the tunnel
mar 6 2023 ∞
mar 7 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Why'd We Come by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i've done nothing all day
  • i'm so fucking understimulated
  • i think i'm going to make a few more batches of stickers

πŸ‘½ now playing: Let The Right One Slip In by Morrissey πŸ‘½

  • i feel so fucking empty
  • maybe a red bull will help or something
  • some form of caffeine
  • cause i'm so unmotivated
  • i haven't made stickers i need to have an even batch
mar 6 2023 ∞
mar 6 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Monsters by Blue Γ–yster Cult πŸ‘½

  • just putting in my two cents for the day
  • i think i'm going to finish this batch of stickers then go have drinks
  • i wonder if i can make packs/bundles cause i'll probably have multiple renditions of one character
  • they'll be upon request
mar 5 2023 ∞
mar 5 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Chi by Korn πŸ‘½

  • i feel like i'm forcing myself to do things
  • my dad refuses to give me adderall,, when it's evident that'll work
  • i'm tired

πŸ‘½ now playing: Giant Steps by John Coltrane πŸ‘½

  • freeform jazz stops the voices
  • i'm sitting on my floor i made an entire pack of 35 stickers
  • i hope people get the reference
mar 3 2023 ∞
mar 4 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Toxicity by System of a Down πŸ‘½

  • making a quick entry before i go to school
  • i haven't used my planner in a long time

πŸ‘½ now playing: Chop Suey! by System of a Down πŸ‘½

  • i'm in a jackbox game with my friends right now
  • my hands are cold
  • oh my god
  • i'm going fucking insane
  • i hope they don't think i'm annoying
mar 2 2023 ∞
mar 3 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Around The Fur by Deftones πŸ‘½

  • need to diet

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γ–yster Cult πŸ‘½

  • THIS FUCKING SONG
  • THIS SONG
  • OH MY GOD
  • I'M RUNNING AROUND AND SCREAMING AND YELLING
  • AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I NEED TO
  • OHUA AUHAUA UAHUAHAUAH
mar 1 2023 ∞
mar 2 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Spider by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i feel like i'm withering away
  • i don't feel like i exist
  • i don't know who i am anymore
  • i live to go to school

πŸ‘½ now playing: Right to Know by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i finally have ideas to draw for wondercon
  • my friend from woodworking class says she's going,, i wonder if i'll see her
  • anyways lol
  • i have some cinnamon covered apples
  • i forgot what i was gonna say
feb 28 2023 ∞
mar 1 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • you know i just feel a little bit peaceful right now
  • this feeling probably won't last long
  • i was just sitting in bed listening to music through my laptop
  • and i was just... kind of existing again
  • i'm not derealizing right now
  • maybe a little bit, or maybe i'm just tired
  • i was just drawing
  • and laying in bed
  • this song makes me feel at peace and i like that
  • the guy that sings this song knows i exist

πŸ‘½ now playing: Go Away by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • i wonder how long it’s going to take to get my life back together
feb 27 2023 ∞
feb 28 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Help Me by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i'm drunk again
  • thinking about marvin the martian
  • i'd show him all the nicest things i could,
  • i'd show him the mountain even though i couldn't begin to understand what he talks about
  • he'd point in between stars and i think that's wonderful
feb 26 2023 ∞
feb 26 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: All My Friends by LCD Soundsystem πŸ‘½

  • i'm drunk
  • i have a massive crush on the landlord from oh! super milk chan
  • oif my friend finds out he's going to lose it
  • i think i already told him

πŸ‘½ now playing: B.Y.O.B. by System of a Down πŸ‘½

  • listening to this thinking about my old friend
  • i haven't seen them since august
  • and i'm worried
  • i make my coffee the same way that they do
  • i miss them
feb 25 2023 ∞
feb 25 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Strawberry Fields Forever by The Beatles πŸ‘½

  • i am most definitely derealizing again
  • surprisingly i'm kind of fine with it
  • a part of me kind of likes it
  • i'm just kind of floating right now
  • i don't mind
  • i feel peaceful

πŸ‘½ now playing: I Can Change by LCD Soundsystem πŸ‘½

  • APPARENTLY I'M SEEIG LCS SOUNDSYSTEM IN JUNE I'M VV HAPPY
  • my friends and i are gonna watch cocaine bear tonight
  • i'm wondering if we should go to panera
  • but with my last experience with the manager i don't know if i want to
  • but i think i'm going to do it anyway so i can show him who's boss
  • i'm not scared of him
feb 24 2023 ∞
feb 25 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γ–yster Cult πŸ‘½

  • yesterday was great today wasn't all that great
  • last night i watched oh! super milk chan with a friend and that was really fun though
  • if moleskine made a journal that was 400 pages but could fit in my pocket that woulc be so cool legit

πŸ‘½ now playing: Secret Road by Blue Γ–yster Cult πŸ‘½

  • owough i thikn i'm derealizing again.
  • either that or i'm tired
feb 24 2023 ∞
feb 24 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Haven’t We Been Here Before by Styx πŸ‘½

  • today is the 40th anniversary of kilroy was here!!!!!!!!
  • i’m very happy right now
  • i think i’ll post today
  • i can’t believe i rewrote this entire album from scratch
  • ohhhhhhhh……… my god dude
  • very happy
  • happier than i’ve been in a vvvvv long time

πŸ‘½ now playing: Don't Let It End by Styx πŸ‘½

  • I HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY
  • i got a new journal that i knew would last a long time!!!
  • 400 pages and i got it the day of the 40th anniversary of kilroy was here!!!!!!!
  • i'm very happy right now
  • i also got a memoryholder rock
feb 22 2023 ∞
feb 23 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Cold War by Styx πŸ‘½

  • the anniversary of kilroy was here is tomorrow
  • i feel like i should do something special but i don't know what to do
  • this song is so based though
  • i hope i can do something, i need to remember not to feel bad if i can't
  • maybe i'll make bracelets...
  • my friend LOVES this song and i think he drew jonathan today i love that drawing so much
feb 22 2023 ∞
feb 22 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Black Blade by Blue Oyster Cult πŸ‘½

  • considering going out
  • maybe not.......
  • but it'd be funny lol
  • i havent eaten today but i wanna but i also don't want to

πŸ‘½ now playing: Rainbow in the Dark by Dio πŸ‘½

  • at my dads work again
  • i feel like working at the record store downtown
  • that would be interesting
  • the owner seems nice
  • if not that then the store next door
  • the guy that works there worked with daft punk that’s fucking insane
  • idk what to draw…

πŸ‘½ now playing: Pedestrian Wolves by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

feb 20 2023 ∞
feb 21 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Thank You by Swans πŸ‘½

  • damn i really just feel alone
  • i wonder if anyone's on

πŸ‘½ now playing: Weakling by Swans πŸ‘½

  • it feels like i always need attention
  • i'm such a toxic person
  • god why was i born female
  • you know what i'm just going to accept that i'm a horrible person
  • and i'm just going to go on with my life and play my cds
  • i am terrible and that's okay
  • not ok for anyone else though
  • i just WANT PEOPLE TO FUCKING CARE ABOUT THE SHIT I SAY
feb 19 2023 ∞
feb 19 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now listening: Lost Like This by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • guess who dropped out of its graphic design class
  • i feel like a failure
  • but i guess i have more time now

πŸ‘½ now playing: Stay Here by Swans πŸ‘½

  • GUESS WHO WENT TO THE RECORD STORE
  • my friend and i were there and we found FILTH BY SWANS!
  • i'm so fucking happy right now
  • it was on my wishlist
  • it also comes with a poster that i'm going to be hanging up as soon as i finish writing this
  • i fucking love swans,,,

πŸ‘½ now playing: Even Flow by Pearl Jam πŸ‘½

  • i feel strangely at peace
  • waiting for my pc to boot up so i can pla...
feb 18 2023 ∞
feb 19 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Spectral Bride by Giles Corey πŸ‘½

  • lol, i'm a failure and also a drunk probably
  • that's okay
  • you know why?
  • because i feel better when i'm out of my body
  • i feel better when i'm dizzy and don't care about anything ever
  • i feel alright right now and i like that
  • i deserve this every once in a while.

πŸ‘½ now playing: Just Another Day by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • damn last night was ass
  • i need to check to see if my prof responded
  • i'm fucking done with this class lmfaooooo
feb 17 2023 ∞
feb 17 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Cold War by Styx πŸ‘½

  • uuughaaaa i'm in the middle of a cafe
  • a part of me is worrying that the hyperfixation is going to die out for this album
  • i'm still writing it but i can feel it slipping away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • anyways i hate my graphic design professor
  • i have two things due on saturday and one thing due tomorrow, none of them i've even started
  • death has set its eyes upon me and is advancing

πŸ‘½ now playing: Jeremy by Pearl Jam πŸ‘½

  • i look so cool and independent when i'm out but as soon as i go home i sit on my floor and just stare at the wall and maybe eat a sandwich
  • i just wish things were a little better
feb 16 2023 ∞
feb 17 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: We Rock by Dio πŸ‘½

  • sorry the title makes me giggle a little idk why
  • just listening to this guy on shuffle right now
  • he's fucking cool
  • the album covers look like shit i wanna draw
  • but i can't!!!!!
  • but that'gs okay
  • i can still draw relatively okay
  • yesterday wasn't all that good but because it wasn't that good today will be great
  • i'm in the cafe right now but i should probably go back class starts in 15 minutes
  • one day i'll get over my fear of drawing in public

πŸ‘½ now playing: Gratitude by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • am i really considering dropping out of graphic design or am i just going through pmdd
feb 15 2023 ∞
feb 16 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Long Live Rock 'N' Roll by Dio πŸ‘½

  • i'm kind of upset because my hair got wet and i felt nice about it for once
  • hair dries eventually though
  • i'm listening to dio right now obv
  • i mean i own a shirt i kind of have to listen to the music
  • i'm considering alphabetizing the CDs my dad got me when i get home today
  • i have a lot to do and it's only tuesday
  • (afraid of disappointing people)

πŸ‘½ now playing: Paranoid by Black Sabbath πŸ‘½

  • apparently i never resubmitted the graphic. i swear i did
  • my fucking professor sent me three messages about it and i want to fucking cry
  • i'm listening to metal to distract myself
feb 14 2023 ∞
feb 15 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Nothing To Fear (But Fear Itself) by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i'm in a cafe talking to my friend
  • i kind of feel like a failure
  • honestly i wish that things were different
  • i can't drop out of any more classes..... i am NOT a failure

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Last Time by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • i'm back in the cafe
  • i managed to talk to an employee and we talked about having bangs
  • my graphic design professor says he can tell i'm "taking the class seriously" but like.
  • i mean of course i am but i'm also very afraid of HIM and even more afraid of letting him down
  • my life is on the line. i have adhd.
feb 13 2023 ∞
feb 13 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Choose Your Side by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • today i did nothing but sit in my room and drink
  • i feel a little bit like a failure
  • i haven't had the motivation to clean my room or do anything like that
  • my sketchbook is gone
feb 13 2023 ∞
feb 13 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Last Time by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • today was really fun
  • i went to go get records with my friends
  • he got godspeed and weezer and i got dio and rob zombie
  • now i'm working on my graphic design assignment
feb 12 2023 ∞
feb 12 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Fear by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • i'm in a vc rn
  • i'm going to go insane
  • this progress report is killing me
  • it's due in 2 hours

πŸ‘½ now playing: Heard Somebody Cry by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i finished the progrep
  • now i have the exercise to worry about
  • god i'm afraid i'm doing it wrong
  • i could just go "The Many Ranges of Warmth" and call it a day
  • it's more or less a good design aftr all
  • i wanna eat i just have to take my mind off it
  • i'm scared i'm gonna binge tomorrow
feb 11 2023 ∞
feb 11 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Out in the Twilight by Tally Hall πŸ‘½

  • i met someone new today
  • they like most of the things i like
  • fighting demons rn i CANNOT talk about styx yet
  • i really need a haircut

πŸ‘½ now playing: Da Funk by Daft Punk πŸ‘½

  • i got some good photos for my next graphic so im like really excited
  • i'm gonna send it to him and see what he thinks
  • i still need to do that progress report :(

πŸ‘½ now playing: Get Over It by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • i need to fucking do this progress report but executive dysfunction loves to get in the way
  • i feel like a failure sometimes lmao
feb 9 2023 ∞
feb 10 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Ring A Bell by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • i have a meeting with my graphic design teacher today
  • i still need to figure out what i should talk about with him
  • i may or may not have fucked up
  • they gave me the complete opposite of my order today
    • i asked for water, they gave me lemonade
    • i asked for no toppings, they put strawberries on top
  • i'm not mad though i don't even want them to redo it
  • sometimes this happens you know
  • and it's not like i'm deathly allergic to anything in the drink so there really is no reason to redo it
  • it tastes perfectly fine
  • but anyways i probably am going to try and get a head start on the project or some...
feb 8 2023 ∞
feb 9 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Me and the Birds by Duster πŸ‘½

  • i think i'm getting into another funk
  • but then again it's the beginning of the month
  • this is going to be really fun
  • my head hurts and i can't sleep
  • i just wonder if like. things will get better

πŸ‘½ now playing: Nothing To Fear (But Fear Itself) by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • oh my god i’m so exhausted and it’s not even the second week
  • i need to schedule an appointment for my graphic design class so i can meet with my professor
  • a part of me thinks that he thinks i’m cis and i don’t want to ruin that but at the same time like. he’s a graphic design teacher. he can tell i’m not cis by my handwriting
feb 7 2023 ∞
feb 8 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: On The Outside by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • damn coffee actually works on me
  • i'm just kind of sitting here in my room i feel kind of meh right now
  • casually doodling and stuff
  • i wish that i wasn't human
  • it would be so cool if i was a little green alien and i go around in space and do silly things

πŸ‘½ now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx πŸ‘½

  • this might be the week that i write actual dialogue for this album remake
  • the ideas are just like surging through me right now
  • lightning shoots from my fingertips
  • like it was the dialogue after Mr. Roboto that really opened my eyes
  • i could tack that on, change some things and that would essentially be one part of...
feb 6 2023 ∞
feb 6 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Halloween by Japan πŸ‘½

  • my gf was successfully spooked
  • i'm thinking about the desert moon album cover
  • it's so hypnotizing it's like dennis deyoung wants to pull me in and take me on an adventure
  • i'm not ok
  • anyways oh my god that cover is so fucking BEAUTIFUL it's so simple and i'm so in love with it
  • i've spent hours staring at it

πŸ‘½ now playing: Lose Yourself To Dance by Daft Punk πŸ‘½

  • i love dennis deyoung
  • if he did pull me into the album cover and take me on an adventure i would be ok with it
  • it seems so nice in there in that little album world
feb 5 2023 ∞
feb 6 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: & by Tally Hall πŸ‘½

  • it's been a while since i've listened to them
  • too many bad memories involved with them unfortunately
  • i'm trying to get over it because i love them and i love their music
  • they've inspired me so much and tuning in is how i show my gratitude
  • anyways i've been working on this graphics assignment all night
  • i've put in my twelve hours and then some for this week imo
  • i just hope i'm doing this right this is sucking the life out of me
  • my friend and gf are coming over tonight to watch skinamarink again
  • i think i mentioned that yesterday
  • but i think we aren't going to be as scared because we know what's gonna happen
  • my gf on the other hand hasn't seen it
feb 4 2023 ∞
feb 4 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Islands by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i woke up at 4 i didn't want to wake up at 4
  • i don't think there was a work day today since it literally was like the first week in contemporary crafts
  • my friends are coming over tomorrow night to watch skinamarink again
  • i'm so excited we're going to turn off all the lights in the house
  • it's gonna be so fun
  • i need to update my graphic and i realized thta it's not going to be all that difficult to modify
  • i'm a little bit happy about that too
  • i can't be too happy or else i'm going to be extra sad later
  • pleasure and pain
feb 4 2023 ∞
feb 4 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Elevator Man by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i learned that danny elfman listens to death grips yesterday
  • he posted about going to a record store
  • the money store was one of the records he bought
  • it seems like his favorite is punk weight
  • i mean why wouldn't it be it's just 99% bass
  • LMFAO IMAGINE I CATCH HIM AT THE DEATH GRIPS CONCERT
  • I TURN AROUND AND HES JUST THERE WHAT THE FUCCK
  • he woudnt do that
  • i'm trying really hard to figure out the graphic design class right now
  • i fell asleep for 5 hours so that was 5 hours wasted
  • i have a feeling that i'm not gonna be sl...
feb 2 2023 ∞
feb 2 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Clowns of Death by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • wake up wake up
  • its the first of the month
  • okay so it's 3 am right now
  • surprisingly i'm not kilroyposting right now
  • my stomach hurts though like i said it would
  • remember when i said i wasn't going to get a coffee? guess what i did
  • i'm trying to figure out a set schedule so that i can do this fucking graphics assignment
  • i got a notebook cause it reminded me of iggy pop

πŸ‘½ now playing: Blah Blah Blah by Iggy Pop πŸ‘½

  • rise and grind gamers i didn't sleep and my phone did not charge when i was in the shower
feb 1 2023 ∞
feb 1 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Lightning by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • i've been anxious and paranoid for about 4 days
  • this sucks
  • maybe i need to cut back on the coffee
  • watch me get another coffee in the morning

πŸ‘½ now playing: Just A Human by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • i need to drag myself out of bed and charge my headphones lol
  • class starts at 1:45 today and i need to get on the bus really ficking soon
  • have to fight the urge to get a drink
  • may god have mercy on me

πŸ‘½ now playing: Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others by The Smiths πŸ‘½

  • i made it to the area on time
  • can’t wait till my stomach starts to hu...
jan 31 2023 ∞
feb 1 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Go Away by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • it's 4 am
  • i was just randomly struck with inspiration and i cant go back to sleep
  • i have to wake up in 2 hours this fucking sucks
  • anyways i think that jonathan could have used something similar to a 2-way manual data transfer box to hijack the MMM broadcasting system
  • i have one of those my family found it in the garage so i opened it up and i can confirm there possibly could be a way to alter it if you really tried
  • i wanna sleep so fucking bad man 😭
  • the grind never stops
  • i'm COOKING

πŸ‘½ now playing: Say Hey Kid by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • first class went well
  • the prof talked for like an hour and ever...
jan 30 2023 ∞
jan 30 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx πŸ‘½

  • i'm still trying to design the fucking. uh the characters
  • the major players
  • also it's almost 6 am over here
  • this is the last motning i can be hungover
  • college starts on monday i have to wake up at 6 am and go onto th e bus

πŸ‘½ now playing: Around The Fur by Deftones πŸ‘½

  • college is tomorrow morning and suddenly i get the motivation to do all the things i've wanted to do this entire fucking month
  • i hate having adhd
  • i'm making stickers right now uuuuuuuughhhhhhhh
jan 29 2023 ∞
jan 30 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Hey! by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i'm finally getting to revising that story and i'm doing a hell of a good job
  • i went to the lunar new year festival in town
  • sorry for the short update i'm so tired i got my shot today
jan 29 2023 ∞
jan 29 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Snowblind by Styx πŸ‘½

  • i just woke up
  • the lunar new year festival is in town
  • i think i'm going to go today with my girlfriend
  • i love her
  • i wrote an entire story for kilroy was here and i completely forgot it
  • god damnit this always happens
  • i think i need to try and get an ocd diagnosis
  • i feel like really empty right now i'm just sitting here
  • post-live depression is real and it's affecting me really bad right now
  • i think that i should write in my planner more
  • college starts in three days
  • i'm really nervous

πŸ‘½ now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx πŸ‘½

jan 27 2023 ∞
jan 28 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx πŸ‘½

  • sorry for the late update i was in la the whole day yesterday so that's essentially what i did
  • i also signed an nda so i can't talk about what i did tee hee it's a secret
jan 27 2023 ∞
jan 27 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Hey by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • a lot happened today
  • i went to a new record store and there was more there than the other one i went to
  • the other one i went to is kind of ass anyway soooooo sorryyyyy
  • i got:
    • remain in light by talking heads
    • fear of music by talking heads
    • power, corruption, and lies by new order
    • unknown pleasures by joy division (which imo is ESSENTIAL)
    • equinox by styx
    • back to the world and desert moon by dennis deyoung
  • so overall it was a good day
  • i went to chili’s after and i ate too much my stummy hurt now (>_<)
  • i can’t wait to add these records to my...
jan 26 2023 ∞
jan 26 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Glory Be by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • im at costco rn…
  • my head kind of hurts
  • im worried i pissed off the record store employee cause he seemed dry when i talked to him
  • i have this annoying valley girl voice when i get excited so maybe he didn’t like listening to that
  • i feel a little bad
jan 25 2023 ∞
jan 25 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Up My Sleeves by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • college is starting next monday
  • i woke up late again
  • i went to the cafe as well and had a quick chat with my girlfriend
  • i wonder if something bad's gonna happen to me if i stop making these posts...

πŸ‘½ now playing: Good For Your Soul by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i remade this song on that thirtydollar.website soundfont page
  • i don't kknow why i just was bored
  • i have too much time on my hands
  • wrong song
  • i wonder if i should link the stuff i listen to

πŸ‘½ now playing: Fresh by DEVO πŸ‘½

  • this song makes me think about when i wen...
jan 24 2023 ∞
jan 24 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Alberto Basalm by Aphex Twin πŸ‘½

  • it's almost 5 over here
  • i hope that i don't fall asleep till 3 again i have a lot to do
  • maybe i'll turn on the aphex twin ambience album and sleep till 11
  • i say i have a lot to do all the time and nothing ever gets done
  • maybe i just don't know where to start. i need to drink water i'm hungry
  • school starts up again next monday
  • i'm finally excited to actually be doing something and not rotting away like i have been the past month and a half
  • good fucking lord
  • i have 2 art classes and one graphic design class
  • yahoo

πŸ‘½ now playing: Private Life by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

jan 22 2023 ∞
jan 23 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Losing My Edge by LCD Soundsystem πŸ‘½

  • today feels kind of gross
  • i think i'll grab a coffee or something
  • i had some italian wedding soup it actually tasted good
  • i need to clean on top of my dresser and find a good place to put my records so they're not gonna get fucked up
  • i got three new records i mentioned that two days ago
  • the record store i got them from is hiring so maybe i can work at the record store like james murphy said he did
  • i've never been wrong
  • i used to work at a record store
  • had everything
  • before anyone
jan 22 2023 ∞
jan 22 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Pain by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • the anxiety is kind of dying down a little which is good
  • maybe tonight i'll be able to sleep with the lights off for the first time in days
  • i got a new physical journal to put the stuff i wouldn't publish in
  • i gifted one to my gf as well
  • there are some secrets of mine that i will never share
  • i went to starbucks before though
  • it was nice my gf and i drew and talked
  • i think i'm going to go draw now
  • sorry for the small entry
jan 21 2023 ∞
jan 21 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Mind/Body/Light/Sound by Swans πŸ‘½

  • i was twitching from anxiety all night last night and i'm pissed cause i can't get any sleep
  • i feel anxious again
  • i don't know when my gf's getting out of rehearsal i should ask her lol
  • yesterday she had to go to a church event

πŸ‘½ now playing: Pedestrian Wolves by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • i feel anxious but really
  • i fucking hate the way my body feels right now
  • maybe watching skinamarink wasn't the best idea like
  • two severely mentally ill and paranoid best friends go watch a movie that plays on your severe mental illnesses and paranoi...
jan 19 2023 ∞
jan 21 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Three Bedrooms in a Good Neighborhood by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • i’m back in my hometown again!!!!
  • this fucking app crashed while i was making this entry so uuugh
  • i’m out right now though i got starbucks and i’m walking around cause i didn’t get much exercise when i was at the cabin
  • i finally get to catch up on all the stuff i said i would draw
  • i forgot my charger at home so all i had was my sketchbook
  • i had a bad breakdown but it’s okay now!!!
  • i watched The Thing again and i also watched other movies like Downsizing
  • downsizing was a weird ass movie and it had like this overall theme about capitalism and stuff and the environment
  • basically it was about this thing people ...
jan 18 2023 ∞
jan 18 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Breathe (In The Air) by Pink Floyd πŸ‘½

  • i’ve been stuck in a cabin for days
  • i’m going home tomorrow so that’s good
  • uuuuuuuuuuu sorry the posts have been short
jan 18 2023 ∞
jan 18 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Nookie by Limp Bizkit πŸ‘½

  • i don’t think i left the cabin at all today
  • no wonder why i’ve been feeling so sad today
  • it’s blue monday
  • honestly i just want to go home now but what would i do then?
  • at this point i’m just waiting for college to start up again because i’ve had enough of the days blending together
  • i did nothing i wanted to
  • it’ll be fine
  • i’ll be fine
jan 17 2023 ∞
jan 17 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Superstition by Stevie Wonder πŸ‘½

  • sorry it’s so late i watched the thing again
  • in the mouth of madness is on again
  • a lot of bad things happened today and yesterday and i hope it gets better
jan 16 2023 ∞
jan 16 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Children of God by AJJ πŸ‘½

  • i'm so fucking understimulated it's not funny anymore
  • i wish that i could finish something for once in my life
  • but what's the point if nothing's going to come from it? like nothing i do seems like it's ever going to take off
  • idk. i'm trying to draw but it's not coming out right
  • should i just force myself?

πŸ‘½ now playing: Giving Bad People Good Ideas by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • just had like 2 breakdowns
  • maybe today's not my day
  • or maybe the bad luck from yesterday was just delayed
  • idk
  • i'm gonna go walking once the sun comes up
jan 14 2023 ∞
jan 15 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Ain't This The Life by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • hey ugys it's 2:30 pm
  • i don't think i'm going anywhere today
  • i feel so drained right now
  • honestly i feel a little sad because i didn't do much over my break
  • it's kind of funny bow quickly time can pass if you let it
  • honestly i also feel kind of sick lol
  • not like illness sick just "i wanna go back into bed and sleep kind of sick"
  • i think i want to draw something today but i just haven't had the energy
  • also i'm probably going to start on the other title card
  • idk man i wish i was a little healthier but i don't know where to start

πŸ‘½ now playing: True by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • i'm at starbucks again uee hee
jan 13 2023 ∞
jan 14 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Better Times by Danny Elfman πŸ‘½

  • it's thursday
  • my gf came over and i showed her my old computer
  • sorry for the short update i'm on a call with my friend watching him play tboi
  • bye till tomrorrrrow
jan 13 2023 ∞
jan 13 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: The Powers that B by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • i'm at my dad's work again and yippee i actually have my surface open rn!!!!
  • i think i'm going to try and write some scenes for SOR and maybe sketch out what the final title card for Rodney's going to look like
  • i need to update the thumbnail for ulthar's oc sheet on the other list tee eeeeeeee
  • death grips is nice
  • it's also freezing in this fucking break room but i think that i can't leave until my dad does
  • i forgot that the last time that i was here the wifi couldn't penetrate the door and i had to wait till my dad got out of the lab
  • so i guess i'm stuck here lmfao
  • whatever lol i can still write i like the...
jan 11 2023 ∞
jan 11 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Snowblind by Styx πŸ‘½

  • good afternoon
  • i woke up with a headache
  • i think i'll make waffles or somethin g
  • i love how tommy shaw sings it's really recognizable
  • such a melodious voice
  • i wanna meet him and dennis (even though he's not part of the band) and jy and the panozzo twins too
  • maybe someday
  • i'm growing out my hair cause i realized i can be a dude with long hair
  • idk though because perople keep calling me ma'am and she at first glance and it suckssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
  • anyways i think i'm going to go make some waffles

πŸ‘½ now playing: Little Birds by Neutral Milk... πŸ‘½

jan 10 2023 ∞
jan 11 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Shitshow by Death Grips πŸ‘½

  • good afternoon everyone
  • my thought of the day is that modern horror games seem to be too marketed towards children
  • it sucks only having "family friendly" horror games
  • i don't know if this is gonna get any better
  • and as an artist things are getting more and more difficult because now all the media wants to see are these brightly colored, many-toothed things that have no fear factor at all other than the occasional cheesy jumpscare
  • sorry for the rant
  • i found my laminate and now i'm gonna draw some stuff to throw in the cricut
  • it's been a while since i did any stuff with my cricut
  • i haven't drawn anything yet
  • i can't sort things by importance!!! i do...
jan 9 2023 ∞
jan 10 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Snowblind by Styx πŸ‘½

  • wondercon's coming up
  • i wonder what i'll do for it
  • i have a lot of work to do before march
  • i paused my music and rn i'm watching a walkthrough of I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream
  • it's a cool game i love harlan ellison's voice in this game
  • idk what i wanna draw
  • i'll check back in when i finally find something to do
  • maybe i'll make stickers

πŸ‘½ now playing: Loose Cannon by Puzzle πŸ‘½

  • i couldn't find the laminate i was looking for but i did find some nice green nail polish
  • i'm gonna kind of fix myself tonight, shower, paint my nails black and green like an alien
jan 8 2023 ∞
jan 9 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Haven't We Been Here Before by Styx πŸ‘½

  • i can't sleep, pms hit HARD while i was with my gf and it sucked
  • i didn't even order anything from starbucks
  • we made up later though which makes me very happy
  • anyways i think i'm going to long beach
  • i think i get to meet a prop guy i've been thinking about for a while which is cool
  • i hope i can still update lol
  • i don't know what to wear ooooogh
  • GOD i love styx jesus fuck
  • also the computer has been brought inside so i am VERY very happy about that uee hee

πŸ‘½ now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx πŸ‘½

  • apparently it was an anime con. that's fi...
jan 7 2023 ∞
jan 8 2023 +

πŸ‘½ now playing: Glory Be by Oingo Boingo πŸ‘½

  • first time in a while that i haven't stayed up all night
  • the other night i got myself lip balm for me and my gf
  • i haven't called the doctor, nor have i cleared out a space
  • i did however write a lot about my ocs, and i added lore for barnard
  • m3gan came out today, but i doubt it's anything within my taste
  • i don't think i'm gonna go out today, i don't want a repeat of what happened when we saw smile
  • wondering if i actually got traumatized that night, not by the movie but by the manager of the restaurant nearby iykyk
  • i hope that i'll actually be able to draw some more today, when i was out last night i forgot my sketchbook :(
  • i went to the store and got some fruit an...
jan 7 2023 ∞
jan 7 2023 +
  • i actually feel compelled to write something for once
  • i'm working on a lorebuilding project with my friends online and it's been fun so far
  • i have to draw a lot though LMAO i have to make an entire comic
  • a part of me is telling me that this isn't really a priority right now
  • let's just see how this turns out

update (12 PM, 1/5/2023)

  • i did not write. i sat there and didn't do anything
  • i'm so tired and i wish i was home right now
  • also i just had an espresso shot and i'm terrified it's gonna do something to my stomach.
  • i mean i have water but still
  • this place got me drinkin potions πŸ’€
jan 5 2023 ∞
jan 5 2023 +
  • i've been trying to fix my schedule for three days, maybe the way i'm doing it isn't very healthy
  • i've pulled like three all nighters trying to make sure i'm mad exhausted by the end of the day
  • i have to wake up early tomorrow anyway i think i'll try it just one more time
  • i'll try to update this every day or as much as i can, just like my friend does
  • i don't know how this thing works so i don't know if i inherently have to make things on here bullet points
  • a part of me says yes, the word "list" is in the name, and i don't know if this site counts as a blog
  • whatever i'll figure it out as i go along
jan 5 2023 ∞
jan 5 2023 +