• #1 CVLTVRE - Birthday Song

Thank you for being understanding with my career and passion, it doesn't go unnoticed. You know this, but just want to know it even more.

• #2 Ghost Key - Heart Support

"Even when you're lost, I still feel at home"

The most meaningful song in this album, Its not easy, but we'll keep fighting for what we love.

• #3 TheCityIsOurs - Low

Post loss feels, thank you for giving me my space. It might of been a hard one but this is whats best for me. To reflect, even if it brings some depression.

• #4 Mayfield - Careless Love

"Careless love, you left me a broken home You're all I have, don't let me go"

Everytime i listen to this song now, it brings me back to that night at the gym, when i was beyond furious at you. Whilst this song was playing, it was weird timing and the song sort of relates to that moment. I thought about taking this out of the mix, but its raw feelings. Whenever you think about guilting me or making me feel bad for things i cant control, give this song a listen. Might help.

• #5 Mirrors - Cold Sanctuary

"Barely breathing, barely sane As my dreams, they make a curve As I lay here, I get what I deserve"

Emo song, some feels i gained post loss. That i deserve what i get, and i see in a way the way you looked at me and painted that picture, maybe i deserved it. That is what i created of myself, thats why im changing for 2020. Love you, and thank you.

• #6 Survive Said The Prophet

"Fight stand for nothing However I’m crashing down for you You give me reason To get all and try Again"

Wouldn't be who i am without you, you give me reason to keep fighting and look at my future in a realistic way, without you id be a loser. You underestimate what you bring to everything you do, people around you constantly say how amazing you are and i see it every day. I wish you saw it more yourself, because your an amazing human. I love you.

• #7 ONE OK ROCK - The Beginning

"Just give me a reason To keep my heart beating Don't worry, it's safe right here in my arms As the world falls apart around us All we can do is hold on, hold on"

• #8 Bilmuri - iloveyou

randomly came up on my discover weekly, and figured. Whats a mix without a gay Bilmuri song? <3

• #9 Ember - Tapestry

Dont have to explain this song, just that it describes you to a T.

Happy birthday, sorry for the 1 year late mix. Hopefully a better holidays as im here this time :) I love you.