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π½ now listening: Yum Yab by Jarboe π½
mar 23 2023 ∞ mar 23 2023 +
π½ now playing: Weakling by Swans π½
- i love this record so much...
- also spring break is after this week
- i made nothing for wondercon but that's okay i'll advertise my commissions extra hard
π½ now playing: Night Boat To Cairo by Madness π½
- this song's so silly i love it
- i like watching the funny guys dance around in front of a green screen
- NIGHT BOAT TO CAIROOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
π½ now playing: I Got My Tooth Removed by 100 Gecs π½
- i love this song it's so silly
- it sounds like something aimkid would animate something to
- also today i learned that the demon from all of dio's album covers is named murray...
mar 21 2023 ∞ mar 22 2023 +
π½ now playing: Thank You by Swans π½
- sorry for the late update today was vv busy
- i sobbed looking at a photo of my gf
mar 21 2023 ∞ mar 21 2023 +
π½ now playing: Cool City by Danny Elfman π½
- i went to get lozenges for my girlfriend because she lost her voice
- i'm immensely proud of her
- i wish i had more ideas for the con but i don't know what to do for it
- there's nothing that i've made that i'm proud enough of
- maybe postcards.
mar 20 2023 ∞ mar 20 2023 +
π½ now playing: Spider by Oingo Boingo π½
- god i'm such a fuckup
- i can't do anything right
- i should just pull out of the con at this point
- no one buys my stuff anyway
mar 18 2023 ∞ mar 18 2023 +
π½ now playing: Run Away (The Escape Song) by Oingo Boingo π½
- i'm so unbelievably stressed right now
- i have no fucking ideas for prints and the con is a week away
- i haven't done a damn thing
- maybe i'll do postcard-sized prints
- but all i know is that i don't want to sell my old prints anymore
- it disgusts me just looking at them
- why am i like this
mar 18 2023 ∞ mar 18 2023 +
π½ now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx π½
- a guy outside the CVS said i was pretty
mar 17 2023 ∞ mar 17 2023 +
π½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γyster Cult π½
- I FUCKING PREDICTED THIS SONG WOULD COME ON NEXT HELLO????
- anyways oh my god this fucking song is putting me in a chokehold
- bouncing around and giggling and snapping my teeth
π½ now playing: Killing For Company by Swans π½
- i'm just fucking losing it right now holy shit i'm ....
- the great annihilator is such a wonderful album i imagine it being performed on a stage
mar 15 2023 ∞ mar 15 2023 +
π½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γyster Cult π½
- happy saint patricks day i'm thinking too much
- esus
π½ now playing: Driven Like The Snow by The Sisters of Mercy π½
- it wasn't st patricks day
- i need kilroy was here on CD
mar 14 2023 ∞ mar 15 2023 +
π½ now playing: Reptiles and Samurai by Oingo Boingo π½
- this is the time of night where the voices start to
- oh god fuck oh fuck
π½ now playing: I'm Going To Do It by Giles Corey π½
- self-explanatory
- sierra please deliver me from the evils in my mind
π½ now playing: Headless by Deftones π½
- she had to leave early
- i'm worried i won't be able to finish in time
- i don't think i like woodworking class as much as i thought
mar 13 2023 ∞ mar 14 2023 +
π½ now playing: Inside Out by Duster π½
- i want to go back to sleep
- my girlfriend did wonderfully last night and i loved it just like she said
- she's done so much and i'm so proud of her
- i don't know why i don't want to remember
- it'll take a while
- like the will wood concert
π½ now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo π½
- god it hurts just to remember.
- what the fuck
- holy shit
- i need to go organize my records or something cause jesus christ...
- i think i have ocd
π½ now playing: On The Outside (1988) by Oingo Boingo π½
mar 12 2023 ∞ mar 13 2023 +
π½ now playing: Deadline by Blue Γyster Cult π½
- HELLLOOOO
- guess what i found at the record stoer...
- TWO STYX 45s, ONE STYX CD
- AND
- CAUGHT IN THE ACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ON DVD
- i am very happy right now
- also,,,, i'm going to see my girlfriends show tonight
- she's going to do so well and i'm very proud of her
- i need to get ready now
mar 12 2023 ∞ mar 12 2023 +
π½ now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo π½
- happy mario day
- my computer's being a piece of shit
- i should probably clean
- i wanted to go in today but then was like oh it's useless
- i should probably clean
mar 10 2023 ∞ mar 10 2023 +
π½ now playing: Skin by Oingo Boingo π½
- i saw this girl on the bus and she was reading a book
- i havenβt read a book in ages
- anyways woodworking class is today
- i went in to the art studio yesterday cause i was itching to finish a piece that we started that day
- i feel at peace again right now
mar 9 2023 ∞ mar 9 2023 +
π½ now playing: When The Lights Go Out by Oingo Boingo π½
- iβm on the bus right now
- i fucking astral projected last night
- something didnβt get put back right because my head hurts
- but only one side
- i also fell asleep in my clothes
- i think i went to another reality
mar 8 2023 ∞ mar 9 2023 +
π½ now playing: Is This by Oingo Boingo π½
- good morning chat
- i have to be somewhere in about 3 and a half hours so i'm punching in
- hopefully my stomach stops hurting lol
- ope never mind there it is lol
- i binged last night like an idiot
- i was doing so well tooβ¦
π½ now playing: Money by Pink Floyd π½
- i feel at peace right now
- the college is interviewing me for being gay lmao
- theyβre probably gonna ask me about how the college is treating me and stuff
- wearing the bΓΆc symbol on my face
mar 7 2023 ∞ mar 8 2023 +
π½ now playing: Is This by Oingo Boingo π½
- i get to be interviewed tomorrow
- i should sneak something in there
- i feel kind of sad
- like am i being too patronizing? i just want to ask my followers what they want to see...
- i wanna delete something i posted
π½ now playing: Out of Control by Oingo Boingo π½
- i'm making a sakuya sticker now
- i'm hungry but i'm waiting till 8 to eat
- i love danny's voice
- it's so sweet, especially on dark at the end of the tunnel
mar 6 2023 ∞ mar 7 2023 +
π½ now playing: Why'd We Come by Oingo Boingo π½
- i've done nothing all day
- i'm so fucking understimulated
- i think i'm going to make a few more batches of stickers
π½ now playing: Let The Right One Slip In by Morrissey π½
- i feel so fucking empty
- maybe a red bull will help or something
- some form of caffeine
- cause i'm so unmotivated
- i haven't made stickers i need to have an even batch
mar 6 2023 ∞ mar 6 2023 +
π½ now playing: Monsters by Blue Γyster Cult π½
- just putting in my two cents for the day
- i think i'm going to finish this batch of stickers then go have drinks
- i wonder if i can make packs/bundles cause i'll probably have multiple renditions of one character
- they'll be upon request
mar 5 2023 ∞ mar 5 2023 +
π½ now playing: Chi by Korn π½
- i feel like i'm forcing myself to do things
- my dad refuses to give me adderall,, when it's evident that'll work
- i'm tired
π½ now playing: Giant Steps by John Coltrane π½
- freeform jazz stops the voices
- i'm sitting on my floor i made an entire pack of 35 stickers
- i hope people get the reference
mar 3 2023 ∞ mar 4 2023 +
π½ now playing: Toxicity by System of a Down π½
- making a quick entry before i go to school
- i haven't used my planner in a long time
π½ now playing: Chop Suey! by System of a Down π½
- i'm in a jackbox game with my friends right now
- my hands are cold
- oh my god
- i'm going fucking insane
- i hope they don't think i'm annoying
mar 2 2023 ∞ mar 3 2023 +
π½ now playing: Around The Fur by Deftones π½
π½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γyster Cult π½
- THIS FUCKING SONG
- THIS SONG
- OH MY GOD
- I'M RUNNING AROUND AND SCREAMING AND YELLING
- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I NEED TO
- OHUA AUHAUA UAHUAHAUAH
mar 1 2023 ∞ mar 2 2023 +
π½ now playing: Spider by Oingo Boingo π½
- i feel like i'm withering away
- i don't feel like i exist
- i don't know who i am anymore
- i live to go to school
π½ now playing: Right to Know by Oingo Boingo π½
- i finally have ideas to draw for wondercon
- my friend from woodworking class says she's going,, i wonder if i'll see her
- anyways lol
- i have some cinnamon covered apples
- i forgot what i was gonna say
feb 28 2023 ∞ mar 1 2023 +
π½ now playing: Out Of Control by Oingo Boingo π½
- you know i just feel a little bit peaceful right now
- this feeling probably won't last long
- i was just sitting in bed listening to music through my laptop
- and i was just... kind of existing again
- i'm not derealizing right now
- maybe a little bit, or maybe i'm just tired
- i was just drawing
- and laying in bed
- this song makes me feel at peace and i like that
- the guy that sings this song knows i exist
π½ now playing: Go Away by Danny Elfman π½
- i wonder how long itβs going to take to get my life back together
feb 27 2023 ∞ feb 28 2023 +
π½ now playing: Help Me by Oingo Boingo π½
- i'm drunk again
- thinking about marvin the martian
- i'd show him all the nicest things i could,
- i'd show him the mountain even though i couldn't begin to understand what he talks about
- he'd point in between stars and i think that's wonderful
feb 26 2023 ∞ feb 26 2023 +
π½ now playing: All My Friends by LCD Soundsystem π½
- i'm drunk
- i have a massive crush on the landlord from oh! super milk chan
- oif my friend finds out he's going to lose it
- i think i already told him
π½ now playing: B.Y.O.B. by System of a Down π½
- listening to this thinking about my old friend
- i haven't seen them since august
- and i'm worried
- i make my coffee the same way that they do
- i miss them
feb 25 2023 ∞ feb 25 2023 +
π½ now playing: Strawberry Fields Forever by The Beatles π½
- i am most definitely derealizing again
- surprisingly i'm kind of fine with it
- a part of me kind of likes it
- i'm just kind of floating right now
- i don't mind
- i feel peaceful
π½ now playing: I Can Change by LCD Soundsystem π½
- APPARENTLY I'M SEEIG LCS SOUNDSYSTEM IN JUNE I'M VV HAPPY
- my friends and i are gonna watch cocaine bear tonight
- i'm wondering if we should go to panera
- but with my last experience with the manager i don't know if i want to
- but i think i'm going to do it anyway so i can show him who's boss
- i'm not scared of him
feb 24 2023 ∞ feb 25 2023 +
π½ now playing: The Alchemist by Blue Γyster Cult π½
- yesterday was great today wasn't all that great
- last night i watched oh! super milk chan with a friend and that was really fun though
- if moleskine made a journal that was 400 pages but could fit in my pocket that woulc be so cool legit
π½ now playing: Secret Road by Blue Γyster Cult π½
- owough i thikn i'm derealizing again.
- either that or i'm tired
feb 24 2023 ∞ feb 24 2023 +
π½ now playing: Havenβt We Been Here Before by Styx π½
- today is the 40th anniversary of kilroy was here!!!!!!!!
- iβm very happy right now
- i think iβll post today
- i canβt believe i rewrote this entire album from scratch
- ohhhhhhhhβ¦β¦β¦ my god dude
- very happy
- happier than iβve been in a vvvvv long time
π½ now playing: Don't Let It End by Styx π½
- I HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY
- i got a new journal that i knew would last a long time!!!
- 400 pages and i got it the day of the 40th anniversary of kilroy was here!!!!!!!
- i'm very happy right now
- i also got a memoryholder rock
feb 22 2023 ∞ feb 23 2023 +
π½ now playing: Cold War by Styx π½
- the anniversary of kilroy was here is tomorrow
- i feel like i should do something special but i don't know what to do
- this song is so based though
- i hope i can do something, i need to remember not to feel bad if i can't
- maybe i'll make bracelets...
- my friend LOVES this song and i think he drew jonathan today i love that drawing so much
feb 22 2023 ∞ feb 22 2023 +
π½ now playing: Black Blade by Blue Oyster Cult π½
- considering going out
- maybe not.......
- but it'd be funny lol
- i havent eaten today but i wanna but i also don't want to
π½ now playing: Rainbow in the Dark by Dio π½
- at my dads work again
- i feel like working at the record store downtown
- that would be interesting
- the owner seems nice
- if not that then the store next door
- the guy that works there worked with daft punk thatβs fucking insane
- idk what to drawβ¦
π½ now playing: Pedestrian Wolves by Oingo Boingo π½
feb 20 2023 ∞ feb 21 2023 +
π½ now playing: Thank You by Swans π½
- damn i really just feel alone
- i wonder if anyone's on
π½ now playing: Weakling by Swans π½
- it feels like i always need attention
- i'm such a toxic person
- god why was i born female
- you know what i'm just going to accept that i'm a horrible person
- and i'm just going to go on with my life and play my cds
- i am terrible and that's okay
- not ok for anyone else though
- i just WANT PEOPLE TO FUCKING CARE ABOUT THE SHIT I SAY
feb 19 2023 ∞ feb 19 2023 +
π½ now listening: Lost Like This by Oingo Boingo π½
- guess who dropped out of its graphic design class
- i feel like a failure
- but i guess i have more time now
π½ now playing: Stay Here by Swans π½
- GUESS WHO WENT TO THE RECORD STORE
- my friend and i were there and we found FILTH BY SWANS!
- i'm so fucking happy right now
- it was on my wishlist
- it also comes with a poster that i'm going to be hanging up as soon as i finish writing this
- i fucking love swans,,,
π½ now playing: Even Flow by Pearl Jam π½
- i feel strangely at peace
- waiting for my pc to boot up so i can pla...
feb 18 2023 ∞ feb 19 2023 +
π½ now playing: Spectral Bride by Giles Corey π½
- lol, i'm a failure and also a drunk probably
- that's okay
- you know why?
- because i feel better when i'm out of my body
- i feel better when i'm dizzy and don't care about anything ever
- i feel alright right now and i like that
- i deserve this every once in a while.
π½ now playing: Just Another Day by Oingo Boingo π½
- damn last night was ass
- i need to check to see if my prof responded
- i'm fucking done with this class lmfaooooo
feb 17 2023 ∞ feb 17 2023 +
π½ now playing: Cold War by Styx π½
- uuughaaaa i'm in the middle of a cafe
- a part of me is worrying that the hyperfixation is going to die out for this album
- i'm still writing it but i can feel it slipping away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- anyways i hate my graphic design professor
- i have two things due on saturday and one thing due tomorrow, none of them i've even started
- death has set its eyes upon me and is advancing
π½ now playing: Jeremy by Pearl Jam π½
- i look so cool and independent when i'm out but as soon as i go home i sit on my floor and just stare at the wall and maybe eat a sandwich
- i just wish things were a little better
feb 16 2023 ∞ feb 17 2023 +
π½ now playing: We Rock by Dio π½
- sorry the title makes me giggle a little idk why
- just listening to this guy on shuffle right now
- he's fucking cool
- the album covers look like shit i wanna draw
- but i can't!!!!!
- but that'gs okay
- i can still draw relatively okay
- yesterday wasn't all that good but because it wasn't that good today will be great
- i'm in the cafe right now but i should probably go back class starts in 15 minutes
- one day i'll get over my fear of drawing in public
π½ now playing: Gratitude by Danny Elfman π½
- am i really considering dropping out of graphic design or am i just going through pmdd
feb 15 2023 ∞ feb 16 2023 +
π½ now playing: Long Live Rock 'N' Roll by Dio π½
- i'm kind of upset because my hair got wet and i felt nice about it for once
- hair dries eventually though
- i'm listening to dio right now obv
- i mean i own a shirt i kind of have to listen to the music
- i'm considering alphabetizing the CDs my dad got me when i get home today
- i have a lot to do and it's only tuesday
- (afraid of disappointing people)
π½ now playing: Paranoid by Black Sabbath π½
- apparently i never resubmitted the graphic. i swear i did
- my fucking professor sent me three messages about it and i want to fucking cry
- i'm listening to metal to distract myself
feb 14 2023 ∞ feb 15 2023 +
π½ now playing: Nothing To Fear (But Fear Itself) by Oingo Boingo π½
- i'm in a cafe talking to my friend
- i kind of feel like a failure
- honestly i wish that things were different
- i can't drop out of any more classes..... i am NOT a failure
π½ now playing: The Last Time by Danny Elfman π½
- i'm back in the cafe
- i managed to talk to an employee and we talked about having bangs
- my graphic design professor says he can tell i'm "taking the class seriously" but like.
- i mean of course i am but i'm also very afraid of HIM and even more afraid of letting him down
- my life is on the line. i have adhd.
feb 13 2023 ∞ feb 13 2023 +
π½ now playing: Choose Your Side by Danny Elfman π½
- today i did nothing but sit in my room and drink
- i feel a little bit like a failure
- i haven't had the motivation to clean my room or do anything like that
- my sketchbook is gone
feb 13 2023 ∞ feb 13 2023 +
π½ now playing: The Last Time by Danny Elfman π½
- today was really fun
- i went to go get records with my friends
- he got godspeed and weezer and i got dio and rob zombie
- now i'm working on my graphic design assignment
feb 12 2023 ∞ feb 12 2023 +
π½ now playing: The Fear by Death Grips π½
- i'm in a vc rn
- i'm going to go insane
- this progress report is killing me
- it's due in 2 hours
π½ now playing: Heard Somebody Cry by Oingo Boingo π½
- i finished the progrep
- now i have the exercise to worry about
- god i'm afraid i'm doing it wrong
- i could just go "The Many Ranges of Warmth" and call it a day
- it's more or less a good design aftr all
- i wanna eat i just have to take my mind off it
- i'm scared i'm gonna binge tomorrow
feb 11 2023 ∞ feb 11 2023 +
π½ now playing: Out in the Twilight by Tally Hall π½
- i met someone new today
- they like most of the things i like
- fighting demons rn i CANNOT talk about styx yet
- i really need a haircut
π½ now playing: Da Funk by Daft Punk π½
- i got some good photos for my next graphic so im like really excited
- i'm gonna send it to him and see what he thinks
- i still need to do that progress report :(
π½ now playing: Get Over It by Danny Elfman π½
- i need to fucking do this progress report but executive dysfunction loves to get in the way
- i feel like a failure sometimes lmao
feb 9 2023 ∞ feb 10 2023 +
π½ now playing: Ring A Bell by Death Grips π½
- i have a meeting with my graphic design teacher today
- i still need to figure out what i should talk about with him
- i may or may not have fucked up
- they gave me the complete opposite of my order today
- i asked for water, they gave me lemonade
- i asked for no toppings, they put strawberries on top
- i'm not mad though i don't even want them to redo it
- sometimes this happens you know
- and it's not like i'm deathly allergic to anything in the drink so there really is no reason to redo it
- it tastes perfectly fine
- but anyways i probably am going to try and get a head start on the project or some...
feb 8 2023 ∞ feb 9 2023 +
π½ now playing: Me and the Birds by Duster π½
- i think i'm getting into another funk
- but then again it's the beginning of the month
- this is going to be really fun
- my head hurts and i can't sleep
- i just wonder if like. things will get better
π½ now playing: Nothing To Fear (But Fear Itself) by Oingo Boingo π½
- oh my god iβm so exhausted and itβs not even the second week
- i need to schedule an appointment for my graphic design class so i can meet with my professor
- a part of me thinks that he thinks iβm cis and i donβt want to ruin that but at the same time like. heβs a graphic design teacher. he can tell iβm not cis by my handwriting
feb 7 2023 ∞ feb 8 2023 +
π½ now playing: On The Outside by Oingo Boingo π½
- damn coffee actually works on me
- i'm just kind of sitting here in my room i feel kind of meh right now
- casually doodling and stuff
- i wish that i wasn't human
- it would be so cool if i was a little green alien and i go around in space and do silly things
π½ now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx π½
- this might be the week that i write actual dialogue for this album remake
- the ideas are just like surging through me right now
- lightning shoots from my fingertips
- like it was the dialogue after Mr. Roboto that really opened my eyes
- i could tack that on, change some things and that would essentially be one part of...
feb 6 2023 ∞ feb 6 2023 +
π½ now playing: Halloween by Japan π½
- my gf was successfully spooked
- i'm thinking about the desert moon album cover
- it's so hypnotizing it's like dennis deyoung wants to pull me in and take me on an adventure
- i'm not ok
- anyways oh my god that cover is so fucking BEAUTIFUL it's so simple and i'm so in love with it
- i've spent hours staring at it
π½ now playing: Lose Yourself To Dance by Daft Punk π½
- i love dennis deyoung
- if he did pull me into the album cover and take me on an adventure i would be ok with it
- it seems so nice in there in that little album world
feb 5 2023 ∞ feb 6 2023 +
π½ now playing: & by Tally Hall π½
- it's been a while since i've listened to them
- too many bad memories involved with them unfortunately
- i'm trying to get over it because i love them and i love their music
- they've inspired me so much and tuning in is how i show my gratitude
- anyways i've been working on this graphics assignment all night
- i've put in my twelve hours and then some for this week imo
- i just hope i'm doing this right this is sucking the life out of me
- my friend and gf are coming over tonight to watch skinamarink again
- i think i mentioned that yesterday
- but i think we aren't going to be as scared because we know what's gonna happen
- my gf on the other hand hasn't seen it
feb 4 2023 ∞ feb 4 2023 +
π½ now playing: Islands by Oingo Boingo π½
- i woke up at 4 i didn't want to wake up at 4
- i don't think there was a work day today since it literally was like the first week in contemporary crafts
- my friends are coming over tomorrow night to watch skinamarink again
- i'm so excited we're going to turn off all the lights in the house
- it's gonna be so fun
- i need to update my graphic and i realized thta it's not going to be all that difficult to modify
- i'm a little bit happy about that too
- i can't be too happy or else i'm going to be extra sad later
- pleasure and pain
feb 4 2023 ∞ feb 4 2023 +
π½ now playing: Elevator Man by Oingo Boingo π½
- i learned that danny elfman listens to death grips yesterday
- he posted about going to a record store
- the money store was one of the records he bought
- it seems like his favorite is punk weight
- i mean why wouldn't it be it's just 99% bass
- LMFAO IMAGINE I CATCH HIM AT THE DEATH GRIPS CONCERT
- I TURN AROUND AND HES JUST THERE WHAT THE FUCCK
- he woudnt do that
- i'm trying really hard to figure out the graphic design class right now
- i fell asleep for 5 hours so that was 5 hours wasted
- i have a feeling that i'm not gonna be sl...
feb 2 2023 ∞ feb 2 2023 +
π½ now playing: Clowns of Death by Oingo Boingo π½
- wake up wake up
- its the first of the month
- okay so it's 3 am right now
- surprisingly i'm not kilroyposting right now
- my stomach hurts though like i said it would
- remember when i said i wasn't going to get a coffee? guess what i did
- i'm trying to figure out a set schedule so that i can do this fucking graphics assignment
- i got a notebook cause it reminded me of iggy pop
π½ now playing: Blah Blah Blah by Iggy Pop π½
- rise and grind gamers i didn't sleep and my phone did not charge when i was in the shower
feb 1 2023 ∞ feb 1 2023 +
π½ now playing: Lightning by Danny Elfman π½
- i've been anxious and paranoid for about 4 days
- this sucks
- maybe i need to cut back on the coffee
- watch me get another coffee in the morning
π½ now playing: Just A Human by Danny Elfman π½
- i need to drag myself out of bed and charge my headphones lol
- class starts at 1:45 today and i need to get on the bus really ficking soon
- have to fight the urge to get a drink
- may god have mercy on me
π½ now playing: Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others by The Smiths π½
- i made it to the area on time
- canβt wait till my stomach starts to hu...
jan 31 2023 ∞ feb 1 2023 +
π½ now playing: Go Away by Danny Elfman π½
- it's 4 am
- i was just randomly struck with inspiration and i cant go back to sleep
- i have to wake up in 2 hours this fucking sucks
- anyways i think that jonathan could have used something similar to a 2-way manual data transfer box to hijack the MMM broadcasting system
- i have one of those my family found it in the garage so i opened it up and i can confirm there possibly could be a way to alter it if you really tried
- i wanna sleep so fucking bad man π
- the grind never stops
- i'm COOKING
π½ now playing: Say Hey Kid by Death Grips π½
- first class went well
- the prof talked for like an hour and ever...
jan 30 2023 ∞ jan 30 2023 +
π½ now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx π½
- i'm still trying to design the fucking. uh the characters
- the major players
- also it's almost 6 am over here
- this is the last motning i can be hungover
- college starts on monday i have to wake up at 6 am and go onto th e bus
π½ now playing: Around The Fur by Deftones π½
- college is tomorrow morning and suddenly i get the motivation to do all the things i've wanted to do this entire fucking month
- i hate having adhd
- i'm making stickers right now uuuuuuuughhhhhhhh
jan 29 2023 ∞ jan 30 2023 +
π½ now playing: Hey! by Oingo Boingo π½
- i'm finally getting to revising that story and i'm doing a hell of a good job
- i went to the lunar new year festival in town
- sorry for the short update i'm so tired i got my shot today
jan 29 2023 ∞ jan 29 2023 +
π½ now playing: Snowblind by Styx π½
- i just woke up
- the lunar new year festival is in town
- i think i'm going to go today with my girlfriend
- i love her
- i wrote an entire story for kilroy was here and i completely forgot it
- god damnit this always happens
- i think i need to try and get an ocd diagnosis
- i feel like really empty right now i'm just sitting here
- post-live depression is real and it's affecting me really bad right now
- i think that i should write in my planner more
- college starts in three days
- i'm really nervous
π½ now playing: Mr. Roboto by Styx π½
jan 27 2023 ∞ jan 28 2023 +
π½ now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx π½
- sorry for the late update i was in la the whole day yesterday so that's essentially what i did
- i also signed an nda so i can't talk about what i did tee hee it's a secret
jan 27 2023 ∞ jan 27 2023 +
π½ now playing: Hey by Oingo Boingo π½
- a lot happened today
- i went to a new record store and there was more there than the other one i went to
- the other one i went to is kind of ass anyway soooooo sorryyyyy
- i got:
- remain in light by talking heads
- fear of music by talking heads
- power, corruption, and lies by new order
- unknown pleasures by joy division (which imo is ESSENTIAL)
- equinox by styx
- back to the world and desert moon by dennis deyoung
- so overall it was a good day
- i went to chiliβs after and i ate too much my stummy hurt now (>_<)
- i canβt wait to add these records to my...
jan 26 2023 ∞ jan 26 2023 +
π½ now playing: Glory Be by Oingo Boingo π½
- im at costco rnβ¦
- my head kind of hurts
- im worried i pissed off the record store employee cause he seemed dry when i talked to him
- i have this annoying valley girl voice when i get excited so maybe he didnβt like listening to that
- i feel a little bad
jan 25 2023 ∞ jan 25 2023 +
π½ now playing: Up My Sleeves by Death Grips π½
- college is starting next monday
- i woke up late again
- i went to the cafe as well and had a quick chat with my girlfriend
- i wonder if something bad's gonna happen to me if i stop making these posts...
π½ now playing: Good For Your Soul by Oingo Boingo π½
- i remade this song on that thirtydollar.website soundfont page
- i don't kknow why i just was bored
- i have too much time on my hands
- wrong song
- i wonder if i should link the stuff i listen to
π½ now playing: Fresh by DEVO π½
- this song makes me think about when i wen...
jan 24 2023 ∞ jan 24 2023 +
π½ now playing: Alberto Basalm by Aphex Twin π½
- it's almost 5 over here
- i hope that i don't fall asleep till 3 again i have a lot to do
- maybe i'll turn on the aphex twin ambience album and sleep till 11
- i say i have a lot to do all the time and nothing ever gets done
- maybe i just don't know where to start. i need to drink water i'm hungry
- school starts up again next monday
- i'm finally excited to actually be doing something and not rotting away like i have been the past month and a half
- good fucking lord
- i have 2 art classes and one graphic design class
- yahoo
π½ now playing: Private Life by Oingo Boingo π½
jan 22 2023 ∞ jan 23 2023 +
π½ now playing: Losing My Edge by LCD Soundsystem π½
- today feels kind of gross
- i think i'll grab a coffee or something
- i had some italian wedding soup it actually tasted good
- i need to clean on top of my dresser and find a good place to put my records so they're not gonna get fucked up
- i got three new records i mentioned that two days ago
- the record store i got them from is hiring so maybe i can work at the record store like james murphy said he did
- i've never been wrong
- i used to work at a record store
- had everything
- before anyone
jan 22 2023 ∞ jan 22 2023 +
π½ now playing: Pain by Oingo Boingo π½
- the anxiety is kind of dying down a little which is good
- maybe tonight i'll be able to sleep with the lights off for the first time in days
- i got a new physical journal to put the stuff i wouldn't publish in
- i gifted one to my gf as well
- there are some secrets of mine that i will never share
- i went to starbucks before though
- it was nice my gf and i drew and talked
- i think i'm going to go draw now
- sorry for the small entry
jan 21 2023 ∞ jan 21 2023 +
π½ now playing: Mind/Body/Light/Sound by Swans π½
- i was twitching from anxiety all night last night and i'm pissed cause i can't get any sleep
- i feel anxious again
- i don't know when my gf's getting out of rehearsal i should ask her lol
- yesterday she had to go to a church event
π½ now playing: Pedestrian Wolves by Oingo Boingo π½
- i feel anxious but really
- i fucking hate the way my body feels right now
- maybe watching skinamarink wasn't the best idea like
- two severely mentally ill and paranoid best friends go watch a movie that plays on your severe mental illnesses and paranoi...
jan 19 2023 ∞ jan 21 2023 +
π½ now playing: Three Bedrooms in a Good Neighborhood by Death Grips π½
- iβm back in my hometown again!!!!
- this fucking app crashed while i was making this entry so uuugh
- iβm out right now though i got starbucks and iβm walking around cause i didnβt get much exercise when i was at the cabin
- i finally get to catch up on all the stuff i said i would draw
- i forgot my charger at home so all i had was my sketchbook
- i had a bad breakdown but itβs okay now!!!
- i watched The Thing again and i also watched other movies like Downsizing
- downsizing was a weird ass movie and it had like this overall theme about capitalism and stuff and the environment
- basically it was about this thing people ...
jan 18 2023 ∞ jan 18 2023 +
π½ now playing: Breathe (In The Air) by Pink Floyd π½
- iβve been stuck in a cabin for days
- iβm going home tomorrow so thatβs good
- uuuuuuuuuuu sorry the posts have been short
jan 18 2023 ∞ jan 18 2023 +
π½ now playing: Nookie by Limp Bizkit π½
- i donβt think i left the cabin at all today
- no wonder why iβve been feeling so sad today
- itβs blue monday
- honestly i just want to go home now but what would i do then?
- at this point iβm just waiting for college to start up again because iβve had enough of the days blending together
- i did nothing i wanted to
- itβll be fine
- iβll be fine
jan 17 2023 ∞ jan 17 2023 +
π½ now playing: Superstition by Stevie Wonder π½
- sorry itβs so late i watched the thing again
- in the mouth of madness is on again
- a lot of bad things happened today and yesterday and i hope it gets better
jan 16 2023 ∞ jan 16 2023 +
π½ now playing: Children of God by AJJ π½
- i'm so fucking understimulated it's not funny anymore
- i wish that i could finish something for once in my life
- but what's the point if nothing's going to come from it? like nothing i do seems like it's ever going to take off
- idk. i'm trying to draw but it's not coming out right
- should i just force myself?
π½ now playing: Giving Bad People Good Ideas by Death Grips π½
- just had like 2 breakdowns
- maybe today's not my day
- or maybe the bad luck from yesterday was just delayed
- idk
- i'm gonna go walking once the sun comes up
jan 14 2023 ∞ jan 15 2023 +
π½ now playing: Ain't This The Life by Oingo Boingo π½
- hey ugys it's 2:30 pm
- i don't think i'm going anywhere today
- i feel so drained right now
- honestly i feel a little sad because i didn't do much over my break
- it's kind of funny bow quickly time can pass if you let it
- honestly i also feel kind of sick lol
- not like illness sick just "i wanna go back into bed and sleep kind of sick"
- i think i want to draw something today but i just haven't had the energy
- also i'm probably going to start on the other title card
- idk man i wish i was a little healthier but i don't know where to start
π½ now playing: True by Danny Elfman π½
- i'm at starbucks again uee hee
jan 13 2023 ∞ jan 14 2023 +
π½ now playing: Better Times by Danny Elfman π½
- it's thursday
- my gf came over and i showed her my old computer
- sorry for the short update i'm on a call with my friend watching him play tboi
- bye till tomrorrrrow
jan 13 2023 ∞ jan 13 2023 +
π½ now playing: The Powers that B by Death Grips π½
- i'm at my dad's work again and yippee i actually have my surface open rn!!!!
- i think i'm going to try and write some scenes for SOR and maybe sketch out what the final title card for Rodney's going to look like
- i need to update the thumbnail for ulthar's oc sheet on the other list tee eeeeeeee
- death grips is nice
- it's also freezing in this fucking break room but i think that i can't leave until my dad does
- i forgot that the last time that i was here the wifi couldn't penetrate the door and i had to wait till my dad got out of the lab
- so i guess i'm stuck here lmfao
- whatever lol i can still write i like the...
jan 11 2023 ∞ jan 11 2023 +
π½ now playing: Snowblind by Styx π½
- good afternoon
- i woke up with a headache
- i think i'll make waffles or somethin g
- i love how tommy shaw sings it's really recognizable
- such a melodious voice
- i wanna meet him and dennis (even though he's not part of the band) and jy and the panozzo twins too
- maybe someday
- i'm growing out my hair cause i realized i can be a dude with long hair
- idk though because perople keep calling me ma'am and she at first glance and it suckssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
- anyways i think i'm going to go make some waffles
π½ now playing: Little Birds by Neutral Milk... π½
jan 10 2023 ∞ jan 11 2023 +
π½ now playing: Shitshow by Death Grips π½
- good afternoon everyone
- my thought of the day is that modern horror games seem to be too marketed towards children
- it sucks only having "family friendly" horror games
- i don't know if this is gonna get any better
- and as an artist things are getting more and more difficult because now all the media wants to see are these brightly colored, many-toothed things that have no fear factor at all other than the occasional cheesy jumpscare
- sorry for the rant
- i found my laminate and now i'm gonna draw some stuff to throw in the cricut
- it's been a while since i did any stuff with my cricut
- i haven't drawn anything yet
- i can't sort things by importance!!! i do...
jan 9 2023 ∞ jan 10 2023 +
π½ now playing: Snowblind by Styx π½
- wondercon's coming up
- i wonder what i'll do for it
- i have a lot of work to do before march
- i paused my music and rn i'm watching a walkthrough of I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream
- it's a cool game i love harlan ellison's voice in this game
- idk what i wanna draw
- i'll check back in when i finally find something to do
- maybe i'll make stickers
π½ now playing: Loose Cannon by Puzzle π½
- i couldn't find the laminate i was looking for but i did find some nice green nail polish
- i'm gonna kind of fix myself tonight, shower, paint my nails black and green like an alien
jan 8 2023 ∞ jan 9 2023 +
π½ now playing: Haven't We Been Here Before by Styx π½
- i can't sleep, pms hit HARD while i was with my gf and it sucked
- i didn't even order anything from starbucks
- we made up later though which makes me very happy
- anyways i think i'm going to long beach
- i think i get to meet a prop guy i've been thinking about for a while which is cool
- i hope i can still update lol
- i don't know what to wear ooooogh
- GOD i love styx jesus fuck
- also the computer has been brought inside so i am VERY very happy about that uee hee
π½ now playing: Queen of Spades by Styx π½
- apparently it was an anime con. that's fi...
jan 7 2023 ∞ jan 8 2023 +
π½ now playing: Glory Be by Oingo Boingo π½
- first time in a while that i haven't stayed up all night
- the other night i got myself lip balm for me and my gf
- i haven't called the doctor, nor have i cleared out a space
- i did however write a lot about my ocs, and i added lore for barnard
- m3gan came out today, but i doubt it's anything within my taste
- i don't think i'm gonna go out today, i don't want a repeat of what happened when we saw smile
- wondering if i actually got traumatized that night, not by the movie but by the manager of the restaurant nearby iykyk
- i hope that i'll actually be able to draw some more today, when i was out last night i forgot my sketchbook :(
- i went to the store and got some fruit an...
jan 7 2023 ∞ jan 7 2023 +
- i actually feel compelled to write something for once
- i'm working on a lorebuilding project with my friends online and it's been fun so far
- i have to draw a lot though LMAO i have to make an entire comic
- a part of me is telling me that this isn't really a priority right now
- let's just see how this turns out
update (12 PM, 1/5/2023)
- i did not write. i sat there and didn't do anything
- i'm so tired and i wish i was home right now
- also i just had an espresso shot and i'm terrified it's gonna do something to my stomach.
- i mean i have water but still
- this place got me drinkin potions π
jan 5 2023 ∞ jan 5 2023 +
- i've been trying to fix my schedule for three days, maybe the way i'm doing it isn't very healthy
- i've pulled like three all nighters trying to make sure i'm mad exhausted by the end of the day
- i have to wake up early tomorrow anyway i think i'll try it just one more time
- i'll try to update this every day or as much as i can, just like my friend does
- i don't know how this thing works so i don't know if i inherently have to make things on here bullet points
- a part of me says yes, the word "list" is in the name, and i don't know if this site counts as a blog
- whatever i'll figure it out as i go along
jan 5 2023 ∞ jan 5 2023 +
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