Kim Minseok ; 900326.

• ⠀— he was an unexpected surprise, the defining moment. i never expected it to be him, you know? but it is him. it’s all him. and now there’s no looking back.

I know we don't choose who we love, but even if i had the power to, i'd still choose him. over everyone. in every way. i've always wanted to find something to live for. to love, to admire, to be inspired by. and i've finally found him. he's the most genuine person i've ever met. he's sunshine on rainy days. he's a sparkle in the dark. he's a song in deep silence. he's a hand when there's no one. my purpose. everytime someone asks me what makes me happy i can't help but to think of him.

honestly, i don't hink i will ever meet someone that could really compare to him i could see all sorts of people, and no matter who they are or what they say, they can't capture my attention quite the way he can. i could talk to all sorts of other people, yet i always find myself thinking about how they're not quite as charming as him, or they don't make me laugh quite as genuinely. i know people always say your first love is the person you compare everyone to, but maybe they've got it wrong. maybe the person you compare everyone to isn't your first love, but your true love.

and that's him, the love that came without warning; he had my heart before i could say no i just fell in love with the way he touched me without using his hands. he found parts of me i didn't know existed and in him i found a love i no longer believed was real. it was instinctive, the way i fell for him. like and effortless intake of breath. and i started to want him. i wanted him in the bluntest ways. i wanted his lips, his arms, i wanted him the way the ocean wants the shore, constantly reaching and running back. i wanted him the way rain wants to fall the way the sun wants to shine, the way words want to be read. i wanted him to infinity, to the millionth degree, no amount of rain could douse the fire i had in me for him.

god, i love him so much, i love the sound of his voice and the way i feel listening to it. i love his warm smile and his kind, thoughtful way. i love the joy that he brings to my life every day. i love how he wears his piercings and is proud of it. i love how he loves fashion and how his eyes shine when he talks about it. i love his stupid pictures on instagram. i love how he makes me want to sing cheesy songs and write cheesy poems for him. god, i just love him so deeply.

cause he's my my sun and everything that can make you feel good just by looking at it

and right now i feel like if a lived a million lives, i would've fallen a million times for him