a falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes / i screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

general info

• name: kinshiro kusatsu
• nicknames/aliases: aurite, the golden chevalier
• source: bouei-bu
• pronouns: he/him
• biggest comforts: the conquest club, atsushi & yumoto
• brief description: teenager tries to take over world because of curry

memories:

• i couldn’t understand that other people were different to me & wanted / liked different things to me, which caused a lot of problems especially as a child. i didn’t like being around people because of this, they were too confusing
• i also had really bad sensory issues & found being other children difficult & tiring because of that
• which was why i liked atsushi so much. he wasn’t confusing and he wasn’t loud. he liked spending time with me, too, and gave me attention & validation i didn’t really get from anywhere else.
• for the same reasons, i liked arima. i didn’t idolise him to the same level i did with atsushi, but i was very dependent on him.
• it took me a bit longer to warm up to akoya, but he grew on me. after i started paying attention to him he became quite predictable, which was really comforting. he also had a similar worldview to me which was nice
• when the whole curry thing happened i thought that atsushi was abandoning me in favour of en, so i tried to push him away so it would hurt less… i did kind of realise i was wrong, but the fact that he never mentioned anything to me made me think he just didnt care enough to try & fix things
• i remembered arima when he came back, but i pretended not to so he wouldn’t ask me about atsushi
• arima & akoya just being there saved my life so many times. i’m really grateful to them for it.
• i believe zundar chose me because i was easy to manipulate & he saw my instability as being good for the ratings. he fed into my delusions & made me heavily reliant on him by becoming a sympathetic ear to me. i can see how it was manipulative & bad, but i still find it hard to hate him ^^;
• yes, i did have a crush on atsushi. not sure if anything ever became of it though.
• at some point i became close enough to yufuin to go to his house. he had a pet of some sort (dog? cat? not sure) that i quite enjoyed stroking. i have a few memories of really enjoying his company too & im? not sure what to make of them

found:

• akoya, yumoto.