im worried that things are never going to get better for me and that im alwyas going to feel this sense of sadness and not belonging and emptiness. i can have "good"days but in the end its always in the back of my mind how horrible the world is and how im actually not even in control of my own life. my family has disowned me and im having to live off of omeone else eright now. yeah i have an ok job and income but no fucking reason to be making it if im always just goigg to be fucking SAD everyone hates me dude