anthony

• my first kiss ever. he was much older than me, but since i developed early he didn't seem to care. i was naive, i only wanted boys to like me. so when he grabbed me by the hips and pushed himself into me i swallowed my uncomfortableness and let his tongue invade my mouth. i had never felt so disgusted in my entire life.

shawna

• i was walking past her house as i heard the loud music from her car. she got fired, we sat outside and i let her complain for an hour.i hugged her a lot. she kissed me. i was just at the right place at the right time.

becky

• we were sitting in their basement with their younger brother. "do girls kiss like boys and girls kiss?" he was so interested in the way they looked at me. we laid in bed and talked about how cute their brother was. we kissed goodnight. their name is josh now.

jesse

• i was too drunk to go home, he let me sleep over. i was sprawled across his bed playing with his cat. he sat down beside me. i didn't know what was happening so i looked up to see. he kissed me. we kissed for the next four years.

zachary

• jesse kicked us out of his house. zach was mad at him, so was i. he kissed me in my room to get back at him. he wanted more from me, i cried in the shower.

ryan

• we walked down the beach after a bonfire, i guess we were a little drunk. he started dancing with me, i thought he was crazy. it was a lot of fun. he spun me around and i tripped in the sand. he laid beside me while i laughed. he pulled me onto his chest and kissed me a bunch.

efner

• he took me to the field behind my house to try and be romantic. we were supposed to look at the stars, the field was a swamp. he fell into the mud, we laughed for an hour. he walked me home and apologized for the disappointing evening. we kissed goodnight. i never learned his first name .

lauren

• she had the biggest crush on me, but she also had a girlfriend. we spent a week together before she crawled into my bed and told me she was single. i started covering her face in kisses, i felt bad. she kissed me so hard i forgot what i felt bad about.

kurt

• we kissed at midnight on new years eve. he started kissing me a few seconds before midnight- i thought it was the most romantic thing. i ended up going home with him that night. i thought i loved him. i didn't.

sam

• she kissed me after kurt pulled away at midnight. she was my best friend at the time, it still counted. i think her boyfriend was jealous she got to kiss me and he didn't. her lips tasted like whiskey.

johnny

• the day after new years i went back to sams house. he took me to the bathroom, we kissed.. a lot. he started feeling me up against the wall. we snuck upstairs. i slept with him. we kissed some more.

eric

• at least i think that was his name. we were standing outside a convenience store with our friends, it was late at night. we were complete strangers both downtown for nuit blanche. you threw your spare change down my shirt, i shoved my half eaten chocolate chip cookie in his mouth. we hugged goodbye and proceeded to make out for the next twenty minutes. i don't even remember what he looks like.

briaunna

• we were laying in our hotel room on the bed- out of nowhere she reached for my hand. then she kissed me like she meant it. i believed her.

jordan

• it was my first night in portland and we laid in her bed with nothing but christmas lights illuminating our surroundings. she took my hands and put them on her body, i touched her like she was a delicate work of art. she whispered along to the arctic monkeys, she was so beautiful. i kissed her, she kissed me . we kissed all night.

alana

• it was my last night in san diego, we were wrapped up in each other watching a scary movie. she turned half her body to face me. she kissed me. once. we never talked about it again. i still think about it, i still don't know if i meant anything to her.

avory

• it'd been a year since we broke up when i ran into him. he watched my lips the entire time i spoke. i told myself i didn't want to kiss him i was lying . he asked me if it was okay for him to kiss me, i just kissed him instead. i cried all the way home.

brodie

• we sat at a bus stop for four hours dangling our legs over a hill of grass in the freezing cold. i complained about the temperature, she held my hand. i complained again but she stopped me mid sentence by putting her lips on mine. i think she just wanted to shut me up. we never spoke again.

christian

• he asked me why i was sitting on the edge of his bed. i crawled closer and laid against his chest. he started running his fingers against my side. we were listening to teen suicide, i looked up at him to smile and he kissed me. we kissed a lot more.