i throw my plates against the wall / and give it all i got / i aim to break not one but all / i'm just a big ol' wrecking ball

general info

• name: saeran choi
• nicknames/aliases: unknown
• source: mystic messenger
• pronouns: he/him
• biggest comforts: 707, v & mc
• brief description: bang bang

CONTENT WARNINGS

• child abuse
• torture
• death
• murder
• brainwashing

memories

default info:

• i had bpd.
• i was aroace.
• i killed my mother. i don't think anyone really wants to hear the details of that tbh.
• i lived with jihyun for a while before living with rika. it was a very pleasant time.
• mc had a bad family background & was couch surfing when i contact her.

saeyoungs route:

• first route.
• strictly followed canon.
• i was never told what happened to rika. as far as i was concerned, she was gone for good.
• i regretted shooting jihyun but i didn't really feel guilty for it? i felt detached from it, as if it hadn't really been me? i did wish it hadnt happened though
• i was convinced that jumin hated me
• i thought mc was literally an angel. like, an angel from heaven sent to save me. she was a very good friend
• saeyoung made me my own version of robocat. i loved it a lot and took it everywhere i went
• mc & saeyoung were very pda. i complained about it a lot
• saeyoung opened a toy shop and was very happy to run it
• i never moved out of saeyoung's house. i didn't really want to & tbh i dont think i couldve coped living alone
• i was good friends with vanderwood! we complained about saeyoung's antics together

jaehee's route:

• the best route
• nobody died.
• saeyoung took my away from mint eye. i dunno what happened to rika.
• mc wasn't a huge part of our lives. she spent most of her time with jaehee, and wasn't there when saeyoung saved me. i did see her every now and then, though.
• yoosung was around a lot though. he used to play games with me. his company was very relaxing.
• jihyun and jumin were very close, and they lived together. i don't think jihyun was very well for a long time, but i wasn't very aware of what was happening with him for a while.
• i did, eventually, make up with jihyun. saeyoung stayed angry for a long time though.
• i went to jaehee's cafe sometimes! she made very nice sweet coffee for me.

jumin's route:

• i don't remember much from jumin's route.
• i really liked elizabeth 3rd though! her fur was so soft and it felt nice when she lay on my lap and purred.
• i think i was 're-educated' sometime after the rfa's party.

yoosung's route:

• awful, awful. bad time.
• i was really messed up after what i did to yoosung. obviously he had it worse but, yeah.
• i was a lot more extreme after that. i think i blew up rika's apartment. mc wasn't in it when it happened, but...
• saeyoung came to save me, but i nearly killed him.

jumin's men came and took mint eye down. i escaped by myself.

• i don't know what happened after that. i might've just died someplace.

yoosung bad story end 3:

• i was awful, basically torturing yoosung to try and send a message to saeyoung.
• eventually yoosung killed me. i guess he was desperate. he strangled me with a chain, but i don't know what happened after that.

yoosung bad story end 1:

• the apartment blew up with both yoosung & mc inside. they both died & i think a number of others were injured
• all i remember is watching the cctv recording & trying to switch the bomb off when i realised what was going on, because if it exploded our plans would be delayed. obviously i didn't succeed.

yoosung bad story end 2:

• yoosung and mc both became members of mint eye!

honestly i found them kind of annoying, but i liked them more than the rest of mint eye

• i dont remember much else about this ending

saeyoung bad story end 2:

• saeyoung and mc disappeared. as far as i am aware i never saw either of them again.
• eventually jihyun came to try and shut down mint eye, but his plan did not work. i don't remember the specifics, but by the end of it the two of us had to flee from mint eye.
• jihyun did not want to contact jumin or the rest of rfa for help, and we ended up hiding in some cheap hotel.
• i wanted to go back to magenta, but i'm not entirely sure why i didn't.

routes that i know happened but i have no memories of:

• prologue bad end
• both day 5 bad ends
• jaehee relationship bad end 1

people found:

• yoosung, saeyoung, mc, v, vanderwood, rika.

other information:

• these shifts tends to leave me very paranoid.