👽 now playing: Schism by TOOL 👽

• i'm so fucking tired
• i jolted awake at 4 am and i couldn't go back to sleep
• i took my pills so i don'tknow if i CAN go back to sleep

👽 now playing: Cemetry Gates by The Smiths 👽

• i thought about that boy again
• god i remembered that he could die at any time
• i'm crying right now
• i also took 2 pills and i'm so fucking scared
• i wonder if the meds are doing this with me
• i've been relying on kwh to pull me through the adjustment period of the medication i hope that i don't associate it with this...
• wonder if i can go ahead and associate it w the first semester of college

👽 now playing: Strawberry Fields Forever by The Beatles 👽

• turns out my meds could possibly make me hallucinate
• i miss that boy
• seems like we both have fucked up organs...
• his heart is fucked up and my brain is fucked up...
• we were meant for each other
• but we were meant for each other in other ways
• i wanna see him and hold him again
• i want him to hold me again
• i'll do anything to feel us holding each other again