- it's 15 days into the new year and much has happened
- because apparently i decided to ruin my life by hurting one of the people i love most in the world
- today i spoke to a care partner with a new mental health service
- and i'm feeling... hopeful?
- hopeful that i can fix my broken brain and fix my broken self and fix the way i love him so i can make us better
- i do not wish to be at war with myself anymore
- and so i will make the radical decision to better myself
- while i could sit in self-pity and hate myself and despise my guts and wish that car would hit me so that i may be absolved of responsibility, i do not deserve that
- i will decide to be better. i have decided to be better.
jan 15 2021 ∞
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